the twinkie

There is nothing in the world more gratifying than the twinkie. The twinkie has within its structure a most fascinating and titalating combination of fluffy moise cake, and a cream filled center that has within it a little piece of Heaven. My journey to the twinkie was a long and arduous one that had many ups and many downs. You see, when I was a boy having to ride by bike to school each day, I felt it necessary to stop off at the 7-11 after breakfast and on the way to school. There I would partake in videao games like Donkey Kong and Ms. Pacman while engulfing two or three maple bars and a 32 oz pepsi or coke. My parents are still wondering why I was such an expensive child. Hey, it costs money to be a master of the underworld. Needless to say, lunchtime was the right time for all of us. Yes, I was not alone in my world.
Lunchtime was a representation of wealth in the community. The kids who brought their lunches could be measured by the amount of goodies they had in their possession. The more goodies; symbolic of mom's love and devotion, the more trading. Here we have the Capitalist system functioning on the street level (barter). Is this interesting or what? lol, probably not...

long running

I want this and I want that. How many times have we heard that? If what you look for exists outside of yourself, you are fooling yourself into thinking that that outside force will bring it to you. If you are mostly concerned with how others view you, you have become a product of evil no matter how you reason around it. You can say and act as you wish, but that is no more than an act that is symbolic of a deeper void that you carry, love, and respond to in every aspect of both your conscious and unconscious life. There will come a day when you will be old and you will wish you did not waist so much time trying to please other people. Those people by that time will be gone and then you will see and understand just how much of your good time you waisted in this mundane and useless search through wants, wants, and more wants. If you want something, it is probably better in the long run for you not to have it.

unhappiness pool

In our psyche there exists the perfect moment in time. It is referred to in tough times rarely and always in times of happiness. This tells me that happiness breeds happy things. Is it possible to be happy all the time? NO it is not, especially in a place where there is so much unhappiness thrown our way. This gives us a pool to swim in that brings ample opportunity to derive pleasure from unhappy things. Because we get so caught up in unhappy things, we lose sometimes our ability to become happy: happy can be so unfamiliar at times we can have it and neer even know it; a reflection of our existence in the pool of unhappiness. We derive pleasure in the search for happiness and we are told this search is wise. If we never had to become a part of this big swim, we could in fact dig our own pool and fill it with warm water for those cold days when we feel so alone.

this is not

What is expected, what is drawn upon, is completely false with the exception of the creator. What is taken for fact is not so, yet we make distinctions between these forces that bring about doubt and discovery of our lost selves. We can become forgotten in lingering tidepools with our faces just above the water; spinning and spinning. Like a grape in the sun our faces will become dark and wilted while our bodies remain cool on the inside. Soon the masks we drape over ourselves shelter and confuse us into believing that this spinning sensation is ok and normal. In time we realize the ride is much better when we free ourselves from that place and allow the unknown to occur freely and without conscious thought. This is all part of the individual journey that must be individualistic. If we live our lives by the tones of those who came before us, we regress and all things remain unchanged in time. This is not progress!

egnahc

There must be a constancy of change in life. In order for this to happen, we must abandon our habits that bring us the kind of seclusion in happiness we are encouraged to achieve and rely upon. Those who make real changes can never be satisfied with the comfort of blankets and pillows. The comfort they seek is on a much broader scale that entails passionate divergence into that which cannot be predicted or seen to be a detriment.

know? NO!

I saw educated people make distinctions no man could make and draw conclusions from weaved lies for their own benefit. I saw grown adults lay claim to the divine as a foundation and expectation for all others to follow without any significant reason other than to promote their own job position in the eyes of who got them there. How is it possible for educated people to claim answers to questions nobody can possibly know? How is it possible for any person to know what is best for everyone? Those who claim to know are no better off than anyone else, they just have their own interests to protect above the interests of those whom they have never even met. Does this make sense to anyone? I should say not!

should be a color

One thing adults need to understand and recognize is that kids see more than they do. For some kids, their issue may be a simple one. They may see the hypocracy that exists in the social world that is backed up and confirmed by what they see both in real life (home environment) and in the images they see. It could be that they are unhappy about the many compromises they see adults make and find it difficult to find a spot among all the muck and selfishness; lying and deceitful practices that inevitably take place. They might find it difficult to create anything useful and it is in this way that kids may see themselves as unwilling participants in they grey that they believe should be a color.