Every man seeks to find his way in the world. Some of us believe we have a calling in life to raise a family to the best of our ability. Others of us believe there is no use in finding a reason for being, just that we work as hard as we can and have as much fun as possible while we can. If any of us are lucky enough to make it to a ripe old age, we sure is hell don't ever want to say that we should have done things differently. But we do this everyday as it seems to be our one and only way. LLc 98.2

flow

The words people say rarely mean much anyway unless there is something in it for them. This attitude is contradictory to the way it should be. Because of the influence wielded through media, people have become enthralled with materialism and selfish persuits. It is not the fault of media itself, it is the fault of the weakness of humanity to allow itself to become so easily influenced by what they see through various media outlets. One reason for this weakness could be the availability of more choice than ever before. LLc 98.2

soccer ball

Every now and again, there is something in the air that somehow finds its way into your heart. It plucks your heartstrings just hard enough for all your senses to feel it. It takes you on a small little 3 second journey that brings forth pure joy wrapped around enough positive energy for it to be seen, felt, and understood for generations to come. LLc 98.2

waze expectations

The thought of being alone is not so bad when you consider the various ways people try and steal away the sunshine you produce. Being alone means never having to compromise oneself for the illogicalness of the social world; the one that expects you to behave in certain ways. LLc 98.2

deceptions glance

I have given up a lot of personal satisfaction to acquire personal satisfaction. My endeavors belong solely to me and are being developed in accordance with my own personal beliefs in conjunction with something I do not understand. This process may seem selfish, but its design lends itself to that appearance. LLc 98.2

Sometimes I think my way away from the thing I want to do most.

Using me against me with herself as the remedy

instincts

Influence in this life can be good or bad. At times it is difficult to distinguish between the two. As we move through the days and weeks; months and years, we come upon individual people who give us feedback in relation to our lives at those times. As these people appear and reappear in the intersections of our lives we tend to forget our instincts. Their influence on our lives at those times can either be good or bad. Rarely do we utilize our instincts as their influence permeates our lives in various ways. It is only through our instincts that we can gather the necessary information for us to best judge exactly who in our lives is a good influence; and who in our lives is a bad influence. Our instincts are what makes us human and they sharpen with age and experience. LLc 98.2

media of one, soft sport

Media has complicated the life process. Within the spell television and the internet weave the grandiose attitudes of the few. These attitudes have filtered down to the common man who has no access to the same sprinkle machines. This spell has replaced the reality road to dreams with the unreality road to dreams. Our reliance on media has altared our ability to congregate behind a single idea; one that may be beneficial for not only us as individuals, but also for the various communities in which we live. LLc 98.2

extra extra

Not many people in this world today get to experience the feeling of being extraordinary; encouragement goes much deeper than the attached pleasantries. Involving yourself in the lives of people allows you to become an influence in their lives. Constructing a positive frame from which to build upon is essential in the implimentation of extraordinary things. From extraordinary things come feelings of being extraordinary. LLc 98.2

climb

The climb is not a climb at all. It is a process of learning that never comes to a close. Becomming whole, a man cannot stand being without something to move on. For if the scent goes away, so too does the reason to move at all.

small

Creativity becomes lost within the confines of beurocracy; lost among piles of files and in your face hypocracy. Gone are the days of encouragement and function; replaced by disgrace and over the top consumption. LLc 98.2

true

Too many options in this life make decision making at certain points next to impossible. Once we stand on perceived solid ground, we may find flowers elsewhere more pleasing to the eye. Maintaining the same as everything else moves on is like driving a race car until it runs out of gas. To stop the progress in ones life is to stop one's life. Once that has been achieved, weight gain and television is all one has left before they die.

alteration this effect

The nasty things people do and say serve as no reflection upon me and you per say. On day's when we allow another person's anger with themselves and their circumstances to infiltrate our pleasantries, we have allowed someone else's, a stranger maybe; inner conflicts to skew our design as we leave our positivity behind. This alteration this effect may or may not be desired depending on the mechanisms through which we believe we require to get us through our days in our own ways, separately the same repeatedly. LLc 98.2

border walls

It would be fantastic if we could somehow wipe away the materials on our mental chalk board's. To finally be rid of the propositions we make to ourselves, selling us away from us; doing so with an exterior smile to hide our fight, would be a grizzly wake up call to our sleepless, zombie-like nights. The lonliness we sometimes go through is only going to increase so long as we remain captive alone the borders of our inside walls. LLc 98.2

just

There are small moments in our time that reveal the future in specific ways. Those who pay attention to the trajectory of things can see exactly where we stand now; and where we will be standing tomorrow.

time roles

The modern way is much better than the ways of yesterday. To try and emulate is fine for practice, but real and true identity results from the plethora of experiences and roles we take, and have taken, over time. This means we change our inside parts, or the surface of them, much more often than we used to. Mix that reality of roles with the many rallies we partake in within. LLc 98.2

obsessions

I am never amazed at those people who suffer from obsessive compulsive disorder. These people are wrapped up tight enough to match that of a crab's ass; and that is pretty damn tight. I sometimes feel there will eventually be a breaking point, but amazingly, and often, those who I think are on the bubble as far as cracking up goes somehow wind their way through the muddy creek and come out on the other side all dirty but better off in some strange way. People are going to obsess over things and there is not much anyone can do about it. LLc 98.2

magic method

The art of questioning oneself is more than a made up thing, it is innate and driven home by the methods and magic of media. The answers to the questions are both given to us thus lessening the burden of thought and action. Questioning ourselves is in fact like questioning a writer whom we have never met and never will.

Video does the same thing. It provides both the question and the solution. Video simply places images with words offering colorful interpretations of what could possibly be one reality. Because there is no one reality for everyone, the thought of even allowing the presence of such a force is, in and of itself, a stepping stone in the dehumanization process.

We question ourselves even more now, but our questions are not all our own. They have been invaded by the very real social stream of secondary consciousness in training. LLc 98.2

similarity's Lies

It is sometimes possible to maintain oneself within Lie's constraint. One can find happiness over short spurts. The thinking then can be, with each instance and context, that the lie can be use full and even worth pursuing. One may even see profit from such relationships. However, it is probable that, in the long haul, one will find unrecognized discontent that is completely severed from their real and base selves. Every move, every word they say; every action they take from this unusual and pattern specific place, must be founded in similar and parallel lies of similarity. LLc 98.2

money

I guess when it comes down to it, we are all screwed. No matter how good or bad it gets in our lives; no matter how rich or poor we are or become; no matter if the flames in our relationships are still burning brightly or not, in the end game, and during the end times in all our lives, we will be placed out to pasture only to reflect on all the fucking cash we waisted buying unnecessary shit in the hope and belief that we look good in the eyes of other people. As we age out of society's wreckless abandon, still we will be driven by the almighty number one and two head honcho's in charge, money and credit. LLc 98.2

grind

There is a correlation between what we see everyday and our belief systems that are ever changing, hopefully. Stagnation stains the fabric of an authentic society. We require movement now, and this movement must have new pathways to travel. Removing obstructions, politically or otherwise, requires stamina and the ability to take criticism well. This is nothing new as the established order likes things the way they are while those without MONEY simply take it and move on. If strength is what this country is looking for, it can be found in places other than Harvard and Princeton. No sponsorship is needed for inspiration and no social order can stop the free flow of ideas that eventually make it through the grinder. LLc 98.2

deceptive course

We sometimes feel bound up by silent responsibility. Overwhelmed, we tend to then make poor word choices that affect people in different ways. This spin, out of context, is the foundation of someone else's arguement. Unhappiness reigns in this realm as the growing cloud of suspicion rises above all things.
Change is slow and occurs at variable speeds among different people from different backgrounds and perspectives. From an individual standpoint, the mental chalk board must be erased. But how can the memories of established relationships over time somehow be vanquished from the dreariness of daily self deception's majesty? Certainly not through the daily grind of sufficiency and maintenance... through the cloak of silent responsibilities drive in the social scheme from which we thrive and drive, right? LLc 98.2

the ultimate life

The ultimate life is what some people seek. Their ways or interpretations of the ultimate life must differ just as they differ. Replication is no way to make real gains in this life and the ultimate life must include gains of the measurable type. The measurable type is nothing more than words, pictures, movies, and biographies of the processes of exploration through the various lenses of those who live it. Still, many other people choose anonymity for their pathways. This mode of transportation may not yield immediate results or financial fortune, but what can come from them is, at the very least, is a new and interesting perspective from which to see the world. This is nothing bad and always interesting. The ultimate life is defined by the holder of the candle. LLc 98.2

same but similar

Too often our focus is on the end game as we penetrate the now's formatted plan. The those we entertain during the game seem mere representations of the spirit movement once noticed than actualized people with possible games to play themselves. This messiness is social life and it can never be replaced with past movements never the same but similar. LLc 98.2

time consented

There needs to be a revitalization of real art; new and interesting ways of seeing the world in which we live. This new revolution will spur on creation giving little heed to the consequences which can never be as bad as holding it all deep inside; building pressure in time. LLc 98.2

blank

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out from in

I think sometimes we try too hard at things when we should trust the fact that we know what the hell were doing. Just because one person works at something constantly does not mean you will find success in the same way as he. Results will vary from person to person and what may be working for you even, on one day, may be the last thing you need on another day. I think we try too hard to fit into some preconceived mold; whether it be lay ed out in childhood or sometime thereafter. No matter the case, our ideals are set too high for our own good. I guess it's OK to try real hard if only you see progression in real time. If no progression measurable, then you are trying too hard no matter what it is you are involved with inside or out. LLc 98.2

warm up

The golf swing should never be broken down in bits and pieces as it is a unified action that includes the whole body firing in natural order. There is no room to break it down as it is happening nor is there room to break it down while in practice unless guided by someone who is familiar with your particular swing, period. There is no one way to do it but there are words used by people that seem to make sense to the golfing masses. Words like "grip it lightly" or "keep your head down" are just two phrases we can all agree with to a certain extent.
The fact is we hear the answers to the important questions every weekend, but nobody seems to hear them. The swing is athletic so you stand a better chance of hitting it well the better shape your in; but this holds true for most things does'nt it? A good, safe warm up before the round is also essential as any tension hinders the total transfer of energy. LLc 98.2

soon be glad

There is no remedy for our reliance on media and propaganda as a mechanism for the same decorated as different. Time will show the truth behind the various curtains and see through walls that echo what goes on in those darkened halls. The deal makers and breakers operate in plain clothes and walk among us, but at night they are something quite different. The patterns we can see will always point to specific directions by design. Mass manipulation is the cornerstone of all operations that dwell in their infancy inside the creepiest parts of our universe. LLc 98.2

the lives inside

I used to think that living inside my head was a bad thing until I found out around 8 that I was not the only boy, or human for that matter, peddling the big wheel uphill to an empty pond filled with Toad poop and flies. There is no question that in the end we are realized only in the thoughts of other people. Are we aware of this as our shell rots in the ground and our spirited self is renewed somewhere beyond all our contemporary comprehensions?
These conversations inside for most of us was realized, at least in my generation, with the movie Animal House when the devil and the angel popped up on either side of the kids face in a really nice representation of inner conflict and decision making; even though the situation in the piece was sexually and morally based making some uncomfortable at which point they should activate their right to change the channel or set the thought free comfortably from their limited minds, humor wise.
Living inside our head is where we spend most of our time. If too much conflict on the inside, then look bad on the outside manifested through eating, not eating enough, drugs (legal or other wise), booze, smoking, you name one). Inside is where some of us hear how fucked up we are on an everyday basis; how we would be better off in a bar someplace drinking the entire day away; smoking and socializing with fun and interesting people. Living inside our head may sometimes be a bad thing when too many thoughts occupy that space as if they were articles of clothing being spun inside one of those stainless steel dryers between 5 and seven PM. LLc 98.2

man or no

To become a man one must accomplish, through the rhetorical or not, something totally different while being accepted in the day's color and brightness. As we are bread to believe we need to feed on the acceptance of other's. The often forgotten about tools we came with become useless yet we bag them and carry them around with us as if we were going to some day use them. Time will show that tools are no damn good unless they are employed by our passionate selves. It is through our own mechanisms we find our way, not their way. This is the definition of being a man. LLc 98.2

so far, right now

We have been bought and sold and there is nothing we can do about it. Freedom is less than it was before; not much, and we have become pieces to the big economic jigsaw puzzle. It is not possible to imagine just how many of us get screwed each and every day just by living and breathing. The things we are told we need, the things that are offered as remedies, all make us simple and imagination free. This breakdown of individuality is a result of years of input by those who care about nothing other than their pocketbooks. The system itself workd against itself and for it because no matter what happens to any one person or group of people, there will be money made by someone. Once money comes before people by people interested in money only, then what we have is far from a democracy, very fucking far from a democracy. LLc 98.2

the long day

We are offered sweet silence in the day; the beginning of the day before the phone rings keeping us up when we would rather be down. We are offered sweet silence in the day before anyone awakes. Here we have solice and individuality where we are not one with the necessary crowd but one with our necessary and true self. This is the only time in our day where we think clearly enough to not be marred by the influences of other people as a necessity for gains. Sweet silence in the day is a gift to be cherished even as a relatively young person in the long day. LLc 98.2

nice

Contact, solid contact requires a level strike. This is accomplished through the feeling of complete and relaxed release. The amount of tension one places on the grip will vary from shot to shot depending on the lie, but the one constant is solid contact through a smooth and flowing release. Once good contact has happened, all that is left is to let the momentum of the club head take you to your finish; however that finish be. LLc 98.2

not yet

I saw real fear and confusion in the eyes of a child about to die today. This was no movie here. I just happened to be walking back to the sliding glass door when I head commotion in the pool. I went over and saw my great nephew on his way down in the water. The commotion I was hearing was his little arms trying to keep him afloat. It sounded like Coco Boy had fallen in. This is exactly what we continually hear about on the news. Whenever it is quiet and you know good and damn well kids are around, there is a problem. It only takes a minute or two for anyone to have to make that dreaded phone call for the ambulance followed by the emergency room waiting to hear good news. I went through that when I was nine when my nephew Ryan died from drowning as his mother was in the house on the phone with one of her girlfriends. He was almost three just like Griffin is now and will continue to be. It was not his time to go yet, it was not his time to go yet, it was not his time yet. LLc 98.2

it the occassion

I recently had a conversation with a guy who seemed to have an interesting take on life, a really interesting one that, in the last dance, holds true for all occasions and all people in all times. It went something like this: a man, meaning man or woman, can have all the items necessary for a successful presentation and be unhappy as hell on the inside but energetic and task oriented on the outside with more than a hint of inspiration to top it all off; again, his meaning him or her. Now, a man can have nothing; no items to show and nowhere to go and be unhappy as hell or even more so than the man who is good to go on his stage, or so it may be.
So it seems that when one speaks of happiness, one must have it for themselves without any thought or deviation from their ultimate and natural goal while enjoying every step of the process along the way. It is important to know now that this is a man who has never really worked doing anything, has no kids, and has more friends than you can shake a stick at from all over the country. Anyway, happiness in his eyes can be as simple as a man living under a bridge or in some down and out shanty-town in the middle of the desert where he can drop dead without anyone ever knowing a thing about it the occasion or him. That man, he may have been, if it were and was the case I am sure somewhere sometime, may have been the happiest man in the world who died doing exactly what he wanted to be doing where he wanted to be doing it, whatever it may be and have been.
So, who is to judge who is happy truly or not? There are many people who prefer to be unhappy because that is their comfort zone; the place they are most familiar with how things look through their preferred lens; the one that gives them the jagged frame they believe they need to operate from in order to solve an issue that they created themselves through habit and familiarity over time. As an example, if these unhappy people were to somehow have a slate clean enough to eat off of with all the trimmings of ultimate freedom and expression and happiness and joy, they would soon surely fuck it all up with one or more of the many emotional people they employ. The point he was making was clear enough for me I thought and in a world of rush, rush, rush, where media is static and filled with buckets of shit stacked one on top of the other, his point was correct in a general way for all mankind in time. Social expectancy and rewards are simple showdowns between caged rabbits hungry to fuck with a thirst for more, more, more. LLc 98.2

average man

I know your secrets. I know how you think and feel inside. I know how you hate yourself and wish sometimes you were a completely different person altogether. I know you hate your circumstances. I know the books you read, the ones that take you away to that warm and dark place of comfort and tranquility. I know there you are in complete control. I know your dreams and what you dream about. I know what turns you on and what turns you out. You are a trick like me no different than the average man living beneath his capability. LLc 98.2

mom dear mom

Everything is so complicated....
I got up this morning and it was complicated. I did not sleep last night and it was complicated.. wait.. switch that. I walked into the bathroom and it was complicated. There was no soap because the soap was downstairs in the cupboard and it was complicated. I slipped on the stairs and it was complicated. I twisted my foot and it was complicated. The phone rang and it was my mother and she made me want to kill myself and it was complicated. She needs something I cannot provide and it was complicated. The phone died as I was talking to her and it was complicated. I charged the phone, it took forever and it was complicated. I called her back and it was complicated. She laughed and it was complicated. I asked, "why are you laughing?" she said, "because everything is so complicated. LLc 98.2

fast and furious

Mass produced fast food is and has been killing Americans slowly thus opening the door to the use of new medications by the masses; a practice far removed from the use of natural ingredients found on and in the Earth (Bible). Some medications may contain natural ingredients, but the sheer amount of medications available these days shows clearly what matters most, speed and money. LLc 98.2

no feel, none

I don't feel it sometimes. When I try and force it out of sheer know how, things get out of sorts and difficult to understand. Sometimes I don't feel like playing the game either inside or out. When this occurs I simply disengage myself from everything and enclose myself inside this dungeon that has been my friend for so very long. Inside that dark and cool place there is comfort for me. Inside that dark place I am the master of nothing and that feels just great. I don't feel it sometimes not because I seek something, I don't feel it sometimes because it is not in the cards I was dealt, so fighting it is a lost cause and a tremendous waist of my time. LLc 98.2

bags

Touchy some people are. But this touchiness is in response to something much deeper, for good or for bad. Maintaining and automatically switching on this defensive touchiness over time becomes habit forming and puts bags under our eyes requiring even more excuses in our justification shoulder harnesses. LLc 98.2

feel and see

Socialization makes us who we are. Sure there are genetic influences that, like the social world, can never be explained in general terms; or scientific terms for that matter. But besides these facts, we are nothing more than mere temporary housings on a really big circle among many many miles of unexplained space and time. It is my belief that here on this planet there are ways of being; ways of thinking, and ways of perceiving the world that can actually open up the windows to certain unexplained activities by certain entities we know nothing about. A little exploration into the true nature of the past and man should, for some, unlock those windows so that they can feel instead of just see these things they see. LLc 98.2

thorny

If an adult limits a child whether it be through silence or loudness or violence or being critical, then it is the adult who is hurting. This hurt and pain gets transferred onto and into the child, taking up valuable space inside where growth once took place only to be replaced with anger and frustration. These seeds grow into tall and lanky plants; short and stubby ones, that require far too much attention with hardly any water. This is where tha cacti grow thorny in the sand. LLc 98.2

uncool

There is a plausible explanation for anything if it is framed, packaged, and sold correctly. This is not difficult these days as we have become used to hearing even the most outlandish excuses for some of the most outlandish situations and activities of people. I beat my kid because it is how I was raised. I yell all day because my mother yelled all day and it's all I know. Well, in this example, obviously he or she knows differently and is unwilling to change because it is much easier to think with your head jammed up your ass and just put everything else on regurgitation-like autopilot. LLc 98.2

make and break

What becomes of order when order is constructed? In time order changes just as values change. Reflection comes as the older verify their time. In their mind, their order was correct. These days, order is lost in the mechanized performances of people. Why? because actors by design need recognition for their actions. If recognition comes from someone from a different time, an older boss for example, then this is one way for the old days to continue. If we desire something new, what is required is unknown and often disconcerting to many who have become used to their perceived order; their own way. Order is nothing more than ways of acting in accordance with the rule makers and breakers. LLc 98.2

no nothing

If you have lost your passion for living or you feel closed in by the conditions under which you live, the last thing you need to hear from anyone is, "why don't you just move?" The reason we cannot do that is because we become what we own and we place a higher value on objects than we do our own personal satisfaction. This of course unless you tinker with shit. In that case things are groovy. But if you are the average Joe driving the kick ass Honda with the thump and the bump, for example, and you have many more objects, then you cannot just bail and find traction elsewhere. Someone has to pay for all that shit. So, we have concluded then that objects mean more than satisfaction and balls! LLc 98.2

word

If it is answers you seek, your past has them all. If you choose to not learn from them, you can expect the same things to continue with the answers lurking like a cat in the bush waiting to pounce on some helpless bird. But the answers never pounce. You have to search them out. Hopefully in time we can all find our own individual answers so that one day maybe the communication between people can improve without any pre-conditions or misuse of words in the ideology department. LLc 98.2

hairs of grey

I see people forcing their issues, playing sides against one another and making things difficult for everyone around them. They have their reasonings, but the main justification is simple: that is how I was raised! This is the easy way and used often as a replacement for thinking. It just seems easier to be a shit than it is to be a real man or woman. If you are not happy, then it is within your power to get out forever. Forcing the issue never works and only serves to place grey hairs upon thy head. LLc 98.2

season and the day

Some days are longer than others and our moods become altered by the season and the day. The circumstances involved in any interaction cause us to think sometimes in ways we are not altogether used to. Within the interaction frame lies three main categories: expectation, flirtation, and obligation. Expectation is broad enough here to be applied in this way: No interaction occurs without the expectation of some information, otherwise there would be no need for interaction at all. Flirtation is the same as feeling your way around during the interaction. Flirtation means simply to use ones own physical attributes in a way that is useful and always leading to another better thing. Obligation means nothing more than saying the things you need to say in order to get through your day without causing issues for yourself or at least one other person. This day was longer than most because I did what I said I would do and followed through. Maybe someday I can waist a day away and do perhaps nothing. I bet that day would be rather enjoyable. LLc 98.2

acceptable

I understand how people feel now, but in a way I do not understand. Therefor, I cannot say I understand in general because there are no times in life now where generalities can be applied to the larger group as within the larger group exists the individuals; all from different people and backgrounds, that make it up. Separations occur and breakdowns happen; friendships get tested; rules get broken, and words are said that are complete fabrications acceptable. LLc 98.2

true

Television gets us the opportunity to see creativity, but the creativity being offered is stagnant, old, and predictable; it serves as no replacement for real life endeavors. LLc 98.2

bulb of blue

The last thing anyone wants is a truth serum. If people even came close to truth, they would become incredibly frustrated and overwhelmed. It is much better to be stable and unhappy than unstable and happy; especially given all the time we have here on this blue bulb. LLc 98.2

media circus

From the moment celebrity status was granted to people in the news, the news itself became a replica of occuring instances of interaction molded to the viewers taste buds. Over time those taste buds require messiness to be talked about. It is not unlike booze to someone who has an issue with booze; those who are infatuated with media in all its formats are jaded by circumstances beyond their control. If someday the truth were to be told about what we think we know already, the population would not believe it simply because their favorite celebrity newsperson did not utter it. If their favorite newperson did utter it, then it would be true as long as she was wearing the right colors. LLc 98.2

boredom

I am never surprized by the amount of time it takes to accomplish anything. Those who set the boundaries have a diffferent mentality than most and sometimes people are unable or unwilling to break through these set boundaries for whatever reason. Security is what we are told we need to strive for yet often when we reach this acclaimed point (ficticious) we find what could very well be the end of the road. Once the end of the road is reached, all there is from that point forward is maintenance of the persona. If people really knew the discomfort thatcomes from living another person's life, and they do, then they would never let themselves get tied in with a life that is uninteresting, predictable, and incredibly boring. LLc 98.2

smoothe

Our lasting elegance brings forth the maintenance of the same neutered ideology that spews senselass arrogance in the preservation of specific actors, their appearances, and their monitored behavior as it always pertains to the ideology that brung em there; the words they need to say to maintain their stay. LLc 98.2

us ourselves

Duplication of something, no matter its substance and content, is still nothing more than a replication of the authenticity found and conceived by the designer. We pump em out one after the other and decorate the authentic with new beauty and color thus lessening the original value over time; generations. The copies these days are found like plastic discharged from a fast moving automobile along the state highway. These copies are as follows: damn near every movie, every news broadcast (in general of course not counting new news before it gets broken down and buffed into so many shinny pieces that the original story, intentional, accident, or otherwise; involving injury or not, becomes lost in the fragmentary cognitions of the paid fuckers who speak eloquently with their suits and ties), all radio, every single commercial and tv program, and every single political figure who legally lines his/her pockets in multiple ways. Even us the people ourselves are plastic enough to see through. Look around you. Go to the grocery store and see what is being bought; which magazines and articles are favored by which group of people. We the people have become copies no different than the programs we watch and the discharged plastic that is representative of the slurriness that is our xerox existence that is essentially driven by one simple spell after the other. In other words, driven by the new style!
LLc 98.2

hmm 3

Some fella told me one day that I needed to go out and have more fun; spend some time in the sun. I told the dude that what was best for me was to stay out of the sun. He asked me why. I told him how the sun steals the youth from our largest organ, our skin. Sun is fine in small amounts, just ask anyone from there abouts (ocean). But the sun is getting hotter and still people flock to tanning booths to make themselves feel HOTTER. I knew a girl in high school who was there when these horrid places first showed themselves. She went as much as her mom could afford, and her mom could afford as many sessions as her beloved daughter cared to have. Although it is true that tanning beds do not cook your insides, when I saw her just the other day, over 22 years later, she looked like beef jerky and had obviously been through some plastic surgery on her face that was rushed it seemed.
Age is nothing to be afraid of. It is part of the process of life. Unfortunately for us and the many kids who will be here long after we have gone; oh wait, the kids kids, the sun will be getting hotter and hotter. The sun is needed for life, but the sun, like the snake who wakes from a long slumber to a traveling man who thought he was in need of help bites the man but before the man dies asks the snake why, the snake replied because I am a snake; the sun steals away the sunshine from the exterior pieces while providing us all with the very life needed to wear such a ridiculous suit; so temporary and tender, always needing love, tenderness, and the caring and loving touch of another human being. So stay out of the fucking sun! LLc 98.2

lol

I once saw a lady, short and brown and kinda shady. She wore dark sunglasses and a scarf. She had a little dog that went arf! One day the lady and the dog went to the store. Yawning she said " This is quite a bore." The dog replied," yes indeed maam and began to scrath his balls with a sort of, " Maaaan, Ive been down THIS fucking road before!" LLc 98.2

Cuts, bans, and the like

Once again we hear the same old jargon through the kaleidescope of fear and family protection. This is political posturing and nothing more. Making new legislation and coming out with bans on this and bans on that weakens the entire legislative process and keeps things stuck in another time altogether. We do not have time to ban anything as our problems are much more severe.
This is not a story. The real story is cuts, bans, and the like coming from people who believe they have the right way for each individual person. Failure to follow these new rules, so to speak, will result in huge fines and possible jail time. Wow, if that is not socialism, then what is? Truth be told, if community rules were followed and everyone lived safely and lovingly, there would be no money in the kitty. There will always be rule makers and rule breakers; our socialist country relies on the utility that comes from crime. No crime, ban or not, no money. LLc 98.2

soft silence

Change is gradual and often unnoticeable. Once we realize things have changed, often, people will use whatever justification they can (from a pool of justifications and excuses) as a reasoning for their lack of departure; or whatever the case may be. This is a social conflict from within that lays out a firm foundation for building a soft structure that leans at even the slightest wind. Because change acts in soft silence among all actors, and because it is such a time consuming process, our need to be told what to do, how to act, how to dress, how to lose weight, how to find basically anything, etc...etc... is growing at alarming rates. Essentially what is happening is we are becomming too reliant on misinformation and conflict. We have lost our ability to think as all we need is now at our fingertips. This is the now generation and what they will get from it is the immediate gratification they are trained to need through false stimuli as opposed to human contact and all the creativity that can come from it. We are less now than we ever have been; we just think we know shit. What we better know is that we are spoiled little people with big black trucks with lousy music pumping from them. We have become the show and nothing mo! LLc 98.2

fluid toxicity

Too many bosses, too many choices, too many opportunities, and too many opinions; this is where we are now. Because we are at a point along the human time-line where less and less time is spent with other human beings; replaced for the more less productive and singular aspects of technologies sold like bows at a gift wrapping corner in some large, corporate clothing outlet, we have lost the ability to empathize with other human beings without being payed for the opportunity. Stuck we are in the bosom of the monster who feeds on the souls of man's discontentment and desires unfulfilled at the expense of man him/her self. LLc 98.2

revelations

REVELATIONS+++++++++ REVELATIONS+++++++++++++ REVELATIONS++++++++++
Since the beginnings of photography we have been conceptualized, marketed, leased, used, and profited from. The human image has been bought and sold in so many ways that it would take thousands upon thousands of pages in continuum to write it all down and we just cannot afford the cost of such a cumbersome project; let alone conceptualize it without wanting to fall upon a long, sharp blade of some sort, preferrably a samurai sword with edges that cut ribbons from kleenex tissues in flight. Once Fatty and Charlie came along we found a whole new way to profit from images and the people that make them up.
Cinema and advertising came like a couple hand in hand. The propaganda machine was at its infancy which made for a competitive and spirited job market which allowed the stock market to flourish and make money for a great number of people; advertisers included. I would love to continue and get to the point later, but I don't feel like it. So, I will get to the main point.
We the people have been cheated and swindled out of valuable time and money. The game of golf has profited off the human image for far too long. Instructional methodologies have fucked the whole thing up and most golfers will never see improvement in their games for two fucking reasons: they were not trained to improve and they do not care to improve. Why? because one must find fault in order to spend money on instruction and it takes instruction to find the fault. These days, everyone is an instructor and golfers have become accustomed to the struggle as if it were some sort of merit badge that came with weekend blowjobs. It is a circular wheel of warm shit chunks bouncing off our heads as we run run run in the wheel like a rat going nowhere. The drivers hitting it long, the putters knocking it in; it is all one freshly squeezed still hot pile of shit. Yes, I said shit! The minute we began to question ourselves through the use of images: pictures, movies, newspaper articles with pictures, newsreels, advertising; we lost our full potential for one main reason and one reason alone; we are all separate and unique filled with individual passions and flavors that tantalize our taste buds and feed our senses like woven spindles of dynamite.
There is no one way and we know this. The images we see are manufactured for profit. They are second hand news meant for the bottom of birdcages. Instruction video and all the rest of the shit is designed like crack; it leaves you needing more. People go to school to learn how to be deceitful and feel capitalistic and American as a latent function. Images are at the heart of deceitful practices not unlike the pose Abraham Lincoln sat for which took over an hour, or something along those lines.
There is the beginning of the second self and the burden of self reflection and self image through sociography- the self study process of questioning and learning while abandoning everything one thought one could be; to be replaced for the security and sanctity one was taught to believe in while giving no regard to just what it is exactly that makes one wet between the legs or harder than a baseball bat. Images are all lies for money. Play your own fucking game and pay attention to the fundamentals, the one's you can find on page one of any instructional book.
You have the grip which is soft and cuddly yet firm enough to control; the stance which is comfortable and athletic like a human, fleshy piston ready to fire abruptly and with controlled veracity; the posture which simply means to stand parallel to your target while feeling the weight of the club; and ball position which, depending on the shot, is somewhere between your feet; you figure it out. Once you have that, then all you do is be who you are mixed with who you want to be. This of course must be done in your way with your prints all over each and every document along the entire office hallway. Other than that, pull your head out of that tight ass they gave ya and play your game without the mental comparisons to falsity and witchcraft that takes so much of your valuable time. LLc 98.2

piss men

There will always be swindlers and masked men working the con game wearing their suits and ties telling lies selling smiles in exchange for cries. LLc 98.2

so far away from we

Media and misinformation is wired in to our everyday minds and it effects us all in one way or the other. Like an infection of the taint, media infiltrates our being and twists us into a movable spot that needs lies to glide upon. There may be time for truth, but that time is always shared behind closed doors among the diseased fortune tellers who actually believe they are smarter than us little people.
One must laugh at the slight of hand we see every day. Misdirection is the order within the order and surrounding it all is Witchcraft. What do I mean by this? Look around and pay attention to what you see. Look at the TV and listen to the radio. It is one piece of bullshit after another mixed with lame commentary that has no foundation in facts. We have lost ourselves in the spells and our search is taking us further and further away from our intent because we search within the spectrum of reality which is far from reality. LLc 98.2

seen unseen

The link between the known and the unknown is not in the stars or of this Earth. The fact is there is no link at all between anything pertaining to what is known and unknown. We stand now in still the lowest form of human capacity and ability for learning. In time there will be more for humans to do in specific areas like science and philosophy which should be merged enthusiastically.
Because we are still infantile, our unscathed landscape on the inside clouded by the Pre-eminence of media is setting us all back as a species. Our imaginations are clearing space for more unrealities to be found at a later date when we are all gone. Meanwhile we care only about ourselves individually; the first of many signs of our small mindedness. The link between what is known and unknown is never found in the lies people weave; it is never found in what one believes or many believe. We cannot comprehend these things now because we are still growing and easily manipulated by the unseen forces that make up our social world. LLc 98.2

devil in you

People lie because they have to lie and it protects them from any repercussions as far as their job is concerned. Liars are those who easily live within because they sold themselves out long ago for the security that they bought into. Yet, at the same time, many people hate their jobs and can't hold a relationship together. I just wonder how many self lies and lies external were created to attain that status of discontent and disharmony.
The clock keeps ticking as people meander their way to the fastest remedy for all their problems; problems that took a lifetime to create. Some would argue that lying is the best way to not make waves. Hmm, just as the devil himself would put it! LLc 98.2

soo very sad

Reality has lost its way. Reality is nothing more than unreality and cheese with commentators commentating on things in light of their own benefit. Justifications for this come in many ways but in the end nothing changes but the size of the commentators wallets. Keep the people guessing so they can be set up for the next big thing. Suckers we are, surely we will find a way to buy whatever it be. LLc 98.2

creations lie

In twilight still there are many who would look to take all they can. It is understandable that everyone needs to make a dollar. It is also justifiable in some instances, I suppose, to take money through some lie from someone in their twilight. I suppose in most instances everything we do can have some justification attached to it. But what lies behind the justifications and rationalizations are sometimes measurable and open to the eye. Our lies have become transparent to any rational observer. The lies we create inside and sometimes for others makes one wonder what keeps us walking and talking the way we do when the act has broken down if only for a moment. The little demons are on the phones and in the pc's looking for a piece of the twilights. They walk among us and smile the whole way through. LLc 98.2

control

There is a connection between human feelings and all living things. Anger, rage, frustration, all these things include feelings that could be considered negative. This negativity manifests itself in people in various ways considering their upbringing and natural tendencies. Anger, for example, can include physical and mental abuse. Anger itself can manifest rather quickly into rage which is the stage where mistakes are made. Frustration is a normal human thing and it begins when we are young. If we carry negativity with us, it sometimes leaks out in the wrong places. Control comes with experience and drugs. LLc 98.2

here we are

Jill was a normal woman. Confused as we all are between the ages of 12 and 47, Jill began working for the State where she learned the true meaning of time and how much of it can be waisted in a day; not just any one day in particular, but all days individually and combined year after miserable year.
Jack had a good job as a repairman. He never missed a day and always had beer and steak money. Jack also one day decided to work for the State in another capacity. Just yesterday Jack said, "work, you ain't missin nothin!" The man has put on weight, gotten greyer, and his blood pressure is higher than his normal 100 over 70. I swear if he wasn't pink you'd think he was dead.
Jack and Jill now cannot wait for retirement for about 1/4 of their current wage. As time goes by however, we can expect prices to continue to move up as the housing market rebounds and then guess what? the only jobs available will be in law enforcement which will then branch off into separate units each with their own agenda but owned by the same corporation; much as it is now. As crime goes up there will be a need for more law enforcement which will require higher taxes no matter how you slice it. However, no jobs, no taxed income... and who is in charge anyway? Meanwhile Jack and Jill can expect a retirement of 1/4 of what they are accustomed too. Oh yeh, Jack cannot retire until he is seventy. He is 48 now going on 62.

sad

I saw a little league ball game this evening. Things have changed since I was a kid. No longer is there noise allowed coming from the dug-outs; no more bad talking and/or cussing and there is very little enthusiasm with more porkers. Yes, kids today are lazy and are being pussified by social rules and regulations. They are watching far too much television and playing far too many video games. Our country is heading toward the shithouse with media right in the middle filling our heads with opinion and supposition. Sad we are becoming. LLc 98.2

things rather not

Sometimes they say you have to do things in this life that are contrary to your belief system. Sometimes in order to make ends meet you have to perpetuate the line while trying to either sway it, accept it, or go with it without thinking. I believe most people do the latter simply because everyone realizes we have but a short time here; unless you are born into it, you really have no power to change it. The one's on high have been there for sometime and would much rather keep the system flawed thus securing their own jobs and the jobs of those they know.
Similarly, it is not in the interest of the crime stoppers to stop crime or doctors to solve health problems. Also, It is not in the interest of corporations who build prisons to have less inmates. There must be inequality for a society to function. There must be disease and disorder because how else would we get to feel good about ourselves? Were it not for inequality, labeling, favortism, egocentrism, alcoholism, drug addiction and bowling, the whole system would collapse and we would be penniless. Oh wait, we are penniless. This is why we have to do things we would rather not do, because we have to in order to keep up appearances. LLc 98.2

Oh yeh, my other website ran out and has now been taken over by a porn site. this occured through an opened e mail. what can one do? lol

common scheme

Is it better to believe the truth, to recognize it as such, and then just let it go for the sake of saving oneself in the short-term? This is the adult world where decisions must be made everyday that affect other people in the population. These other people vary in size, structure, and position within the ranks of society yet their commonalities make them one. These are the disenfranchised and these are many. LLc 98.2

mis-informed

Misinformation and spin is where we live and thrive. The one who stands out is always the one who stays within his plan, his way, at his cost, even when he is totally lost. Others may see him wiggle from time to time and laugh and criticise him like little kids at the playground; but in more subtle, cellular ways. This is where misinformation thrives and this is what keeps the whole social float running. Add all media and we have the entertainment capital of the world. Meanwhile, we sell more: booze, pharmaceutical drugs, food, soda, and all kinds of other crap than anyone else does. Misinformation is witchcraft and nothing more. LLc 98.2

stagnation

We have too many commentators (paid) who have an agenda that is directly linked to misinformation so we the people can spin all around inside our own little heads as other people ring out the juice from every oiled and greased up dollar before the whole damn thing hits the skids. Those who speak about things they have absolutely no real knowledge of are pure speculators and conjecture flakes. The influence these fat fuckers have over we the people is simply staggering. LLc 98.2

inclined to drive

We are all so afraid of poverty and not fitting in with the crowd we feel we need to fit in with that some people will do most anything to prevent these things from happening. For most of us keeping up appearances is all we think we have. Nobody ever stops to look around to see why we feel these ways. Nobody is encouraged, nor is anyone shown the way to their particular destination. For some reason our real destination always winds up in the unreal of our minds; our dreams. This we are encouraged to do.
For years we have heard how it is good to dream, but the real world has no place for dreamers. This is one reason why we are not inclined to drive toward the unreal. The dichotomy is that the social world is just like a dream, a bad dream filled with the walking musculature's of the never has beens. This is not their fault as they too were encouraged to do this and that and discouraged to dream. The exceptions in all cases however were people like, well, we all know who they are/were don't we? They were the one's in the books some people still read.
Imagine an educational system that created jobs for teachers, allowed for creative thinking that had some benefit to the community, and provided a well rounded and complete education that included music, art, metal shop, wood shop, as well as specialty classes for the academically inclined. Imagine school being a place of learning and creativity. Imagine.
How can this be? First, all upper level jobs would be eliminated. For far too long we have allowed politics to invade the future of the children. A new way with less at the top and more at the bottom will loosen up funding to not only have more teachers, but a variety of classes as well with more money going where it needs to go, into the pockets of the teachers and in each individual classroom. Shall I continue? LLc 98.2

sad

I heard a 27 year old woman say that it was too late for her in her life. She went on to say that she made the wrong choice in her life by marrying a sociopath. Also, she would have rather not let him anywhere near her vagina, ever! So, in her used up and snowed mind, she has resigned to the idea that she is screwed and there is nothing she can do about it. Because she is married to suck a prick, he uses any means necessary to keep her down and in his control while being a non-contributer to the family himself in any way, shape, or form. To look at this woman you would think she was in her late 30's. This all because she married a life sucker; soulless and without a caring bone in his worthless body and mind. So remember kids, if you marry someone, make damn sure they have a soul. LLc 98.2

red flag

You know, with all the bullshit and opinions and all the other crap we hear about each day, it's no wonder we have the highest number of people in the klink; more divorce; more alcoholism (including germany); more heart disease; more obesity, and more drugs and magazines and commercials to remedy each and every one; and a whole lot more, of the few ailments mentioned in this culture and they all work together in one big cyclonic pool of sewage, shit crap for us to sift through as we wait in earness for the next cock-sucker to be named american idol. LLc 98.2

authentic bliss

The beginning of the end always comes when things feel just right and you know from that point forward, whatever point that be, that there will never be a feeling to match this one and all things afterwards are a simple chain of events leading to the eventual demise of the relationship as a whole. Not to say that discontent cannot be habit forming and fun, but the idea here is to somehow be happy in as many different ways simultaneously as possible. This of course can be realized once one adjusts to the truth in their lives versus some unauthentic, fabricated social truth that holds no water here. The beginning is the end in itself to all things here in their eventualities. LLc 98.2

roots good

The immediacy of things is disrupting the flow of humanity as we embark on times that have no familiarity to us. This could be said for all future sights, but this is no normal time in our history. These days anything is possible through the media blare. All one needs is a camera and a blank blank account and he/she can become an instant celebrity. I just wonder about the value of celebrity status and if it is something one would wish on anyone. In our immediacy of things we forget about the human elements of people; the parts beyond the images and words where the feelings sprout from good roots and good ideas. LLc 98.2

mood changes

Moods change like the seasons, but the seasons exist within each of us. As the seasons in nature change, so too does our seasons or moods. When our mood changes, usually in a bad way, we tend to make bad choices and say the wrong things to the only people who would pick us up from jail in the middle of the night.
Our perception of the day is balanced only when we feel no spirited engagement within ourselves; no conflict; no desire for something unattainable and based in some temporary, daily status. Once a change of mood occurs and the balance is leaning too far this way or that, it is our perception and/or mood that incorporates itself into our remaining interactions thus offsetting and misfiring ourselves in the eyes, perhaps, of all the others. LLc 98.2

elements granted

A hero is someone who takes the tides against him. He is one who becomes battered with time and energies that are a detriment to any normal existence. He always comes out in the end on top of the world as he knows his temporary spot here has a specific place designed with him in mind. This is not a control thing by some other entity. There are few pieces to this chess-set. A hero is a definition of the misunderstood; a label falsely printed with an end in mind. There is no equity in heroic acts for they happen in the out of control elements of time and of space. LLc 98.2

below

Our willingness to accept things for what they are is exactly why people get wrinkles and grey hair, often far too soon in life. Also, during our acceptances that get so much social recognition in our certain circles, we find the art of second and third floor occupation. On the second floor we find our various representatives that communicate only with those closest to us: family, friends, significant others etc.. The third floor is employed among the unknowns. Here is where you find the sparkly sprinkles that decorate us like a cake: nice shoes, clean and pressed pants; you know, for the daily show of who we are as individuals within the community we live under.
LLc 98.2

no contract

We run from the things we perceive to be a detriment to ourselves and those we care about. We also run into the middle of the storm knowing full well the journey will take us places we ought not to be. Here is the dilemma and here is where, in time, "the line must be drawn," someone said long ago; words shoveled down from one generation to the next with a specific design in mind on the unconscious self.

There are no lines in the pursuit of happiness and justice unless another person, animal, or property of some kind is harmed either intentionally or otherwise. The process of idea development must have no process that is consciously thought about or manufactured by a Pre-written clause in some contract. This hurts the creative process by objectifying it. We do far too much of that already, don't we? LLc 98.2

adult madness

There is nothing at times more pleasurable than meandering through the second life. The second life is the one in which all justifications for our various actions and situations seem valid and unremarkable. The pleasure we derive from our second lives is only surpassed by our willingness to continue the mind screw. It has almost gotten to the point where we the people have become me the individual. Harmony among fellow people, that is for kids. Let the adults teach and preach hostility so they can suck away all the soul from our youth. Some example huh? LLc 98.2

pineapples and cherries

What if we are temporary, 124 million year experiments designed by the lower class of a higher functioning system of beings no less than 50 miles up in the sky along a thin vapor line that is unseen to even the most highly trained eyes? If we are, then we have absolutely nothing to worry about. LLc 98.2

corn

We walk around in our decorations and manners and we believe there are things they know that we do not. We believe ourselves less than our abilities and we enjoy this process; our process. We enjoy it because we are told to enjoy it. It is not a direct tell nor is it something we are even aware of as it is happening.
We are mere images on the hyper-real assembly line that kicks out products conceived by those who stand the best chance of reviving the old one due to the global exchange of people and images with nothing but copy paper to show for it stamped with the signature of some over priced attorney who works for the old soul himself. LLc 98.2

narrow own

People will always find a way to make days difficult, especially when they jump to conclusions about matters they know nothing about. Protecting ones own interest is fine, but without listening to the other sides of the interaction; whatever that interaction is based on, then making a decision based on sound realities taken in trust (not unlike the innocent until proven guilty scenario we adore so much but rarely follow) will be impossible. Allowing for more of an adult oriented conversation founded in being a human being first before acting as a representative of another entity should be the goal during any interaction. But people are simply unable to see life through any other lens but their narrow own for fear they may have to make changes that could rock their fairy boat. LLc 98.2

authentic nature

Rarely is it ever the man. The sounds are provided by unseen forces filtered down through many generations, contemplations, and exiled particularization's based on nonspecific rationalizations founded through political and religious affiliations under the guidelines set by generalized supervision of the media kind thus making the spirit climb open only to those who allow them inside. This requires less of the you in the social world; to be recognized as anything but a popper employed by the lights and sounds of good music and memories unabated and authentic in their nature plantation, just as the spirits like it. Let them in and allow them all to guide the sense inside you. Nobody can go anything alone- we are never alone. LLc 98.2

forever times in calm

Prosperity comes not on the fashion plate or in the reflections in the windows that make us look so, checkable, as we walk by them. Prosperity is not found in the windows at all. It is never found if it is something that can be measured or specified. It cannot be expressed properly except through art or the artful interpretation of some fabulous thing; individual and true from the heart and soul and mind of its creator.
The design of this type, this real type of prosperity; he may draw inspiration from this un-real reality we all feed on and thrive on like magots to a rotting corpse on the side of a steep and rocky mountain. He may not. None the less, the designer then will always make the signs his own drawing from the playable spectrum where the bounds become boundless and all stress and agony is let loose to fly away into the soundless un-energy of subsidence and dismay. This is prosperity on our side of the mountain and it soothes the soul inside in our forever times in calm. LLc 98.2

The Pain Frame

It is knowing without having the courage to change. It is believing without believing at all. These are the ad-men. The idea, the true belief, that we are capable of anything else is carried by those who have not the time to write as they are busy running and setting new stages to perform on. The performances they maintain are beyond habit; almost as if they truly believe they are what we perceive. Their alliance with our underside is the draw. Some if not most of the audience knows they feel these things, these impulses, these desires, but they can never find the right stage on which to express them; with an attentive audience that is completely enthralled by the performances they give. All other people believe in the pain frame.
The pain frame has many designs and patterns. It can be bought and sold in all places everywhere. It can be traded openly and without hesitation or fear of prosecution, and it can be as freeing as the feeling through sound one gets as raindrops fall crisply on the side of the house and on the hood of the car parked just outside the window your looking through. It comes fully equipped with tested and secure ways of becoming something other than what you are and maintaining that performance for a lifetime.
Our appearance, well, we hide through words and clothes and cars and these all work really well in dark bars where the wolves run late in the evening; well in to the morning hours then driving away in their dark cars, wearing their dark clothes. These are the designers in time. They are the ad-men. Suspension of disbelief. Witchcraft, ain't it a hoot? LLc 98.2

spirit monkey

Once the discovery was made way back in the day, forever tarnished would be our way. The mode of money, and all she brings, would forever create divisions among the good and divisions among the bad; holding the rest hostage like a bagged up rag, used, covered in false promises and stinking with sweat and blood. Ideas they flowed like wine on Tuesday as the monumental ways of transport became larger and more destructive. The people were looked over as poor poppers; in some cases they were. Needless to say in our content today we have seen the after effects of the original. Those people are gone now, but their ghosts roam the field and leak through the wires to still be heard in their spirited ways. LLc 98.2

acting abyss

The explanations we seek do not lie within the bounds of social experience and reality; for this is a playground where answers that are real and true; as true as can be at any one time, cannot be found without giving regard to all those who stand to profit in some way from the encounter. Profit can stifle progress in some ways. This is where we lose ourselves in the acting abyss.
No explanation is necessary in the social world because it is an effective non-reality that relies on discourse and division to function. Being actors, we tend to forget the difference between entertainment and reality. However, our bland social world needs media to keep us at least talking to one another via the Internet. We sure as hell can't do it in person anymore without our cell phones stroking us and making us feel all better inside. LLc 98.2

tell her element

I walked in the really big room, books all over. In the corner alone was this woman; sheepish, skinny, but in her element I could tell. What was it about this woman that made a big wooden stamp come out of the sky and hit me right square in the forehead with the words in big red letters, "FUCKED" clocking me and knocking me down. One look at this woman made my freakin world-view change. I was afraid of her right away. What am I supposed to say to the woman who has just given me one huge fucking headache and a stamp to boot. I mean, I had no chance, none at all. When I found out who she was, well, that was it Jack. The whole Kitten Kaboodle began rolling down the mountains side toward the 47 Ford at the bottom. Moving on, I saw a woman today that showed me the way. LLc 98.2

ride's attainments

It is not unbelievable what a man will do to protect his standing; even as his helicopter is landing he is thinking of ways to continue his philandering. Inside the mind of the driven lives not the end; or matters of attainment for attainments sake, but the ways and means of achieving that goal and getting a narcotic-like rush from the experience as a result. He may not be aware of his intoxication, but that does not take away from the fact that he is intoxicated.
We see it everyday in the eyes of those we place so high on the social ladder. Look in the eyes of the driven and you will see a different expression pressing them on the inside. They may not be able to understand their drive, but that will never stop them from driving. LLc 98.2

< than you

Misconception and deception go together like leaves to a gutter. The rampage of these two things are storming the hillsides and coming down on us. But this is a different battle, one in which incorporates the supernatural truth that is firing on all cylinders. There is no containment to the spell as those who see it can never become anything but spots on the sidewalk to be scrubbed and swept. Becoming whole again may never happen as the social pull is a strong one to behave and act accordingly to one's less than disposition and human capacities. LLc 98.2

someday maybe someday

The filling of our society is not the sweet center like we have in some cookie; it is a filling of broken sheds and rusted tools that had their time and performed their duties. Holding on to the past is OK for a spell, but there comes a time when the past must not be used as a mechanism for future discourse. This is a human thing however and we all share its qualities and imperfections; the past I mean. But remembering it and bringing it up either yourself or hearing it from someone else are two separate things. On the one hand, there are good memories to consider. On the other hand there is everything in between the poles.
Through the hard social world we drive in and create and maintain, we forget that we can sometimes lose ourselves; who we truly are. Sometimes we search for the sweet filling only where shit burgers are sold and served on old benches surrounded by saw horses with dust on the hard wood floor. The past repeats itself as our humanity it seems will have it no other way. Oh well, maybe someday. LLc 98.2

delivery, oh delivery

It is a time, space continuum. It is paradoxical. It is the atomization and transfer of the spirit cells; momentary and forever continuing on their pathway. The host here is but a temporary one and all things on this plane are indeed temporary.
Pride and fashion are getting in the way of certainty. The allies and unions we form serve to protect as well as repress us for the sake of maintenance and delivery. The maintenance is for security, the delivery is for the forsaken dream; the ones we gave up for the sake of appearance and standing. LLc 98.2

the image maker in you

We live in one giant social space. We live in large and small groups simultaneously. Each group has their own outlook and perspective; the social sense that binds them within their own personal structure of daily activities. These things include the obvious: school, work, entertainment, etc. Like minded and similar thinking people hang out together. For example, flashy douche bags who drive over-priced cars hang together and the people who like sport hang together. Those who like themselves a lot hang together; not unlike the before mentioned douche bags. These packs, these people all share certain characteristics, but they all have one very strong thing in common completely; the mangled superiority complex embodied best by the image maker. The dehumanization of the human race is running full speed baby and everything you see and do is based on the maintenance and manufacturing of absolutely nothing of any real value. Our giant space has friends that see better than you do and they receive while you believe in the order the nothing. LLc 98.2

fluid sacrifice still

The light of the evermore is seen not through my eyes nor anyone Else's here on this plane. No, the light of the evermore is carried through by the signs, the hallows, the recollections of past men that contain within themselves the same yearning and desire they have always had in their possession. They are unknown to us and only come in the form of reflections mixed with our imaginary capabilities. This is normal; these unseen things and feelings we have. The reasoning behind them is not fully understood, but sometimes on this plane the explanations we seek, and the ways of our inquiry, play a vital part in our inability to actualize any one explanation that seeks to incorporate everything. The light of the evermore is simply unseen. It is housed in the crevaces we walk on where the blood droplets congragate and tell their story fluidly. LLc 98.2

this and that

How can anything be good enough? How would it be possible to find satisfaction when there is so little of it that can be seen? It seems the only happy people we see are on TV and then we get happy because they get happy. Does this make any sense at all? Does anyone see the connection here?
We are a representation of what it means to be lost in the outside. We are so far gone that we have become the commercial, the soap, the mid-week funny sitcom with good looking people going through what we NeeD to go through. Does this make any sense? What we have become is mechanistic, but with a twist. We learn from and follow what we see, but we also look for examples through other programming to learn how to change ourselves. Does that make any sense? LLc 98.2

the everyday you

The explanations do not lie within the bounds of social experience; this is a playground where real and true answers, as true as they can be at any one time, cannot be found without giving proper regard to all those who stand to gain in some way economically or otherwise from the encounter.
No explanation is needed in the social world unless there are individual adjustments that need to be made on the part of any one actor or group of actors. In some cases, a total reconstruction of self needs to take place. This includes presenting oneself in accordance with the larger whole of the community while still maintaining an individual presentation; an impossibility in our social world.
Impression management is the social experience. Everything you need to know about someone is right there in front of you. The explanations in people we seek should be real and true. The social world does not allow Peggy, the pill popping soccer mom, to reveal herself to the community as this would be a good example of bad impression management. For example, If Peg were to go out one evening and have a few too many with her friends, then somehow get tangled up in some prostitution scheme her cousin has been running from her living room without Peg knowing about it, then her presentation, her role as soccer mom, would be void and she would be abandoned by all her friends.
The explanations we seek again cannot be found on the slippery societal surface where the ice capades practice everyday. They can however be found on the you in the everyday. LLc 98.2

unaffected infection

Politics is in all things human. It lies on every avenue and back street of every city. It is at home and the workplace. It is in everything you see and touch; meet, greet and eat. Politics is in all things human and beyond.
You show me one result by one set of people, in any experiment, and there will be another set of people at the ready to disprove it. Some people prefer the role of disproving the result because the money can be really good. It is like rolling the dice and getting on a hot run with the cameras rolling.
The political game exists on every level of humanity, and in most cases it is a game of chance and timing. It forces us to take sides, say and do the wrong things, make false assumptions about people; and there are many other examples I could think of. There is however an unaffected group. LLc 98.2

free way

The social world is the creation of us all. This is not by choice, but the maintenance of the status quo is a choice. Those who would scrutinize you, if you stand out in some way, do so out of their own deep seeded desire to do or be the same. This is the essence of entertainment and is the starting point for our imaginary lives; in some cases. If we only spent more time doing and acting out our visions (so long as no harm ever comes to another living thing), maybe our fictitious mind world could resemble us in the social world free from the burden of having to be any other way. LLc 98.2

hatred of me

In our momentary silences we see the things that are true; for what they are. Blindly then we embark on a separate more compensatory pathway that makes room for allowances, justifications, and re-classifications that take us on a journey not meant for us. In time we find ourselves in an unholy place; a wicked spot of our own creation. The discontent we feel inside and try so hard to hide wears us down and takes away from us, our ability to fight. Once we succumb to our own actions, when we know differently the truth, we then embellish all our heartache and deep seeded anger at ourselves toward those who are close to us. Does this sound familiar to you? I know it does. Funny thing about people, some of us will never let go of the hatred we carry for ourselves. Some of us hate ourselves so much that we cannot see the world through any other lens than the one that provides us with the many shades of darkness we have come to love so very much. LLc 98.2

drive long

It is unimpressive to be a success at something you hate. It is not unimpressive to me or anyone else you see out there, but the frowns you wear, the stares, show a different side to that success. Success is a wonderful thing but if that success means years of laborious work in the alley of social order and status, then the achievement has been done before and you have proven to everyone around you that you are a winner; just like the one's before you.
However, things cannot replace the experience of failure. You know exactly what I mean. It is failure that drives the driven soul. Through failure comes the birth of new ideas and thought processes. Failure breeds originality in all people. LLc 98.2

desire always we do

Time allows for wiggle room in the cells we create for ourselves. Oh, you don't limit yourself inside that mind of yours? What a load of crap. Yes you do and you know you do. We all do these things, and it really sucks. We do these things because we are born into a world that has already been created for us. Part of the spell is ingesting everything on the outside that comes to us on the inside through that box.
That box controls your opinion of you and every other actor in society. It controls us all well, so you are definately not alone. Think about it! Think about all the fiction you bite into each day. Feel the burn as that stingy taste covers the inside of your mouth, ravishing your taste buds; feeding that desire for more. LLc 98.2

truth holds forever

Romantics are efficient at self destruction. LLc 98.2

only one

Romantics believe not in what seems to be. The packaged material is not trustworthy enough to consider. No, romantics believe not in what seems to be, but rather, what actually is on the inside. That is where the flowers grow and they can bloom forever with another caring soul. LLc 98.2

match made in heavan

To become a better golfer, one must consider who they are first as a person; because anything that runs through the mind of a golfer will take him/her further and further away from his/her objective. Once they have found themselves swimming in the pool of contentment; to include all things good and all things bad and to have each one of them recognized and categorized for not only future reference, but also for any future action that entertains the notion of a higher more tolerant level of understanding of the GAME! First, you take all that you have in the bag on any one day to the first tee. This includes all things that run through the mind; only you know them for sure. And you take deep breaths as you swing the club on the tee side while visualizing your ball coming off brilliantly, flying through the air like a bald eagle soaring in the Colorado mountains; a beautiful sight by the way. You place your ball on the proper side of the tee depending on the tee levels and so on and so forth. You then step back behind the ball and swing a few more times eyeing the ball in flight as it descends onto the fairway. Not any one point on the fairway parse', just the fairway. You then breathe deeply some more; not to pass out but to be loose and ready to allow things to take place based on one vision, one feel, one desire to see the shot come off just as you envisioned it. You make the swing and from then on it is a reciprocal relationship between you and the golf gods; who, by the way, have a hell of a sense of humor. LLc 98.2

you better believe it!

Creativity thrives in young people. Once older, the young join the ranks of the necessary. Among these people are those who do what needs to be done so that the basic needs can be met: food, shelter, and so on. In this group there are, and have been for years, the personnel to discover new technologies/anti-technologies never to be heard; speak new words never to be spoken or heard; have new ideas about their social world never to be tested and proven over time; among many other functional and imagination based ideas that could have serious and provable use in all future endeavors of their fellow community members and humanity as a whole. The time is coming for these voices to be heard. It is most definitely coming. LLc 98.2

mood in man

Just as the value of negative space in art cannot be fully appreciated unless it is utilized by someone who sees beyond the material realisms that are seen, the sociology of the seasons determine the artists heart and negative space is a vital part of that process.
The sociology of the seasons takes into account the fact that people change at different rates than the social order. From one generation to the next the patterns of action are faster moving and perspectives need to reflect that. It takes into account moods as they relate to both the social and private spheres of any one individual or any one or more collective of individuals. It takes into account patterns of processes that reflect the inside parts of the individual as they relate to their own personal space and how their space relates to the space of another to see if there is a seasonal correlation to the activities of humans in the social world.
People as a collective move along the social pathway at different rates. The recidivism, the cycles we see, the remarks we make; all form seasons. The moods and patterns of people inside their seasons is what drives the social world.
Negative space need not be filled if it were not created by those who seem to believe their season is the right one. But their season is different. In their season, differentiation is measured and plotted on a computer screen for us to look at and absorb. Here we have the importance of mood in man and his response to that plan. LLc 98.2

dumb and dumber

Marriage is a tool for social control. It obligates people to perform at a recognizable and acceptable level. It is a show like the ceremony itself. It comes with tax perks, job perks, and recognition that you are a valued member of the community with strong ties to God and family. However, these things are part of the new falsehood, as times have changed.
No longer should the woman stay home and prepare shit; they no longer know how and care not to learn anyway. No longer should a man be expected to do the bulk of the money making. Now a days, nobody cares where the money comes from so long as it comes from somewhere. We have become results; fragments; statistical embodiments of a lost generation tuned in and toned down psychologically. We are mechanisms or units to be controlled. Just look at what we have become; toddlers who need decisions and facts given to us as if we were some form of deranged mammalian entity. LLc 98.2

new order

There are many like you who live in falseness and deceit. As you know by now the money you make, or are currently screwing out of someone, makes you a player in the big game. Those you play with may say they believe in this or that, but by being who they are; by saying the things they say behind people's back; by acting the fool, they ensure a place for themselves in the loneliest of valley's where there is no peace. In time they will find out what the repurcussions of shallowness are and how lonely one can be surrounded by well dressed demons who thirst for money as if it were blood leaking from the still alive body of some chicken-shit worthless attorney, as so you will become. Witchcraft is rampant and we are all part of it. Welcome to the new order. LLc 98.2

black prosperity

One must ask how much of a whore they are willing to become for the almighty dollar. God is money here someone said, and for some people the dream is to have lots and lots of it. There are those in this world who put on a good facade; they fit in to the facade of the everyday quite nicely. You see, these daze it is much, much better to look the part than to play the role. Fancy language and posturing takes care of itself in time. Of course, once you get the hang of it you realize just how short you have come because the road you are on is tainted with spots not unlike the spots you would find in a Vegas hotel room; you know, the crusty little spots that you say is spilled wine. One must ask themselves just how much of themselves are they willing to let go for the sake of appearance in prosperities blackened eyes. LLc 98.2

collective me

We are all serving a sentence and doing time. We want to leave marks in the sand and make real changes in the way of operations. These things are slow as people are unwilling to abandon the reality they see. Their comfort ability/ours is due in large part to the selection and opportunities afforded us.
Tapping in to an idea is where we find the birthplace of action, not subtlety. One idea can spring from the simplest of thoughts. Running with that thought, that idea, is how really big bridges are built between people and generations. It is how we become something as opposed to succombing to something else; someone elses idea for us.
Still, no matter which of the many isles we take, you can be sure the movie will end at some point; to be continued when we get home and even while we sleep. No matter the idea or function, our temporary spot will have other occupants once our time is up. What will they perceive about us? What marks in the sand shall serve as our signature? Will it be a collective or will it be singular in nature; noteworthy and satisfactory in its understanding? LLc 98.2 *

economy first

I feel as though I am waking from a long and prosperous sleep. Like the world herself has morphed into a shell of what it once was. Its occupants just the same have morphed. We have become self-enclosed fixtures on the big mantle piece; reminders of our time and place in history when we became one entity of the fluid demolition of singularity only to be replaced by economic compromise in disguise. LLc 98.2

reality sets

Television is like a convenience store. It costs money, nothing is good for you, yet there is something chewy and wonderful in each of these places for everybody to enjoy.
It is through the specks of convenience we lose our will. Once belonging takes the reins; among the many selves personified, the personal glide ends for a capacity filled flight to a place where we are supposed to teach values to young people. Where did the dream go? Kids are not the biggest risk in our social world however. The risk is in all of us to either succumb to the look and bypass the glance next time we walk by the glass, or walk like we believe in our heart that what we are doing is valuable yet flexible upon convincing and/or verifiable data sets or sounds of clarity that come from beyond the spectrum of our reality sets. LLc 98.2

human specific

Links that are temporary ones are human specific. Nothing lasts forever; you can't always have what you want; hell, they make songs about how hard it is to achieve their personal success. We relate in continued discontent with moderate bits of happiness stuffed in and out; where it can fit around all our daily baggage; thus disallowing seemingly prosperous relationships based on trust and mutual admiration to be acceptably viewed in the media rather than achieved after years and years of miserable failure on our own parts.
If you do not think you live in comparison to the fantasy daily created, then you are in it deeper than you think. This is where a certain group of people render themselves visible. Do you know them? Do you know what they look like or what their words mean, really mean to you at that moment in time? I will say this, these people look very similar to you. They watch you to see if you believe you as you stand, sit, walk, or talk. They are very human, human specific. LLc 98.2

thunder and classification

It was your presence that sustained you. Your size, your mannerisms, your tastes; these things permeated the air you brought with you whenever you entered a room. Once you got a taste of your entrenched desires and found simulated and unfounded joy that benefited you and your membership in the community, you became another man. What you became was a reflection of what dwells inside the minds of each one of us. But without the proper guidance, people like yourself get overlooked and become monsters in yourselves; always hurting on the inside for what you have been programmed to believe you are missing. I say you miss the things you miss because of what may happen on the journey. Ask any successful person and they will tell you, "We started with an idea and put it all on red baby and watched as the wheel turned and 19 came up. From then on it has been one windfall after another." It is possible to re-establish yourself in this life, and to do so with great thunder and classification. LLc 98.2**

they be you

Your God is television and media is your prince. One day without media would be far too dangerous a task as we are required to latch on to the wonders of misinformation and fear as a foundation for our action. We are slowly losing the identity we earned in our youth to a barage of images and words meant to deceive us and take away from us our fabric, our essence, and our unified selves; acting on behalf of larger more idealistic images of future ramifications that can only benefit us as individuals; which could then lend itself (this perception of life) to the benefit of the community thus playing a role in our natural tendencies to do otherwise so that we may not tend to do those things, whatever those things be. LLc 98.2

love always clear

Love is more than a whisper, more than a touch. It surrounds us all and it leads sometimes from behind. It is made up of energy containing harmony and acquiescence. It fools us and blinds us; sometimes to the point of anger and frustration. But love is not universally known and it takes on so many forms. No matter of material can show or prove ones love for another. It takes more than a whisper and a touch. It takes the belief that beyond our relm exists the answers we seek. But we require more than mere answers. We require things we should not require. The other relm has no requirements other than the love and belief system you came in with. It is the only true thing the people of earth can never take away from one another. LLc 98.2

keeper desires

Love is the rose and passion is the stem. The flower is representative of all our sin. It flourishes in the sunlight and wilts during the night; only to bloom again come morning sun. Its duration is as long as the keeper desires. His ability to care not only for the flower herself but the soil beneath her is paramount. Much time and planning and practice has to take place. This means that failure must also be involved. Still, when failure happens it serves as an experience in time; one to be measured and learned from. Still more, there will always be a rose because there will always be someone who cares and cares passionately. It is the passion inside that represents the free standing man in the stem's form and it is love that drives and gives reason to be a gardener. LLc 98.2

slow

I am engulfed in the proposition that things must improve because, although they can become worse, these things are in flux. Things always are because if they were not, then this whole thing we are involved with could be viewed as one giant experiment gone awry. Those on high; he on high, whoever it be fat or skinny, must see our progression and laugh. I guess the good thing is that without all the BS we get to experience each and every day we would have no way to track things and see how we move at a snails pace.
Red tape mingling with procedure and the status of achieving individuals slows progress down so everyone can get a piece of the pie. Like birds from the air these pigeons pluck the finance away just like they were trained to do. This is but one thing in a myriad of things we all must contend with so the trails we mark can be colored to the appropriate corporation. Nothing like a sell out to keep the dollar moving. LLc 98.2

ever will again and again

She was soft and steady in her ways. The dominant feelings of the day pervaded her every way. Is not easy she would often say. Lies rarely are I would respond. The comfortability of the matter lies in the absence of lies. To become a liar is one thing, to maintain the lie is another thing altogether. There is no sense in the manufacturing and maintenance of lies, but lies are all we see; they are all that we know. We all have a one way ticket to the big show once our eyes open, truly open up to the deceitful practices of man. We do these things because we are worthless and easily manipulated by the mainstream idealisms of those we cannot see and ever will. LLc 98.2