love always clear

Love is more than a whisper, more than a touch. It surrounds us all and it leads sometimes from behind. It is made up of energy containing harmony and acquiescence. It fools us and blinds us; sometimes to the point of anger and frustration. But love is not universally known and it takes on so many forms. No matter of material can show or prove ones love for another. It takes more than a whisper and a touch. It takes the belief that beyond our relm exists the answers we seek. But we require more than mere answers. We require things we should not require. The other relm has no requirements other than the love and belief system you came in with. It is the only true thing the people of earth can never take away from one another. LLc 98.2

keeper desires

Love is the rose and passion is the stem. The flower is representative of all our sin. It flourishes in the sunlight and wilts during the night; only to bloom again come morning sun. Its duration is as long as the keeper desires. His ability to care not only for the flower herself but the soil beneath her is paramount. Much time and planning and practice has to take place. This means that failure must also be involved. Still, when failure happens it serves as an experience in time; one to be measured and learned from. Still more, there will always be a rose because there will always be someone who cares and cares passionately. It is the passion inside that represents the free standing man in the stem's form and it is love that drives and gives reason to be a gardener. LLc 98.2

slow

I am engulfed in the proposition that things must improve because, although they can become worse, these things are in flux. Things always are because if they were not, then this whole thing we are involved with could be viewed as one giant experiment gone awry. Those on high; he on high, whoever it be fat or skinny, must see our progression and laugh. I guess the good thing is that without all the BS we get to experience each and every day we would have no way to track things and see how we move at a snails pace.
Red tape mingling with procedure and the status of achieving individuals slows progress down so everyone can get a piece of the pie. Like birds from the air these pigeons pluck the finance away just like they were trained to do. This is but one thing in a myriad of things we all must contend with so the trails we mark can be colored to the appropriate corporation. Nothing like a sell out to keep the dollar moving. LLc 98.2

ever will again and again

She was soft and steady in her ways. The dominant feelings of the day pervaded her every way. Is not easy she would often say. Lies rarely are I would respond. The comfortability of the matter lies in the absence of lies. To become a liar is one thing, to maintain the lie is another thing altogether. There is no sense in the manufacturing and maintenance of lies, but lies are all we see; they are all that we know. We all have a one way ticket to the big show once our eyes open, truly open up to the deceitful practices of man. We do these things because we are worthless and easily manipulated by the mainstream idealisms of those we cannot see and ever will. LLc 98.2

few rewards

She lives a separate life, we all do. In this life is the sanctity of feeling and togetherness. She has practiced and practiced over and over again. She has perfected the art of self deception to a T. She misfires often but due to her compartmentalization techniques developed over years and years of self hatred in the pursuit of the alternate life, she has been able to maintain her presentation with some courteousness. However, she fails in following through. She runs and hides and has excuses that are fail safe at the ready. She has attained her status and now wants to reap the rewards which there are few. Now she adds a whole new denial to the knapsack. Her denial of attraction: just more thoughts to place in the big bag that grows bigger still. LLc 98.2

inside the you

Fantasy land is fun and people live there. It is not a dream, it is very real and happening everyday in you and everyone around you. Inside this montage is the most compelling effect of them all. It is your favorite thing and it is the sole reason you are thriving there inside the you. It is also the main reason you cannot thrive outside your mind. Is reality all that bad that you rely on the mental images of you decorated in fine fabric and you are OK with that; far removed from your presentation of yourself; far removed from the real you who could never be let free as far as you can see over the heavy humps you have placed in front of yourself? Plus, nobody gives a shit! LLc 98.2

drink to fit

I know she reads a lot. She must lose herself in deep thought. I suspect she drinks which fits the profile to a T. I know there have been many a night when me and a roommate solved all the worlds problems over a couple cases of beer and some other crude form of poisoning.
She wants to make real changes but feels tied to a lowly spot; a spot unclean and filled with lustful thoughts. Then again, if you live in this society you have lustful thoughts each and every day of the week. Maybe it's better to keep things in my head. That way I can play safe and never get to experience the intensity of what should be. I know she would be comfortable with that as it would not impede on her thoughts which must be at the very least similar to mine. LLc 98.2