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I arrived in my own resistance awkwardly awake and wishing I was not in this predicament. I did not come here by choice and I have come to realize that; which makes what happens from the beginning only relevant to me. There can be no precedence to follow or no line to walk because those lines were painted by other people entirely who came from another point in history. What they say worked for them may not be the best choice in these days for me.
I did not choose this place. If I had a choice I would be in a place covered in green grass with lakes and ponds all over. There would be trees and hills and valleys to walk through and there would be wildlife everywhere. I would be working all day and night in a job I dearly loved and my play time would seem like my work time because they both would bring the same amount of joy. I would be wearing the lightest most comfortable clothes not made by children in some factory for pennies a day and I would have breakfast served to me in bed by naked women; two of which would spend the hour following breakfast rubbing me down in preparation for a day entirely devoted to the game of golf. But noooo, I am in this unholy place surrounded by unhappy and pissed off people who cannot move in their lives because they followed the painted lines. 98.2 LLC