always have been

Shield the rain that inevitably comes from your ducts no longer. Holding back these kind of emotions means the manifestation of a new habit built upon another. This will continue until you have a monument of you built up so high it would take twice as long to break it apart. The problem with that is the monument of yourself is nowhere near the real you. It is a representation of one thing built upon another and it is all based, at least in part, on a lack of ability to release emotions in tear form. This would be especially helpful for all people as it is not gender specific. We just get caught up sometimes and forget just how strong and valuable we all are. Let the salt flow in public or private and laugh a little. These two things will generate a fresh outlook that will remind you of the person you always have been but forgot about.

suffering commercially

Commercials made up by people in ad agencies, shoveled through the media, bought and paid for by fat cats in their desire to create more revenue for their companies, really do have an effect on all of us. Ads are so pervasive these days that we do not have to be conscious of them all to get what they are selling. Our brains pick up everything and we remember the colors in the ads on the highways just as easily as we remember the bearded guy who sells orange clean between 2 and 7 in the morning. I even have some of that shit myself. It smells like warm, oily oranges simmering on a stove way up high in the mountains. No walls, no cabin; just a stove in the woods next to a really big tree filled with chiggers and mites. Commercials and media ruins people for generations as the successful adman buys yet another shiny new thing to display his power. Meanwhile, people in society actually believe their bullshit. We all suffer in our beliefs.