your thoughts you think

You should have thought about it before you weep ed. Your sadness has brought with it an UN-unique order of things that you will forever be involved. Your weakness and short temper will feed your dissonance as you rely on imagination to get you through; that may be the one good thing about you.
Many years ago you started in motion an order of action that thrives and relies on pessimistic views and outside influences to guide your thoughts, you think. Anything but you is what is wrong. But deep down inside you hide away from the rest of us, like the rest of us, and what you see there is pathetic (some are fortunate to not see this). I know how that feels all too well. I know what it is like to look inside and see myself as a standing and steaming, fresh out of the horses ass pile of shit; worthless and weak; useless and meek. I know what it's like to put that uniform on when you would get more pleasure from being constantly poked in the side by an invisible monkey.
The things in motion follow you wherever you go. Your entire real self is what guides your life, not what you show everyone else in fashion and smiles, words and styles. To clear the inside takes time away from things that cramp the real you but you enjoy so much for the quick fix they provide. LLc 98.2