fitting field of play

One thing keeps rolling around in that thick head. The evidence is written all over the place. The clothes, the hair, the shoes, everything shows there is something happening on the inside plantation. Yet still there are the same activities to participate in and smiles to wear the entire way through. Behind the decorated view lies a sensitive side that brings waves of negativity during the performance. This sick feeling may waver from time to time, but you can bet that that feeling will only grow in its intensity as the years turn to decades. Until resolution comes in some way, that one thing will eventually hurt more than just one. That burden can be handed down to the next generation and so on leading to a plethora of tarnished dreams and false wishes to be enjoyed. A perfect fit considering the playing field. LLc 98.2

everything to do with you

Consistency comes through fluidity. If you are choppy and unorthodox, you will have a choppy and unorthodox type of life; probably shorter than the average as well. The choppy people are fun to hang with, but learning anything from them is an uphill climb. They do try but fail; which is more than most people do.
So, how do we become more consistent in life? If I knew the answer to that one, I would never tell anyway. But, being consistent has nothing to do with routine. It has nothing to do with acting the same in every situation. It has everything to do with you. Understanding you is hard to do in this place now. Self analyzing reveals all but misses many points.
Thinking and doing are two separate things, but thinking is required before action. If actions are done in accordance with the fluid model of consistency; separate from me and you, then daily life will be less stressful. Eliminate the anger horses, they drag you behind them. Eliminate anything in your life that causes you to be comfortable in your stress. That is addictive because it opens up the excuse vault; usually consistent with family inconsistencies.
If you enjoy fooling yourself, then there can be no fluidity. No fluidity equals no satisfaction. From there your simply screwed until you find the time to be honorable to you. It is ok to be unorthodox. Just be prepared to sail upon rough waters from time to time. Check the sail that comes with your discontent. I bet it is consistently present locked away inside that big storage unit of your mind; all white and creased. LLc 98.2

wandering and wonder

I see people wandering about, going through the motions, searching for some thing. I see them smile and laugh then stop and move on as they answer their cell. Look around you sometime and see how many people would rather be somewhere other than where they are. This fits perfectly with the scheme of things these days. There just is nothing out there that will ever be good enough for us. We have too many chances, too many directions in which we can travel. Making a viable decision is complex and often difficult. Our reliance on other people to guide us through is a failing proposition. How can anyone know what goes on inside the wandering ones. I am one, are you? LLc 98.2

night time, soul maintenance toll

Night time, what is it about what night time does to people that makes it all seem as if, as if, there is no real point or purpose in their lives? Is it because night time gives certain people enough time to think about and reflect on their choices to date? You see, many people, educated and not, say that thinking is a dangerous game. It is a game that has no real ending and always leaves one thinking still. Night time can also be a time of distance from self. By that I mean there are avenues, choices we can make to put a time delay on any upcoming pain we foresee. During that process we may find ourselves indulging on something to excess. This can become habit forming leading to a shift of consciousness. Fitting as we shift from one personality to another almost every day. Just think about that for a minute and count them all. It is night time you know. You have the time to think about it.
Night time, how fun it can be as it serves as a coffin for all those who find their road a bit slippery or their roles a bit too tedious. once the sun rises, they pop on their uniforms and progress to absolutely nothing due to the soul maintenance toll. LLc 98.2

storm of secrets

Nothing will ever be good enough really. Because there is always something new and better being thrown in our faces, we are trained to never be satisfied with any one thing. This is as plain as the day your father made sweet love to your mother and created you/us. Our insides desire the most and few get to see those desires. The media creates desire through images, music, and some pretty good story lines; you know what they are. Between ourselves and the exterior, the room can get awefully crowded really super quick. Like a spinning top we feel the need to do something different, buy something different, or simply act in different ways in different situations; usually in the privacy of our own homes after some booze and an over-active imagination that is attached to an unfulfilled life. No, nothing will ever be good enough because we are now entering; have been a part of for a few years now, a storm of secrets and lives disconnected. LLc 98.2

people prompts

There are those people who believe themselves to be something other than what they are and they will be the first ones to talk their way out of what they talked themselves, and others, into. Talking is what many people do to maintain their image. Images, as we all know, are more important than the wires that make up that image. Listening to someone speak about their facade is about as interesting as watching rabbits screw, battling the flu, and puking until your face turns blue. What prompts people to believe the facade?
Those people who shine themselves up each day; the one's that use rumors to spin their weave, are the same pricks who would sell their mothers for one stock spike. Being presentable is only one part of our social reality. Why is it we can never remember that the wrapping on the porn box is much better than the porn itself? LLc 98.2

it's feeding time, enjoy

Media can take us away from our design. It can take us away from the markers along life's highway. Media is the influence that has its own designs. These designs care nothing about us yet we love them so very much. We like the idea of not thinking for ourselves; to fall in line, to be shaded in like a fox in the pages of a child's coloring book. These things are bad and we are all suffering from it as we line up for the big feeding upon ourselves. LLc 98.2