once

Once you get past the "Look at me and how good I am doing" stage in life, you realize just how short a distance you have traveled. There is a vision of self doing things and being things, changing places and creating even more things all of which are simply magnificent and completely honest. It is through honest accomplishment, in whatever capacity, that people receive their purpose. This cannot be done with an end in mind. The result should never be predicted. If you know the outcome of something, then the purpose and experiences in acquiring that outcome are mechanical and inhuman; of design and not passionate creation and therefor of no meaning but to preserve an empty vessel for dreams to never be.

conscious

People are always conscious of themselves and the state they are in at any one time. The first thing we say to ourselves in the morning is, "I feel like this or that!" It effects the way in which our ideas are drawn up and has daily influence on our life choices and circumstances we currently find ourselves in. It is our mood that determines our day. So now what? I say be conscious of how people see you, just don't let them be in charge of your heart and soul. Once you give that up, once you sustain an existence far removed from your natural ways for any length of time, you may forget exactly what it is that makes you smile and laugh and feel good about yourself- in a meaningful way. Once you find again that joy, that youth, that vigor, that vitality, that you inside, the one that likes to hide, you may find a whole new you. Then again, you may be just fine the way you are and finally find that change is bad.
I see people everyday walking by glass; windows, doors, etc. I see them glance at their reflection to make sure their presentation is in place. I see the people who walk by the glass making a conscious effort to not look because this morning they said to themselves," I feel good enough to not have to check myself because I know I look good!" Oh it is just the funniest thing. Maybe these people found a new guru or mate that has given them the confidence they need to not look and see. Or maybe they are in no mood for comparisons. There we go with that whole mood thing again.