It seems like I spend most of my time waiting for something to happen. Even if I didn't initiate action, still, I expect a full reaction. I do believe this is a form of insanity. Maybe it's experience, but something tells me nothing will happen if I continue this ridiculous waiting.

Once the past is gone, there is nothing that I can do to change it. This is a good thing. I have never really been bothered by my past. Sure I fucked up. But that is no reason not to accept it. I mean, there have been a lot of fuck ups by myself and everyone I know. Knowing that they cannot be changed frees the future up for even more fuck ups. They will be of a different kind, but fuck ups nonetheless they shall be.