fast times have fled

It begins relatively slowly but one knows when its coming. I starts like a rounding imaginary tide that surrounds you. You feel its influence as it slowly snakes you in with all the thoughts that have just gotten, well, too much to bare. The one solution is obvious and usual for some people. You just grab that drink and calm down; kicking one thought after another from your tide. But the tide remains powerful and sometimes even stronger after the first day of drinking. The second day must now begin, usually at six am at the nearest grocery store with a standard 30 pack of beer. It is dark, people are just waking up, and truely nobody cares anyway. So you go back home and try and relax with that first beer foaming over your hand as it flows down the face. This begins the stinking process.
By day three you have graduated to thinking about what you will do tomorrow with your drunken ass. You can't drive or operate machinery because you now smell like sweat, dirt, and liquor. The only thing you can do is have a relatively sober friend who does not mind hanging out with your drunk ass as you beging the fifth day drive you to the store.
Remember, all this with little water and hardly any food. Oh quit- there are many young men and women who have starved themselves for months. There are many men and woman who rationalize their drinking patterns. There are just some of us that who, in the beginning storm, choose to hide away in a sea of gold and silver. The come down is the hardest you know. The come up is even harder at times.
It does begin slowly for some of us, especially when the fast times have fled and the water receeds, that one gets to explore the opposite of participation; the opposite of motivation; the opposite of fun in general, to be replaced by major movie watching, sleeping, shopping, eating, or anything that can be seen as a viable substitue for the tide pools that sucked you and all your thoughts into a world of consumption and shit. Balance, I laugh at it! LLc 98.2

wild

I am going to show you my strengths and weaknesses. I am going to involve you in everything about me. I in turn promise to do exactly and precisely the same as I desire you in your way. I want to remain silent in time, but at the same time I want to have some say in things. This of course would be up for your consideration because I value your opinion; often times more so than my own. 98.2 LLc

resemblance of reason

Welcome my friend to the new reality. Welcome to the suspicious nature of the progression of man; at his own detriment. Welcome to the combined efforts of those who came before us. Welcome to your new machine. Never satisfied you will be, always striving, hoping to achieve. Make no mistake, beyond the glimpses they bestow upon you, there is a resemblance of reasonibility. There is a spark of consciousness that does not separate but combine. This is the spark we need enjoy. LLc 98.2

missing

What if we could somehow take control and recognize the happiness signs. Too often we miss these little diddies on our way to self deprication. We miss the idea that our place here is a temporary one; one that means a great deal. Because of our humanness we miss being human sometimes. LLc 98.2

surf

I heard a song today. It reminded me of the passing fancy we have for the unknown. Those who say they know are liars, but they claim to know all the same. There can be no greater abundance of lies than in those notes. Those who claim have no idea; greater so than those who claim otherwise. To be in it you must be out of it. There are no other ways truthfully. LLc 98.2

coming real soon

The will to be is always something to behold. The kind of life one chooses to live can set the stage for something unseen. The commonalities that exist between one generation to the other can inevitably be the downfall of other generations. This is where the fundamental truth of isolation comes into play.
The truth is that often people will say and do things that are representative of the days when those who said it were right, in their minds. You see, there are many things to take into consideration when taking advice from another. There is no amount of past inequities founded on goals attained in those days that can suffice in our time now; those comparisons are useless and burdensome.
The time is now with respect to the future. The time is now to unleash the toll man has bestowed upon himself. To make the world one again, man must go beyond the politics of dissention; beyond the politics of life, beyond all our individual goals; to reconcile with the one who brung us. If not, we will see.

selfish prick

This is evil.

I will allow to be subservient to me. I will allow you to be yourself so long as it does not affect the outcome with which I have conceived for us. If what you say or do conflicts with my plans, I will make your life miserable forever yet still be in complete conrol of your entire life. Welcome to you and your life with me. I want you to become old and unsatisfied because that is all I have to look forward too.

These are words nobody hears. Do you know them? If you do, you are in a bad place where everything else is a step forward.