Someone said long ago that the truth is stranger than iction. They were right! The things people do to one another in real lie are absolutely amazing. I learned about how people can turn on you relatively early in lie. A close relative o mine was involved in a court case against her boss. Everything was in her avor. The truth was on her side. One day, a co-worker testiied (later determined to be having an aair with the boss) against what was true and it turned the tide o the case. Needless to say it wasn't long beore that co-worker showed up at the house drunk o her ass apologizing or what she had said. We didn't know at that time,o course, that she was just trying to make hersel eel better and those were crocodile tears. She was a real sociopathic type person as I look back. I guess I was about 9 or 10 at the time and since then there have been many more instances o human deception in my lie. I suppose we all deal with demons both on the inside and the outside. The masks we wear can hide a lot more than who we really are... they can hide the lion who, when provoked, will destroy everything he sees using all orms o human deception and lies. One doesn't have to look ar to see deception and lies. One only need to watch the television or a ew seconds. One scary truth about this lie is the act that millions o people watch soap operas. They are ully into the iction. It takes up space in their lives. In any scholarly book, that is straight up insanity.

I've been out o Caliornia or a number o years now. I guess I am a Nevadan now. With this new status, I have come to notice a ew things that are common among young vacationers rom Caliornia or just young people in general. irst, they seem to have questionable manners. They have tremendous eelings o sel worth marked by a complete disregard or world aairs. I could go on and on here and yes, there are always exceptions. We really do have brilliant young people here. But many o our young people get set aside never having the hance to lourish. It's not a perect system and we have a long history o nepotism and riendly ties in high places. This is true o all countries because they too are made up o human beings. It's all about riends helping riends at the top. Those who beneit the most have the money to propagate and inluence the masses. It's a real hoot or them to see the divisions they create and propagate in society. Nobody cares to realize that with every passing day we are all one day closer to the very same place. This is a lesson these entitled young people rom Caliornia do not seem to grasp. They are unable to see any urther into the uture than a mirror or the relection they see on their phones or the selies they take. Then again, I suppose it is natural or an older generation to look upon the new as somewhat o a puzzle or green cloud o mental ineptitude. Many o these kids will settle down and make babies and many o them will act just as their parent's acted. Others will purposely avoid that track and go o entirely on their own to God knows what or where. No matter what these young people choose to do, it is my sincere hope that they, at the very least, say thank you to the waitress or waiter and then tip with a smile. There is nothing worse than a thankless peckerwood rom Ca. mouthing o because his eggs weren't brown on the edges.

It seems behind every instance o violence, there is alcohol or some other illicit drug making its way through town. Hardly ever is it the case that cannabis has been involved in violence o any kind. In act, in my lie experiences, I have never been with any group o stoned individuals who were involved in anything but deciding on who is going to the store or ice cream or pizza and soda pop. Anybody can go into a bar, right now, and just listen. Listen to the stories being weaved through the lips o the common boozer. I it's a group o young guys in the prime o their lives and hardons that last entire weekends, they are talking about getting with the chick right over there. By the same token, that chick is most likely looking to hook up hersel. I have been there and I know this to be true. However, people like mysel cannot let certain scenes just go away. Guys like me want the party to go on and on. But that's when reality shows itsel. Jobs are not interested in keeping your pecker wet, so to speak. Being a party guy is really only good i you can aord to do it right. That means you don't have a job, but you do have money. I have known and continue to know people who have never worked. They came rom air conditioning and personal shrinks and gol coaches. They're not bad people, they are just dierent. They have always had everything they needed. I am dierent rom them. Touche, so to speak. But as ar as violence goes, it does not matter where you came rom. When it comes to violence, you can bet alcohol is somewhere close by. In my experience, alcohol is the most dangerous drug we have and it is advertised using hal naked women. It's an absolutely recipe or disaster and we are absolutely surrounded by it, enguled with it. we are sex obsessed. How could we not be? And we all know nothing goes with sex better than booze. I could tell some stories...

There is nothing unny about being unemployed. To go along with that, try being unemployed with knowledge that you have less than two years beore total homelessness. I have a bone-dry bank account, a mother with dimentia, a ather who is losing entire days, sister and brother's who never even call... and yet through the last couple years I have managed to stay booze ree despite being around booze 24/7; it no longer controls me and hasn't or well over a decade. I am absolutely qualiied to be a case manager working with those looking to deal with alcohol/drug addiction. I have many stories, but I was lucky. Many I have known were not, including many members o my amily. I actually have a vision o a place where people can go to just get away. It's a simple place where people can again learn that it is about the simple things. It's like baseball practice. You play the undamentals until you know them... and then you play them again and again because you learn to love the process itsel. Someone once said that i you can't explain something simply, you don't know it well enough to explain it. I believe that to be true. However, I do understand that being emplyed means going with rules already in place. I am with that as well. I have been on both sides o case management. I have direct experience with good and bad case management and I have seen and elt the eects. Yet no matter how oten I apply or inquire or ollow up, I get hardly any response. I can't hardly speak to somebody ace to ace. I really believe technology can hinder human relationships and experiences.

As ar as I can tell, man has been wrestling with this duality called the battle between good and evil since the beginning. You can ind this in just about everything we hear about and see and do. We have Republican and Democrat... well, you understand. It just goes on and on. Then there are those who see and understand how the circle o good sometimes merges with the circle o evil. What occurs in that shared space cannot possibly be pure good. By the same token, what occurs in that shared space cannot be considered pure evil. It is a mix o the two. As to what percentage the mixture, that depends on a myriad o things: people, situation, money, politics, timing, societal views.
One can look back through history and see great men doing great things. However, inevitably there is always a law in these great people. This is because every great man or woman is lawed just as all mankind is lawed. So we weigh the good with the bad in every decision... or at least try to be that way, and move in accordance with what is conceivably the best or all involved. Now this could be one person, a amily, etc. But through everything we do and everything we think about, the duality o right and wrong, good or evil serves as a basis rom which we think and act or don't think and act. I one does not think beore they act, the result can be a lottery win or a car accident. Again, we have this duality presenting itsel. History through philosophy oers mankind a way to sit through what can only be called the duality o human existence. Hardly anything is more interesting than having a conversation with someone with an open mind, one that can expand and contract with obscene clarity.

I'm in my late 40's and I will be spending Christmas with my parents. My sister is moving out here next year. My brothers never talk to their parents, not even a phone call. Miscommunication and old wounds plague the amily. The brothers are aware o mom's condition, but reuse to acknowledge her presence. The way I see it, it's all on them. Years ago words were exchanged over issues revolving around money. Certain promises were uttered and then nothing happened. A lot o things have been let undone and I am araid, or them, those issues can never be resolved. They had their chance and they passed it up. I suppose that is and/or will be a heavy burden on them sommeday. Hell, maybe they eel it right now. I know I would. I made damn sure I got everything straight with them already. I have nothing let to tell my parents. We have ironed through any and all issues we could have possibly had hanging over us. I am glad I am spending Christmas with my parents. I suppose it's easy or me because I have no kids and I have never been married. I'm not tied to anything. I have given away everything I do not need. Right now, my tummy is ull and I am thankul.

Led Zeppelin - The Ocean (Official Live Video)

Garbage - Only Happy When It Rains (official music video) with lyrics

The single non corruptible man among thieves is by ar the most vulnerable o the bunch. Nothing in this world can destroy a plan more eectively than those who are unwilling to see the beneits that come rom corruption. The short-term beneits or the corrupted are always inancial in nature and oten oer some orm o security or them. But none o this can take place among these thieves so long as there is one person who cannot be compromised. The ways o business are one thing. The ways o big business that are on the border o being "shady" are such that all its participants must have something that can later be used against them. The dark orces that operate within this economic structure have been around since its inception. Human nature is such that people will use any means necessary to achieve their ends... well, some people. Those among us who have inluence also have people they answer too. This hierarchical structure has been in place or a very long time. In this world, it is the honest man who eels the brunt o inequity.

Indoctrination is something we all experience. Everybody has some orm o indoctrination they go through at a very young age. The ideologies we "inherit" rom our amilies were given to them by their amilies and so on. Most o us were brought up in amilies where we were taught to work hard or our money. We were taught that honesty is the best policy and that being a good person was its own reward. I actually believe that being a good person is, in act, its own reward. It doesn't get much play time in the conversation, but what it does do is ensure your place within a society that your word means something. Unortunately, certain personality types do not see the beneit o this type o behavior. It's unny, the older we get the easier we ind ourselves making excuses or our behavior... even when we proit rom said behavior through deception.. especially through deception. We ind ourselves saying things like, "I have to do what I have to do. It's a dark world and i you want to play the game, you will have to get dirty." We compromise ourselves in many ways just to make money. Money seems to be what we have all been indoctrinated to believe in. It seems money is the ultimate orm o indoctrination. Attaining as much o it as we can is never done using the qualities most o us were brought up to believe in.

People lie and they do it because o money and/or sel preservation. The best place to ind truth is within bits and pieces o statements given by those who were there. The ilm isn't much good except it does show a rather poor editing job. The act it was edited is really all anybody needs to know. His brains were blown out o the back o his head just a hal second ater he was hit in the back o his head. It was a hail o lead! No bolt action ww2 piece o shit can ire within a single second time rame.... and that is just that... less than one second o the entire assassination. LBJ didn't set it up, but he knew it was coming. Unortunately, darkness and evil has been ailiated with the government rom the beginning. I there is one thing age teaches someone it is that in order to move ahead in this lie, you must dance with devils and be able to unction with that knowledge.

You'll never get a straight answer rom somebody who is being paid to be that way. Money will always be the irst place anybody needs to go when dealing with those who are competing with one another by way o "things, nice things." A diamond ring becomes a cutting instrument when stranded on an island. In society, it is simply a symbol o status. It really just sits there like all, other, things.

In this world you almost have to be obsessive compulsive to maintain yoursel in what they call, "The ast lane." I watched a young woman spin hersel right out back in the 90's. The woman never stopped. She went to work, ran her dog, went out every night schmoozing perspective clients... and all the while she absolutely hated hersel. By the time she was done every day it took her a couple hours to calm down, with a buzz, every night beore bed. She couldn't have averaged more than 3 hours o sleep per day. I knew her or almost our years until one day she up and let everything behind except her dog. I ound out some time later she met some hippy dude and moved to Oregon. It's unny what meeting new people can do to someone's lie when they are deep down ready or a change o pace. Nobody could maintain the way she was rolling in lie. She would be worn out beore 40 and I think she knew that. Hell, she never had time to enjoy hersel. Sometimes people just have to say, "This is enough!" I think she did that... well.

Tom Petty- Crawling Back To You

The most respectable people I have ever heard about and known are the ones that cannot be bought. They work because they enjoy what they do and many o them work with their hands out in the ield. They put things together and repair things. They are very oten available whenever an emergency is taking place. It's hard or many o us to imagine what it would be like to enjoy what we do every day and also make a living. I ind these kinds o people to be better than average when it comes to the smart department. They all share one really helpul quality: They know what they cannot do and will not do. They know what their limitations are and they avoid rom having to take part in something that would not be natural or them... every single day. or example, I think I can sing. I sound good in the shower. But I also know that my singing sucks and would never claim to be a singer in public. or I am my own private superstar.
I understand working hard to get ahead. That's absolutely antastic i the journey is worth the sweat and tears. I the journey is worth it, you would learn to bathe in the sweat and tears. There has to be some kind o goal in mind; at least a series o small and attainable goals. But what is o the utmost importance is knowing who to talk with when certain processes get to be a little too much in one way or the other. You have got to pay attention to each person you speak with about the situation because everybody will have a solution or you or know somebody who can help. This is one way you can judge who the respectable people are in your lie. I you are steered in the direction o party a and party a turns out to be legit and on the level in their business practices (as ar as you can tell, but alsity is easy to sell), then you have received advice rom someone who could be viewed as respectable... at least so ar. The basic idea here is to seek out respectable people i people are what you need. I you ind someone you know is a simple con man selling real estate on mars and making over 100,000 a year doing it, you will have to ask yoursel," Is this something I would do or money?" And the answer to that question is no.

When you watch television these days, you can get everything rom dancing to singing to sitcoms that make you laugh all the way through to crime drama. What occurs inbetween this programming is the news where at any time breaking stories can appear on the screen and overwhelm us all with, or example, the shooting in Vegas. I live out in the desert and was watching something on you tube when something came across the television behind me. The shots were happening and the people were just standing there. I could hear the bullets bouncing o the concrete. Ater a ew moments, people began to move out. I don't remember anything else about that night other than that story. So, it's back to dancing and singing and laughing at sitcoms. With the occasional reality break, television guides us through the world o iction so that we may be entertained and not bored. It's unny, when the electricity goes out the irst thing people say is, "I'm bored." No, you are boring and tuned into something that has taken and is taking your imagination away and decorating what is let with manuactured realities mixed with tragedies in reality.

I know everything is done on the phone now, but I am inding it diicult in getting one. I had one or a while, but I never really used it much. When the phone did ring, it was always somebody wanting me to pay or something else. I swear it seemed there were people who had my inormation and were trying to get me to release it to them. This is unny to me because I have absolutely nothing. What I do have is replaceable and thereore no great loss. I used to cherish things. I used to hold things in high regard. I always used to measure people by the quality o the things they had. And then I got older, about 19. That is about the year I began to recognize the posers rom the real people in my town. Like most towns, many inluential amilies played gol or had kids who played gol. I did not come rom an inluential amily. I came rom the working class. I you want doors to close or you early in lie, make a name or yoursel in your town beating the hildren o inluential amilies at their own game. You realize that not every smile and handshake is given to you by a riend. All that crap aside, why should I have to pay x amount every month to use a computer... and then it hit me... it's all connected and everybody pays. So, I guess I will cease looking or a keyboard and just get oline completely here pretty quick. I mean, my identity has been ripped o I think twice so ar, so it's kind o hard or me to take everything too seriously at this point in time. The only thing I know is that back in the 70's us kids in the neighborhood played outside until the street lights came on. And by play I mean we were playing hoops, hide a go seek using the whole neighborhood... backyards included, tag, ootball, racing bikes, the lot. Neighborhoods are not like that anymore and kids are getting phones at age 5. 

The most popular people in pop culture today are going to age just like us all. They will age out o the limelight they sold so much o themselves to stay in. The process o popularity is one that dies with the public that worshiped them. During the process, these people were unded by a spellbound population needing to be entertained; we all need to be entertained. The lives o the everyday olks pale in comparison to the stars we make out o some people. But one wonders...
I have never wanted to be a amous star. I never saw how there could be any advantage to being one who is looked upon as a vessel o creative/cosmic musings and then thrust upon a beacon to be worshiped at every turn. I remember seeing stars when I was a kid. I ound them all to be short and relatively skinny people who were only smiling when a camera was on them. The more wanders around in the world o psychology, the more one can see certain movements in people that show their various moods. In a deeper sense, one can see how people see their world i one looks long enough at the right things. The point being that there always seems to be an ingredient missing in the recipe or success. That ingredient is happiness... a word not so easily deined.
rom an early age we are told what will make us happy. Go to school, get a part-time job. Date a ew girls in college and then pick one. Have a amily and work hard to save or retirement. Pay o the house and travel in your new RV. Pay cash or your inal home by the water. It sure sounds great! And all along the way you have a happy marriage with no problems and the kids are always respectul and courteous. I mean, it's easy to see how this kind o scenario is not so easily attainable. Many olks will never come close to this type o happiness. Many kids will never develop the mindset necessary to be anything other than what they are. And i what they are is someone who has less than somebody else who he thinks must be happier than him, they can go in a ew dierent ways. They can use what they see in that guy with all the stu and work hard to be like him or they can steal and take shortcuts to acquire stu. Some people are quite happy when they are breaking the law and stealing rom other people. This is why happiness is diicult to deine. or an addict, happiness could be his irst year clean. It could be when an adult learns to read. One thing is or sure, whatever kind o happiness you desire, it must never include hurting anybody or anything. To gain happiness rom such things is just evil. The bottom line is no matter who or what we are or think we are in other people's eyes, we are all mere mortals in possession o a body and a spirit. Happiness, true happiness makes the spirit glow. One o the rare and predictable times you can see a spirit glow is when a woman learns o her pregnancy. The glow o her skin happens because o the glow o her spirit that is burning bright inside her.

Genesis - Abacab

Very oten what is hidden between the words comes out to those who know how to read them. It happens on a level on which they are unamiliar and thereor are unable to acknowledge.