release

The anxiety builds, it wells up in every way possible. Then, when you least expect it, you simply put it all down and take one giant step backwards to see exactly what it is you are doing. How many ways can you weave into the equation the necessary justification for your inability to see the big picture? Thing is, you never realize how valuable people are until they are no longer available for the systemmatic, predictable, and somewhat shameful abuse you give unto them. You find yourself living in one big bubble of excuses. Then you know you are truely worthless. These people are incapable of happiness and will die in pain and despair because they know something is amiss but cannot find it. I know these people and they would'nt know happy if it crawled up their leg and bit them on their inner thigh. There is no comfort in happiness because people, some people, are too involved and not enough involved at the same time producing a comfortable imbalance; the imbalance they know and love soo much; Their only true friend 98