nice

Contact, solid contact requires a level strike. This is accomplished through the feeling of complete and relaxed release. The amount of tension one places on the grip will vary from shot to shot depending on the lie, but the one constant is solid contact through a smooth and flowing release. Once good contact has happened, all that is left is to let the momentum of the club head take you to your finish; however that finish be. LLc 98.2

not yet

I saw real fear and confusion in the eyes of a child about to die today. This was no movie here. I just happened to be walking back to the sliding glass door when I head commotion in the pool. I went over and saw my great nephew on his way down in the water. The commotion I was hearing was his little arms trying to keep him afloat. It sounded like Coco Boy had fallen in. This is exactly what we continually hear about on the news. Whenever it is quiet and you know good and damn well kids are around, there is a problem. It only takes a minute or two for anyone to have to make that dreaded phone call for the ambulance followed by the emergency room waiting to hear good news. I went through that when I was nine when my nephew Ryan died from drowning as his mother was in the house on the phone with one of her girlfriends. He was almost three just like Griffin is now and will continue to be. It was not his time to go yet, it was not his time to go yet, it was not his time yet. LLc 98.2

it the occassion

I recently had a conversation with a guy who seemed to have an interesting take on life, a really interesting one that, in the last dance, holds true for all occasions and all people in all times. It went something like this: a man, meaning man or woman, can have all the items necessary for a successful presentation and be unhappy as hell on the inside but energetic and task oriented on the outside with more than a hint of inspiration to top it all off; again, his meaning him or her. Now, a man can have nothing; no items to show and nowhere to go and be unhappy as hell or even more so than the man who is good to go on his stage, or so it may be.
So it seems that when one speaks of happiness, one must have it for themselves without any thought or deviation from their ultimate and natural goal while enjoying every step of the process along the way. It is important to know now that this is a man who has never really worked doing anything, has no kids, and has more friends than you can shake a stick at from all over the country. Anyway, happiness in his eyes can be as simple as a man living under a bridge or in some down and out shanty-town in the middle of the desert where he can drop dead without anyone ever knowing a thing about it the occasion or him. That man, he may have been, if it were and was the case I am sure somewhere sometime, may have been the happiest man in the world who died doing exactly what he wanted to be doing where he wanted to be doing it, whatever it may be and have been.
So, who is to judge who is happy truly or not? There are many people who prefer to be unhappy because that is their comfort zone; the place they are most familiar with how things look through their preferred lens; the one that gives them the jagged frame they believe they need to operate from in order to solve an issue that they created themselves through habit and familiarity over time. As an example, if these unhappy people were to somehow have a slate clean enough to eat off of with all the trimmings of ultimate freedom and expression and happiness and joy, they would soon surely fuck it all up with one or more of the many emotional people they employ. The point he was making was clear enough for me I thought and in a world of rush, rush, rush, where media is static and filled with buckets of shit stacked one on top of the other, his point was correct in a general way for all mankind in time. Social expectancy and rewards are simple showdowns between caged rabbits hungry to fuck with a thirst for more, more, more. LLc 98.2

average man

I know your secrets. I know how you think and feel inside. I know how you hate yourself and wish sometimes you were a completely different person altogether. I know you hate your circumstances. I know the books you read, the ones that take you away to that warm and dark place of comfort and tranquility. I know there you are in complete control. I know your dreams and what you dream about. I know what turns you on and what turns you out. You are a trick like me no different than the average man living beneath his capability. LLc 98.2

mom dear mom

Everything is so complicated....
I got up this morning and it was complicated. I did not sleep last night and it was complicated.. wait.. switch that. I walked into the bathroom and it was complicated. There was no soap because the soap was downstairs in the cupboard and it was complicated. I slipped on the stairs and it was complicated. I twisted my foot and it was complicated. The phone rang and it was my mother and she made me want to kill myself and it was complicated. She needs something I cannot provide and it was complicated. The phone died as I was talking to her and it was complicated. I charged the phone, it took forever and it was complicated. I called her back and it was complicated. She laughed and it was complicated. I asked, "why are you laughing?" she said, "because everything is so complicated. LLc 98.2

fast and furious

Mass produced fast food is and has been killing Americans slowly thus opening the door to the use of new medications by the masses; a practice far removed from the use of natural ingredients found on and in the Earth (Bible). Some medications may contain natural ingredients, but the sheer amount of medications available these days shows clearly what matters most, speed and money. LLc 98.2

no feel, none

I don't feel it sometimes. When I try and force it out of sheer know how, things get out of sorts and difficult to understand. Sometimes I don't feel like playing the game either inside or out. When this occurs I simply disengage myself from everything and enclose myself inside this dungeon that has been my friend for so very long. Inside that dark and cool place there is comfort for me. Inside that dark place I am the master of nothing and that feels just great. I don't feel it sometimes not because I seek something, I don't feel it sometimes because it is not in the cards I was dealt, so fighting it is a lost cause and a tremendous waist of my time. LLc 98.2

bags

Touchy some people are. But this touchiness is in response to something much deeper, for good or for bad. Maintaining and automatically switching on this defensive touchiness over time becomes habit forming and puts bags under our eyes requiring even more excuses in our justification shoulder harnesses. LLc 98.2

feel and see

Socialization makes us who we are. Sure there are genetic influences that, like the social world, can never be explained in general terms; or scientific terms for that matter. But besides these facts, we are nothing more than mere temporary housings on a really big circle among many many miles of unexplained space and time. It is my belief that here on this planet there are ways of being; ways of thinking, and ways of perceiving the world that can actually open up the windows to certain unexplained activities by certain entities we know nothing about. A little exploration into the true nature of the past and man should, for some, unlock those windows so that they can feel instead of just see these things they see. LLc 98.2

thorny

If an adult limits a child whether it be through silence or loudness or violence or being critical, then it is the adult who is hurting. This hurt and pain gets transferred onto and into the child, taking up valuable space inside where growth once took place only to be replaced with anger and frustration. These seeds grow into tall and lanky plants; short and stubby ones, that require far too much attention with hardly any water. This is where tha cacti grow thorny in the sand. LLc 98.2

uncool

There is a plausible explanation for anything if it is framed, packaged, and sold correctly. This is not difficult these days as we have become used to hearing even the most outlandish excuses for some of the most outlandish situations and activities of people. I beat my kid because it is how I was raised. I yell all day because my mother yelled all day and it's all I know. Well, in this example, obviously he or she knows differently and is unwilling to change because it is much easier to think with your head jammed up your ass and just put everything else on regurgitation-like autopilot. LLc 98.2

make and break

What becomes of order when order is constructed? In time order changes just as values change. Reflection comes as the older verify their time. In their mind, their order was correct. These days, order is lost in the mechanized performances of people. Why? because actors by design need recognition for their actions. If recognition comes from someone from a different time, an older boss for example, then this is one way for the old days to continue. If we desire something new, what is required is unknown and often disconcerting to many who have become used to their perceived order; their own way. Order is nothing more than ways of acting in accordance with the rule makers and breakers. LLc 98.2

no nothing

If you have lost your passion for living or you feel closed in by the conditions under which you live, the last thing you need to hear from anyone is, "why don't you just move?" The reason we cannot do that is because we become what we own and we place a higher value on objects than we do our own personal satisfaction. This of course unless you tinker with shit. In that case things are groovy. But if you are the average Joe driving the kick ass Honda with the thump and the bump, for example, and you have many more objects, then you cannot just bail and find traction elsewhere. Someone has to pay for all that shit. So, we have concluded then that objects mean more than satisfaction and balls! LLc 98.2

word

If it is answers you seek, your past has them all. If you choose to not learn from them, you can expect the same things to continue with the answers lurking like a cat in the bush waiting to pounce on some helpless bird. But the answers never pounce. You have to search them out. Hopefully in time we can all find our own individual answers so that one day maybe the communication between people can improve without any pre-conditions or misuse of words in the ideology department. LLc 98.2

hairs of grey

I see people forcing their issues, playing sides against one another and making things difficult for everyone around them. They have their reasonings, but the main justification is simple: that is how I was raised! This is the easy way and used often as a replacement for thinking. It just seems easier to be a shit than it is to be a real man or woman. If you are not happy, then it is within your power to get out forever. Forcing the issue never works and only serves to place grey hairs upon thy head. LLc 98.2

season and the day

Some days are longer than others and our moods become altered by the season and the day. The circumstances involved in any interaction cause us to think sometimes in ways we are not altogether used to. Within the interaction frame lies three main categories: expectation, flirtation, and obligation. Expectation is broad enough here to be applied in this way: No interaction occurs without the expectation of some information, otherwise there would be no need for interaction at all. Flirtation is the same as feeling your way around during the interaction. Flirtation means simply to use ones own physical attributes in a way that is useful and always leading to another better thing. Obligation means nothing more than saying the things you need to say in order to get through your day without causing issues for yourself or at least one other person. This day was longer than most because I did what I said I would do and followed through. Maybe someday I can waist a day away and do perhaps nothing. I bet that day would be rather enjoyable. LLc 98.2

acceptable

I understand how people feel now, but in a way I do not understand. Therefor, I cannot say I understand in general because there are no times in life now where generalities can be applied to the larger group as within the larger group exists the individuals; all from different people and backgrounds, that make it up. Separations occur and breakdowns happen; friendships get tested; rules get broken, and words are said that are complete fabrications acceptable. LLc 98.2

true

Television gets us the opportunity to see creativity, but the creativity being offered is stagnant, old, and predictable; it serves as no replacement for real life endeavors. LLc 98.2

bulb of blue

The last thing anyone wants is a truth serum. If people even came close to truth, they would become incredibly frustrated and overwhelmed. It is much better to be stable and unhappy than unstable and happy; especially given all the time we have here on this blue bulb. LLc 98.2

media circus

From the moment celebrity status was granted to people in the news, the news itself became a replica of occuring instances of interaction molded to the viewers taste buds. Over time those taste buds require messiness to be talked about. It is not unlike booze to someone who has an issue with booze; those who are infatuated with media in all its formats are jaded by circumstances beyond their control. If someday the truth were to be told about what we think we know already, the population would not believe it simply because their favorite celebrity newsperson did not utter it. If their favorite newperson did utter it, then it would be true as long as she was wearing the right colors. LLc 98.2