storm of secrets

Nothing will ever be good enough really. Because there is always something new and better being thrown in our faces, we are trained to never be satisfied with any one thing. This is as plain as the day your father made sweet love to your mother and created you/us. Our insides desire the most and few get to see those desires. The media creates desire through images, music, and some pretty good story lines; you know what they are. Between ourselves and the exterior, the room can get awefully crowded really super quick. Like a spinning top we feel the need to do something different, buy something different, or simply act in different ways in different situations; usually in the privacy of our own homes after some booze and an over-active imagination that is attached to an unfulfilled life. No, nothing will ever be good enough because we are now entering; have been a part of for a few years now, a storm of secrets and lives disconnected. LLc 98.2

people prompts

There are those people who believe themselves to be something other than what they are and they will be the first ones to talk their way out of what they talked themselves, and others, into. Talking is what many people do to maintain their image. Images, as we all know, are more important than the wires that make up that image. Listening to someone speak about their facade is about as interesting as watching rabbits screw, battling the flu, and puking until your face turns blue. What prompts people to believe the facade?
Those people who shine themselves up each day; the one's that use rumors to spin their weave, are the same pricks who would sell their mothers for one stock spike. Being presentable is only one part of our social reality. Why is it we can never remember that the wrapping on the porn box is much better than the porn itself? LLc 98.2

it's feeding time, enjoy

Media can take us away from our design. It can take us away from the markers along life's highway. Media is the influence that has its own designs. These designs care nothing about us yet we love them so very much. We like the idea of not thinking for ourselves; to fall in line, to be shaded in like a fox in the pages of a child's coloring book. These things are bad and we are all suffering from it as we line up for the big feeding upon ourselves. LLc 98.2

deception we do well

If truth were to somehow play a role in the real world, then the real world would eat itself whole like nothing else could. Deceit is the way we live and it is through deceptive practices that the social world functions. This is nothing more than witchcraft. Yes witchcraft, and we all are a part of the process of lies. Mostly however, we just lie to ourselves often enough for us to have a place to be heard, because inside we believe we are that valuable. In deception there is no value, only money and comfort in the eyes of our fellow witches. The social world is a fallacy, an illusion set in motion long ago by really inspired people who thought one thing, said one thing, yet did another. Rarely is seen those who shine in all the rubble and mixtures we concoct. Our lies and self deceptions shall make unhappy ghosts of us all. LLc 98.2

procession of souls

It is the silence of the early morning that drives the day. It is the early morning time where we get things straight in our minds in preparation for our daily maneuvers on the big stage. Back stage we prepare and sing to ourselves the motivational tunes we love so much. In silence there is comfort. Think about it. If you work, you spend 8 to 10 hours in a 24 hour period doing things that need to be done even though you would much rather be doing something else. You sleep 3 to 8 hours a day. That's about 15 hours a day both doing something you would rather not be doing and sleeping. That leaaves about 9 hours to have a life. But these days our lives are infested with media influences from virtually every angle. Problem is, most of us believe all that crap even though most if not all of it is complete and utter bullshit. How sad we are to let media take us away from us. We no longer have choices in our own decision making processes because everything is itself processed and made elsewhere. The silence of the early morning is the one clear time in the day. After that life is one big fucking commercial. So sad to be here this way now. LLc 98.2

aging anxiety

Not everything can be explained away and put in a box up in the attic. We like to do that, place things away so as not to think about them. Often we do this from the inside. By that I mean we simply let the bad things people say and do; we let these things bother us for a spell, then we tell ourselves to put it away with all the others and move on because we are that strong. Thing is, what that does is allow a build up to take place inside that requires seepage or run off. That run off effects everyone around us because the feelings that come with that run off morph the interaction either through words or actions.
The anxiety of not knowing the origin of whatever it is that bothers us can be disturbing. Through repetition and habit we allow the anxiety to go unchecked making life even more difficult than it already is. Before long, our face changes and our4 body changes thus adding to the aging anxiety that serves not only as a reflection of life in our world today, but is a result of it. Through confrontation and communication all necessary adjustments can be made. Seek not the explanation for any one thing, seek only the feelings that come with the process of blind acceptance. LLc 98.2