few rewards

She lives a separate life, we all do. In this life is the sanctity of feeling and togetherness. She has practiced and practiced over and over again. She has perfected the art of self deception to a T. She misfires often but due to her compartmentalization techniques developed over years and years of self hatred in the pursuit of the alternate life, she has been able to maintain her presentation with some courteousness. However, she fails in following through. She runs and hides and has excuses that are fail safe at the ready. She has attained her status and now wants to reap the rewards which there are few. Now she adds a whole new denial to the knapsack. Her denial of attraction: just more thoughts to place in the big bag that grows bigger still. LLc 98.2

inside the you

Fantasy land is fun and people live there. It is not a dream, it is very real and happening everyday in you and everyone around you. Inside this montage is the most compelling effect of them all. It is your favorite thing and it is the sole reason you are thriving there inside the you. It is also the main reason you cannot thrive outside your mind. Is reality all that bad that you rely on the mental images of you decorated in fine fabric and you are OK with that; far removed from your presentation of yourself; far removed from the real you who could never be let free as far as you can see over the heavy humps you have placed in front of yourself? Plus, nobody gives a shit! LLc 98.2