school of thought

There are many schools of hought in regards to whether or not a person should follow through on their desires and seek them out. If the feeling is there, then it is safe to say that one is not only human but not necessarily unhappy with their current lot. It could mean one simply needs a diversion, a template from which to draw upon so as to make the future more tolerable with something all one's own on the inside; something nobody needs to know about; something really interesting and less complex.

gather in gratitude

We gather in gratitude in bunches or alone. We do this free from any regulatory agency. We do these things to be unified in some way; with strangers, but this is impossible. It is one way in which to feel a part of some understanding among others who feel similiarly to something you do. Because nobody has any real understanding about anything really, the best we can do is gather together in bunches and do the things required to show devotion and respect. This, for most people, is healthy. For other people however, it is empty and foolish. I know both kinds and I would go fishing with any of them because they are now different than me.

zeal and elegance

Make a statement some say, as they stand aside and let the world roll by. Become the reality that lurks beneath the facade and rule your way; within the law and natural rights of other people always. Do so with zeal and elegance bringing new-found freedom into existence from within. Your outward appearance will most certainly reflect what you feel on the inside bringing a new attraction; a new development that will open new doors through which only the alive can survive. The new zest for life within you will reflect a greater existence, one that few come in contact with. The one's that do feel this unknown sway from the outside; contemplate, order, and display their visions in various ways under various conditions in time. The people who have experience blend in like the wind and are often hard to see and rarely heard from. There is reason for that!

now what?

Let me add to your grace and occupy a space next to your beating heart. Allow me the privlidge of being associated with such a fine soul which I am not worthy of. For me, thinking of you brings joy to my everyday. Let me grow next to you and drain you from all that you are now so as I grow older, I can dump you for a younger woman. It is not beauty that drives the American media in advertising. These things are a given. What they are pushing is young women onto young men as well as young women onto young men. It is the dream they push and it is that dream we compare ourselves to. Compared to that, we all suck and we all need to kill ourselves. If that is the American dream, and you believe that shit, you are a part of a much larger system that is more complex than you will ever be willing to accept, but probably know very well. So now what? More bullshit?

HEAD

One of the coolest things about speculation founded on not one piece of viable evidence directly is what happens to correct the mistakes that inevitably follow. One could argue that this is the political process. Because there is such rapid change, as preached by the media and those who pay to play, mistakes in judgement happen because actions are largely encouraged by those who are not fully informed for one reason or the other.
I don't like him/her. Blah blah looks like shit and they do this and believe in that. Now, base your life on that. Base your world on decisions rooted in that kind of misguidedness. Think for a moment on how many good people you are missing in your life by saying these things to yourselves in your manufactured psychological world. Don't be ashamed, we all have our own little ideal world inside where we live in the comfort of knowing all things important to us. What is important to you? What reels inside your world? What would you rather be doing right now in relation to the person you once were or want to be right now?
One of the coolest things about speculation is transferring what is thought of into action using baby steps of change. You can turn speculation into the positive by laying a framework, a design if you will, that allows you the freedom to pursue. This is where the fun starts and it is meant to be enjoyed. Once you reach your goal, find another one to be employed. It won't be like you don't know how to do it. Think about that shit!

HMMM

You know why musicians and artists have a history of strange, early deaths? Because they knew nothing else, lived nothing else. They thought, slept, ate, and drank what they produced. They had no cushions to fall back on during the process either. For them, there were no options. That would kill anyone. Imagine for one moment in your day: driving your car; sitting at home alone; playing your favorite past-time, or participating in something that brings you great joy for extended periods of time, and think about what you desire or feel passionately about even half as much as what I described above. Is it worth your time, what time you have left on this mortal, blue speck that occupies such a small part of this small universe we occupy; which is surrounded by things we can never fully understand and distances in darkness we can never imagine, to chase after even the wildest of dreams? What makes you think your so special? You can't do that! What about your bills, your house, your kids? Who do you think you are? You are nobody special! I had to do things I didn't want to. I had to struggle to get where I am at. I gave up a lot for you. These are just a few of the things you will hear, from people who are not happy. A happy and content person would offer sound advice and direction through sound application of preordained principles based on specific ideals of success that fully encompass all efforts to the same. Anyone who discourages these things, or altars them in some way is to be avoided at all times. This is the cost, the first cost, of making a change that places value on what you feel passionate about in your life.

obsessive you

I don't care who you are; I don't care what you say to me; I don't care how much money you make or what kind of fucking retirement you have lined up for yourself; if you don't move me, I will have absolutely nothing to do with you. I am alone now just as I will be when I die. I do not have time to hang around with any woman who does not move me. I would rather be moved, not sexually because that is a given and need not be brought up; I am talking about really grabbing my attention in more ways than are currently being contemplated now. Then again, I am completely worthless. Does this sound familiar?
I can go further than that and further still leading to a large mound of depression shit, but why? Anyone who knows anything about depression will tell you how fucking miserable it is. In a depressive state, the last thing I ever want to do is get involved with someone like me. Does this feel similiar to what is happening in your life? Misery loves company and shit is right the fuck on. I know people who, presented with better things free of charge, looked the other way toward the familiar depressive darkness; when standing at the crossroads. Change, any change is rediculously difficult, especially when what is being left has been comfortably adjusted to even though the whole damn thing was a lie and a fuck fest to begin with. Does this sound familiar? Yes it's true, many depressed people have a tendency to be a tad bit on the obsessive side and some have difficulty keeping the car parked in the garage. Still other people obsess about things like wrestling, politics, school, work, and blah blah blah. Whatever the case may be, all the obsessive behavior and baby making will get you into an adaptive world that runs counter to the ideas you had before you became this new obsessive you.