All of our assets, everything we have owned and known in our entire lives stays right here as an imprint only of what once was. We can't even take our credit score with us. We are talking about an average of 75 years versus an eternal life. where is your money? I often hear people say these kinds of things and they may have a point. But I believe their reasoning, in cases such as this one, is false. That said, a belief in a higher being is legal. It is the reason many of us wake up in the morning and put in a hard days work. I see nothing wrong with believing in a "god," but there is a problem when that belief system is shoved down people's throat over and over again. 

One of the easiest things in this world to do is to sit on the sidelines while other people play, for example, on television or in the movies. I mean, these people are living out Earthly dreams and desires. In our eyes it is all one big movie and they are the stars of the show. It is almost as if we, as a whole, are sitting on the sidelines in our own lives knowing full well that we can improve in many ways.

We sometimes get injured during our lives. I'm not talking about physical injury. I am talking about the kind of injuries that occur within the mind. Maybe it steals your confidence or makes you feel bad about yourself. These are healable wounds. In time these kinds of wounds do heal, but they leave a mark on the inside and serve as reminders that it is possible to be injured. This is part of the human experience.

I find myself repeating myself every day. I am beginning to get myself into my own way. I am thinking too much and acting too little. But I feel that in order for me to be successful I would have to act. I hate acting. I feel comfortable alone. At the same time, I miss a lot of beautiful things. But each day I get a spectacular sunset.

I often hear people say they're bored. I get bored from time to time. But does that mean that certain lives are really boring? Well, if you suffer from depression, days can turn into weeks and months of boredom and depression. It is a cycle that is difficult to get away from. In time they say it will get better. Well who are they to say anything about depression and being bored? These are the kinds of people that say, "Get over it!" There is no real way to get over it. Sure there are drugs to help depression, but these drugs don't always work. The depression and boredom is sometimes just too strong to shake.

alone and smiling

It is one thing to be alone. It is another to be alone in a relationship. This becomes difficult because of the lies one tells oneself. After a while, the lies become so strong that they are believable- not only to the one who is lying to himself/herself, but also to those around them. People believe everything is okay because that is what is being presented. There is no doubt that presentation is just that, a way to show someone that everything you are doing is okay and everything is fine. But everything is not fine because he or she is alone and smiling and acting as if everything is okay... when it isn't.

Once we prepare for the day backstage (in our homes), we are then responsible for the presence. We are responsible for not only how we look and what kind of a statement we make alone, but we are also responsible for our persona... our whole presence. What our backstage preparation brings to the table can often determine the circumstance and solution to any one issue.

There is a loneliness that surrounds me. It invites me to think and do things I otherwise might never do. From these kinds of thoughts and actions comes a willingness to put myself out there to be scrutinized; to not be afraid to speak of my illnesses. But I don't have that kind of courage... yet. Maybe someday I will have the opportunity to escape from myself and the loneliness that surrounds me.

Fair-weather friends are easy to come by. They always appear when things are going well. But when things get tough, they are nowhere to be found. This is part of the human condition. People are drawn to those who are having success. They want to be around that success. They want to be successful themselves.