no stump to stand on

My everlasting strategies for coping are dragging me behind. This is what I used to say to myself until I realized what I have been missing. Believe me when I say: I miss nothing! I would never bring a child here and I would never marry a woman I would lie to; I could never do that. It is quite possibly the most negative thing a man can do when he decides to keep her as if she were a trained rat easily lied to and taken advantage of. The thing is the man and the woman eventually become trained. They become a pair of trained, half ass rats who suck at role play and become critical of other people while basking in their own personal miseries for comparison purposes. I see these people everyday lying to themselves, fooling themselves more than they are me. Issues we all have and issues we sometimes share, but at the same time being critical of other people shows just how miserable these people are inside. I could care less what people say because what they mean is as clear as a dingaling dangling and just as inforgettable. My strategies include trying to stay clear of nonsense and drive toward my individual happiness. I think from a place like that it would be relatively easy to let the nasty words people use so often slide down the hill of my soul into the deep, deep waters of my imagination; only to be remembered but never to be used as a stump to stand on while being critical of other people. I will always criticize the critics and let them know just how imperfect they are. The ones with no soul, do not care; they never have. These are the ones who were born selfish and were then fabricated by numerous external factors that do have influence on us all in one way or another.

exploitation of self

Exploitation is the only way to get ahead in this world. If you exploit that which works naturally for you into your everyday life, you can actually be happy with little to no compromises with anyone because what you would be doing is using your natural abilities and capabilities in your work and in your play each and everyday. Take advantage of what you are naturally inclined to do and have time for it. As far as money goes, if you are happy with what you do everyday, money that is more than sufficient will be there because of the sheer joy you feel inside and that will reflect in everything you do. As a matter of fact, paying bills will be as easy as writing a check because you will be smart enough to know the true value in things no matter their price. You will come to know what real value is and how to give it room to flourish. The results will be something to see and experience. Exploitation of your happy side will eventually lead to a longer healthier life with longer and stronger human relationships that will also reflect the very feelings you have cultivated inside. So I say exploit not the weakness in yourself or others, for that is in and of itself weak. I say exploit the fantastic and see how bright that burst of energy is when it goes off. I bet one could see it for miles if one were so inclined.

no soul

There is magic in the world and with that magic comes the hope and desire for experiences we can rely on to allow us to see the way to not do things; but sometimes the things we do are not designed to be anything but hopelessly pointless. This is what makes life a sort of dramatic overload because we often get bored and tired of the same. We make irrational choices because they feel so good at the time. The consequences seem distant just like us with each other. Once the magic leaves through the wires to the other places, that magic no longer exists. Once that is gone, all hope and desire will have at their foundation a bedrock of scraps from those who feed on lost desires and dreams; and there are many who have a body that has within no soul.

losses not

The inspiration inside is derived from within as it relates to the exterior self that relies on the people outside. Finding another who hears you talking from the inside with not a turning head or wandering eye is never an easy task. What generally happens is acceptance of another over a life of lonliness. We become half of who we once were and we forget certain things that are important to us. We make up for these loses through replacement and occupation of other things that eventually lead us astray from our happiness. Some like to call that growth, others call it something different. I call it a complete waist of time not even worthy of consideration at any time or place. What happens on the outside influences us all, but what occurs on the inside must be in line with your original intentions; before you grew up and accepted your losses so well.

everyone me

Those who look for simplicity among the difficulties we inevitably face simplify too much the situations that required muddled thinking to begin with. This fact however does not stop us from placing more wood on an already burning fire. This then becomes even more difficult to put out; some it takes a lifetime because the words used during these times of heat linger on inside the one who receives them. In time the one who spoke those words will look back on opportunities missed with that someone who is loved by him or her, which is why the words were used in the first place.
So now we have two occasions where decisions were made in a muddled way and the following words serve to settle no disputes but to increase them in time. Looking for simplicity, by looking alone, solves nothing but to postpone the inevitable. Face that which brought you there in the first place and find solutions through communication. Once the lines are available, dialogue can open a whole new relationship with the one's who hurt; all of us(you). Often times, once this new dialogue is established, simplicity can be found in time and that makes the process smoother for everyone involved.

none of it

I have become transfixed with what has transpired inside. The distance I have traveled is far removed from other roads traveled by other people, but the parallels however can be drawn for ever into the vastness of my arbitrary means that relies on the false powers and promises we show so freely. The wonders of honesty are gone now and we have become voyeuristic, disconnected, and forever isolated within the screen-self. We have become shackled up like prisoners of war and we have lost the ability to communicate on a face to face level. We have become traceable and we have graduated to the self inside where we become tuned in to what our subconscious is trying to tell us. I am transfixed with images just like you and none of it is real.

inability

There is no such thing as failure of purpose unless that purpose fails to recognize other people and the words they say. There is purpose in everything we do and what follows is usually predictable. If we manage to altar our purpose, we can surely expect variances in the different outcomes. From each new place we acquire a new lens from which to view the world so we may have a better understanding of how people live their lives. Insodoing we become familiar and willing to listen to other people when they speak of how they live and how they have become to be the way they are.
There can be nothing more valuable in this life than to have someone listen to every word that another says. The person speaking can understand on the inside that you are sincere with your ear and that what is being said is indeed worth every bit of the time it takes to make the thoughts open and complete. Only when necessary should any word be spoken when another is speaking from the heart and it is layered high enough for the clouds to feel it; only when called upon to speak should anyone break up the free flow of the usual and unusual, because they are synonymous with being human. Failure of purpose is the inability to listen, even when the situation may require otherwise. 98.2