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The happiness we seek cannot occur from the outside looking, acting as we do. Justifications follow from there most certainly followed by activities that are indeed far removed from our mental tickle spots. If the desire to be enhanced in some way has left, and you feel as though retreiving it back; then seeking some sort of betterment for yourself as you seek the same feeling again; even if you believe you have succeeded in your quest, you have not. It is a different kind of success in a different context that serves the perceptions of other people for you. The worst part is once when all the t's have been crossed and i's dotted, everything is completely different in reality than your preconceived notions of what happiness is or can be. Even if the mold has been created by you, once the journey to the goal has ended you WILL find a fit that is unsnug, uncomfy, and completely unacceptable and cold. Happiness is never forced. It occurs accidentally, but we must be open to it. It is difficult to keep that door open when your always looking down.