we mostly feel

There are those times when the search is on, so to speak. When we search we find, but what we find may actually be a costume on Halloween. We may see things in another that are untrue; but true because we believe it so, so bad. Because our want to believe far exceeds the reality, our daily process can become completely garnished with excesses that give off perception with reasoning behind it. This can then encompass us from the inside; actually changing our internal codes and structures even though we know deep down that what we are doing is completely free from all rationality. So we search from the inside no matter what the season for that something inside another we can connect with without the tailored responses coming from a desperate frame of mind that nobody can see but most can feel.