Have you ever found out a few things that absolutely changed the way you see the world? Something has been inside me, grinding away all my gears. The last few months have deepened my isolation. I am completely alone now. I am once again having realistic visions of driving the truck off the cliff. I have a spot picked out. It's clean, quick and then no more worries. I totally get why people do such horrible things to themselves. I am in that place now. And you know what's funny? The information, anybody can get it. It's totally free, which in this fucking world is a miracle in and of itself. To say nobody cares is an understatement. People here just want to be comfortable and left alone. They want barbecue's, football games, and beer. They want television shows, movies, and cheeseburgers. They want new cars and clothes and ice cream bars. I swear it is a most amazing thing as nobody cares about what is true and what is false. Nobody reads books. Too many people are getting their information from corporate news. Time and time again, over and over again, you can bring up any one provable fact to someone and if it runs against the information they received from THEIR news channel, it's fake news. The devil couldn't have come up with such genius. The people in this country are so backwards assed fucked over with bad information it absolutely makes me physically sick. Words cannot describe how bad reality really is. I have never been more unhappy in my entire life.