sophisticated ride

It was quite a ride, that silence, that solice. The multitude of fascinations and inclinations that have came across my path have been numerous to this point. I am overwhelmed at times and in need of a faithful servant, a lover, a friend. In my alone time I have learned to take down the wall that has been so pervasive in my every thought and encounter. But still I harbor that everpresent armor that we all try so hard to hide from time to time. This is not a weakness of character, it is but one small part of a most significant ride. LLC

no bs man

I seek my even flow from the waters that never vary in strength or consistency. They run smooth and crisp while cutting through the meadows that are packed with pine trees like crayons in the box. I feel too much here and the words drive me mad. The cars, the noise, the way people are and act; this is all so far removed from our practice. When we were younger we role played visciously. That was us kids creating our behavior; the scrappy kind amongst others cubs like us. That was our practice. We get older and lose our play and exchange it for conformity so we can get grey and die unhappy as the kids piss all the money away while claiming they actually earned it only to wind up pulling doubles at Leroy's Big Mouth Burger while harboring a meth addiction and an affinity for schnapps, imported beer, and cam nons. Yes, an even flow is what I seek. The kind that is free from any and all bullshit! But hey, is that really possible?

striking somewhat

In our consciousness we endeavor the best they can see. We seek the approval of those who we admire even if we don't even know them or have nay reason to trust them. We do this in the hope of self improvement and material gain; not to mention the social standing and responsibility that comes with these roles. What is unexpected is coming to grips with the knowledge that those you once thought to be your friends are actually not as close as you would have liked. That said it is the number one most important thing to become involved in persuits that are relevant only to you. Balance comes when you learn how to treat people along the way by remaining leary of those who strike a pose at every chance they see a reflection of themselves; to check themselves and make sure their presentation is somewhat striking and individualistic.