quiet elated

Sweetness is having the ball come off just as you envisioned it just seconds before. Togetherness is pulling it off while remaining perfectly in balance both on the inside and the outside. Happiness is watching it fly through the air as it heads for the target. Smoothness is watching it hit and stand next to the flag. Togetherness is walking while smiling up to the ball and tapping it in the hole. The reality is, golf is the only game where you can remain quiet and become elated at the same time while coming off as if you were in complete control; which as we all know is not possible but only for a moment in time. But those moments form a life obsession filled with fantasies fulfilled, forever remaining within the soul of the man in his quiet style. LLc 98.2

mine and mine alone

For quite some time I was going the wrong way. I knew I was going the wrong way, but I continued on that path anyway. There were many ups and downs along that road, but there is nothing I would change in the choices I made except for the one time when I came into contact with someone who would later become very influential in my life. The best part about it, this person is completely unaware of what they did for me. This is the way I like it. Some things are mine and mine alone never to be shared with anyone. I saw this person one other time in my life about three years later. I smiled. I would have liked to have heard that voice of reason just one more time. Maybe someday. LLc 98.2

ceiling before we sleep

Often we reflect on our lives. Sometimes we do this while driving or looking at the ceiling before we sleep. I sometimes look at the sun rise and remember when I could not do that. I sometimes watch the sun go down because I remember when I could not do that. I sometimes stare a the ceiling and think of something entirely fresh and new.
I sometimes wish I could be doing something else with my life. I sometimes wonder if I would be better off someplace else; another state of mind perhaps. In truth, I guess I am just a bit confused in my time just like everyone else is confused in their time. Truthfully, I wonder about a great many things, but I guess that is normal. Last night I stared at the ceiling and came up with nothing new. Nothing new; nothing new just the same, nothing new. LLc 98.2

ACCEPTANCE

ACCEPTANCE IS FOR THOSE WHO SEEK TO PLACE THIRD IN THE BIG CORN COB EATING CONTEST.

cost of conscience

Taste the smell and like the view. Appreciate the old but embrace the new.
The building blocks are all there and they are bulky, heavy and square. It takes time to move them because everyone else is trying to move them too. This is what we have here and changes are nowhere near.
The constancy of turmoil and political strife and posturing mixed with back room brawls and midnight phone calls only helps the few and marinates the many in a systematic barrage of bullshit in baskets. The winners always win, but at what cost of conscience? Those below know more than anyone thinks. Nobody wins and nobody owns anything-period. LLc 98.2

-This is ours only temporarily as we are mere visitors here on this plane-

senses direction

Direct your senses in a forward way that aligns with similar creatures that care in much the same way you do. Not about the mundane and toasty, but about the bigger obligations to functionality and presence. These are the people who know you and accept you with all your faults and flaws, and these are the people who won't mind waking in the night to listen to you in your time of need. If only one from this group emerges fantastically, then that one may just be there for the long haul through the dirtiness of this life. By directing your senses in a forward way, you take yourself out of the dungeon and onto the playing field where you can run and let your mind free to think up something spectacular among other people who know you and love you. LLc 98.2

silence becomming

Silence is like silver being poored into the mold of a god all shinny and new glistening with the essence of man himself. Silence brings organization of thought processes and circumstances that are bewildering. Nobody is without some sense of losing or missing out on something. So we forget about the importance of silence in our quest for newness and shininess like that of silver. As a result, we find ourselves occupying other people's space, time, and life. We need silence to direct our lives and make decisions based not on planning but on living now. Silence is a huge part of life and I don't think we get enough of it due to our lameness and laziness and posturing and placating and overall acting as a way of surviving. There is no acting in silence. There is only time to be; time we need to see, and time we need to dig within our subconsciousness to find out what lurks down there in that merky area. LLc 98.2

mental bomb in stagnation

We wallow around in tight bunches with like minds and actions that accomodate the pluralistic view of our social world. This is a monster that eats up the dreams of the chosen ones who, by circumstance, are unable in their minds to seek out their true meanings in thier lives. Because of this reality of living, living cannot take place fast enough. Mix these facts with our false, media driven conceptions of what is important in this life, and we have a mental bomb in stagnation until the day comes for its release. In people, this release can manifest in various ways. Some use words to condemn other people. Other's use real action to hurt the ones they love or hate. The monster has no face but it lives and breathes all around us. Not paying attention to it; making friends with it; is to always be at battle with yourself. Our denial is rooted in frustration and our smiles are stagnant under the false pretenses we must employ during our time on the social stage. LLc 98.2