alone

The loneliest of people are not the ones who are literally alone. The loneliest people are the ones who have to get up in the morning and put themselves together for something they cannot stand; another day of doing the same things over and over again with the same people over and over again. We all need to break free from the solitude of being an actor and celebrate who we really are as people.

away

I often feel down or out of sorts in one way or the other. I do not know where it comes from, this darkness. But I do know why it is there: to test me. I have got to believe that or I will lose my mind again. The one thing I never want to do is drink. But lately, drinking seems like it would be a pretty good way to avoid this darkness. The only problem with me and drinking is that we like each other way too much. After some time the darkest of times will return and I will want to die... again.