damaged

There is no possible way to get through age 30 without being damaged in some way. It happens to all of us in so many different ways sometimes it is hard to count. Over time there is a build up which can manifest itself in different ways prior to losing it altogether. We are afraid of losing it because we feel inadequate already and one good breakdown just doesn't look good in the eyes of others even though it may be necessary to lose it from time to time. There is no embarrasment in it because so long as the only one you hurt is yourself and no other. The torture we put ourselves through from time to time merits an explosion and change of scenery; a different perspective on things. Time is short for us all and most people never have the balls to make any moves. These moves should be centered around the well-being of self through the use of methodologies that resemble actual thoughts revolving around the singular notion of exactly what it is that makes you happy in the truest sense. You can be highly successful and still be a miserable individual because your life is not, nor has it ever been, yours.
People will say this and that and nobody can never know the horror you feel inside. Most of us hide the darkness; some are unable to accomplish this. In doing so, in not accomplishing I mean, there are no feelings at all inside because they get shoved away, stored if you will, for future use in tight times. Soon feelings for people vanish and the singular life becomes a solitary existence with a vivid imagination. This is what a sociopath is; without feelings and thoughts of regrets in the truest form, not the one shown as an actor. Misery is something familiar to all of us, but the sociopath is not concerned for others because this person lives without feelings at all. That makes the individual dead. WE are all damaged and there is nothing we can do about it. The most important thing to know and understand is the value of keeping your mouth shut. This way you can let it build and build until one day you realize you have been waisting your time and waisting your life. People are afraid to be happy because they are not conditioned to be so.