Wednesday, October 31, 2018
There is no question that there are some people in this world who are dying, just dying to screw you out of something, anything. These people will take everything they can from you and they will do it while acting through what they call "friendship." These people are leeches who steal away your life blood. Very often they are of the opposite sex and use the act of physical love to make their ends meet. However, friends often do the most damage and will very often be the first ones to throw you under whatever bus they can find. There is nothing easy in this life and very often it is the people that surround us, the one's we thought cared about us, who do the most damage. All things considered, no matter who we surround ourselves with, no matter who we claim to love and no matter who claims to love us... it is ourselves we must love first. This cannot be done through the use of another person as a means to that end. Once we individually figure out how to treat ourselves with the things that bring us calm and/or joy we can move forward while making clearer decisions about those we choose to surround ourselves with and those we choose to leave alone.
Tuesday, October 30, 2018
Doing Well
If you can do many things well, friends you will have. If you focus on doing one thing really well, the friends you have will shape your future. In the end, once you cash in your chips, you will be damn lucky if you have one good friend. Through it all, the journey is the reason for the season. Reaching goals are nice. I quit college at 20 and didn't go back till I was 37. When I was finished I had 2 Master's, one Bachelor, and two AA's. The fact that I am broke and in huge debt does not bother me as I have always been broke. Hell, if I had money I would share it anyways so...
Monday, October 29, 2018
I am Awake
I was alone one night. It was the weekend, but I had no money. I tried to think of something fun I could do without having to pay money to do it. So I robbed a gas station and flew to Vegas, got two hookers and an 8 ball and partied until the police picked me up for robbery. lol, just kidding....
I thought and though about it and I came to realize that my fun, since I grew up so to speak, has been economically based. This means I have been used to paying money for things like going to the movies, going bowling, playing a round of golf, having lunch and dinner during those days... and it all costs money. And then it hit me. Reading! That was the answer for me. I walked to the library and found one book I have always wanted to read. When I was young, I read a lot in the evenings. I realized that I had forgotten that which brings me peace, quiet, and joy all at the same time for the low, low price of nothing. I am awake today...
I thought and though about it and I came to realize that my fun, since I grew up so to speak, has been economically based. This means I have been used to paying money for things like going to the movies, going bowling, playing a round of golf, having lunch and dinner during those days... and it all costs money. And then it hit me. Reading! That was the answer for me. I walked to the library and found one book I have always wanted to read. When I was young, I read a lot in the evenings. I realized that I had forgotten that which brings me peace, quiet, and joy all at the same time for the low, low price of nothing. I am awake today...
Friday, October 26, 2018
Daily poet
The poetry of the day can move in every direction separately or all at once together. But at the end of the day, the ending always brings you back around to the comfort and anticipation that exists at the beginning. Being able to make a poem from your day can only bring you a different take, a different way in which to approach how your day progresses. And you can always know and look forward to the end of your day, the end of your poem where you get the opportunity to put on some music that really moves you just the way you want to be moved... at that time, at the end of your poem... your poetry of the day.
Learning
I can't help but feel like something is about to happen in the near future. Things are getting politically sticky and every time that happens some skirmish develops somewhere requiring a military intervention. I swear there is nothing more dirty, more dark, or more evil than political operatives doing the bidding of their money masters and manipulators. I mean, it's like a spy novel... it has to be. The only thing I know is that I am on the side of The Constitution and have total respect for all military personnel. They fight for The Constitution. I only hope whatever happens does not happen here. I do not think we can handle it right now. The propaganda is too strong... so strong it can actually light off something unthinkable, a civil war. I can only hope that one day we can all look back and learn... learn.
Wednesday, October 24, 2018
A whole new market can be created inside the mind of a man. By Market I mean an avenue upon which to develop streams of revenue. But this revenue is the kind that exists within the mind. The more of it you have, the more peace and satisfaction you feel as a human being who is alive today. For some people, it takes a lot of work because they believe it takes a lot of work. This is absolutely fine. But the process itself must be created and maintained by the individual. There is no charge for making the effort and there can never be any more apologies. You just go about the business of developing the best of you while at the same time treating people with common courtesy and no pretenses. A whole new market can definitely be created (as well as some pretty cool friendships) and the currency has real and lasting weight behind it.
Witch language is found everywhere from children's books to top shelf music. It is what it is and it invites... the ghosts within to come out and play for a while. It scared people back in the day, but we've all grown up since then. One thing I've learned is you better make friends with the demon(s) you have inside or they will make your days and nights a float down the river of alcohol with one big fucking straw.
Tuesday, October 23, 2018
Monday, October 22, 2018
I can't stand before somebody and tell them their religion is wrong just because it is different than what I believe. That would make me an imbecile. I also cannot disbelieve in the possibility that this entire life is nothing more than a snap of the cosmic fingers of some greater being with one hell of a sense of humor.
Sunday, October 21, 2018
We are all different human beings floating in an oval at about 17,000 miles per hour around an insignificant star that keeps us alive. There is nothing around us for millions of miles. We have approximately 75 years to play before they bury us in the ground... and we will be in the ground floating at about 17,000 miles per hour around an insignificant star that keeps us alive.
I remember in philosophy class the teacher speaking about the importance of being authentic. It was a great lecture. The problem I had was a simple one: what if ones authentic self is that of complication and overvaluation? Her response was, "Become a psychologist." The thing with that is each and every shrink I have ever met was also a patient. This is because it is impossible for someone to earn a living listening to people and their personal problems without having the totality of them all play a role in the therapists personal wilderness.
Saturday, October 20, 2018
Thursday, October 18, 2018
Wednesday, October 17, 2018
Give yourself one night a week where you can calm yourself down in a sea of peace and quiet with The Doors playing softly in the background... just a couple candles lit... everything else off. Nobody else is home so you should take your clothes off and stare into the void and write down what it is you see there. It takes time and practice, but when you find the spot, your spot... your go to place, you will recognize that you are one of the few people who dare to explore the deepest parts of you and the world around you. You will eventually realize that you are indeed... a spirit. That is the very, very short of it.
Tuesday, October 16, 2018
Monday, October 15, 2018
What is meaningful at the age of 20 may not be so meaningful at the age of 30. What means something at 30 may not mean the same thing at 40... and so on. When you are young, you don't think about these things. I did... and I have seen and felt these things to be true. Some say being alone means you miss something in life. You miss raising a family, being married (or not), looking forward to being retired and so on and so forth. I suppose if those things were important to me and I never got to experience them, then yes, I would miss them personally. But since I never ever wanted those things in life, it is impossible for me to miss them. I am a watcher, a witness with a closed mouth to all the words and deeds people use and do.
When I was younger, I would listen to folks talk as if they had the world by the balls and everything belonged to them. Every country-club I went to was full of people who talked just like that and more. Many of them are dead now... laying in the ground. It's the place we are all destined for... it's the place from which nobody can escape. Being humble, being kind and showing love is all we have to represent the light we were all given at birth.
I watched as a blank, dark channel suddenly changed into something called MTV. From that moment, everything in the social world changed. From a Sociological perspective, one could make a good living writing about all the bridges between video music and say... the political or religious world. I mean to tell you one could make a damn fine living talking about that day forward. The first video played was by Buggles and it was called "Video Killed the Radio Star."
The parks were always full in the seventies. You had your rocker dudes and chicks burning weed in the back crankin zep. You had the sporto's playing ball at the diamond. You had the swimmers staying cool and prepared for the coming season. You had the hoopsters playin ball on the courts. The musicians were always somewhere out in the field in a circle playin. You could always find people gathered at the various lakes and waterways fishin and swimmin. There was always somethin goin on...
It's easy to look upon a man's work and call it ludicrous. It's just about the easiest thing to do. Being a critic of someone is just the human element coming out where there is no understanding. Often times, in the instance of reading a book or going deep in the analysis of someone's painting, it takes two or three good go-over's before any understanding can be had. Once understood, the reader or looker may not like what they read or see. But at the very least he or she will understand why they don't like it... and maybe sometime down the road their understandings may differ in some strange way to make them read it again or take one more good, long gander at that wavy landscape.
Saturday, October 13, 2018
Friday, October 12, 2018
Thursday, October 11, 2018
Sometimes, it is the case that an idea or thought... remain an idea or thought. We often hear that ideas can lead to great things... and this is true. Nike began as an idea. However, certain ideas and thoughts can actually do more harm than good when it comes to the everyday. By holding the idea or thought and then comparing it in its very best light against the everyday, it can make the everyday seem like a real drag. That is where gray hair stems from...
I find myself getting down on things... for no real reason. It's been this way for as long as I can remember. There were many times when I was in my 20's where I had to be talked into having a good time. I mean, I had to be convinced. I then graduated to rolling the dice, so to speak. By that I mean I quit caring about what might happen and just went out and did whatever. There were nights I wound up in a cabin up in the hills. There were nights I woke up in another state... both mind and body. I lost my car more than once and I ran through enough drunk women to last a lifetime. I once sat in a room, a motel room with two chicks I did not know. They were so strung out on coke and crank, so strung out on booze and sex that neither one of them could talk. I knew then that I was spending time with the wrong crowd. I have no regrets about those times because no matter how much fun I was having, I never destroyed anything or hurt anybody. One could say I hurt myself and those closest to me. But I suspect things have changed since that time. I have no regrets as I can spot trouble long before it spots me.
Sunday, October 7, 2018
Stars in the Sky
A star is only a star within their own human generation. But the stars in the sky last for all generations. The stars in the sky serve as the foundation for the religion you believe in... right now. What was once unknown is now known as it goes back further than even Egypt. Earthly power once controlled time. We now live by time set by earthly power. Our time is based in the sky. Our history is a history contained within the sky. We are the sky...we are the stars in the sky.
My Favorite Darkness
My favorite darkness is when I can feel comfortably sorry for myself. It's my go-to play in the playbook. I run that play and the pieces all fall into the same predictable positions. From these positions certain pieces can be moved to immediate and favorable spaces. But as the game progresses, players change and circumstances change making certain moves less favorable when seen from a higher, more reasonable perspective. I then remember my place upon the universal game-board and I find there is functioning light operating unevenly within my favorite darkness.
Friday, October 5, 2018
Wednesday, October 3, 2018
Tuesday, October 2, 2018
In our country, over a dozen kids will kill themselves today. They will do this for many reasons. Today, more than a dozen adults will kill themselves in our country. They too will do this for various reasons. Nobody needs to see or understand their reasons. Maybe nobody can understand their reasons. Maybe there wasn't enough money for anybody to understand.
Thus far, the best choice I have made in life is to not have children. This is without question the best decision I have ever made. Even when I was a kid, I knew I did not want kids. Maybe it's because I was such a shit growing up. I had a girlfriend in my early 20's and she would have liked nothing more than to be a mother. And here I am, "be a mother?" Needless to say, we didn't last much longer after that time. I could have made all my mistakes in my early 20's... and I did by drinking them to the max. But never once during that time did I impregnate any woman, receive any disease, or hurt any body else. I only hurt myself and those closest to me. I was running from myself. Turns out, I was running away from something that I would have to live with everyday... for the rest of my life. They call it depression and I can think of a few other words to use in its place.
I am becoming less and less interested in the day to day of my life. I am only seeing the negative. I am only hearing the negative. I suspect my friends are no friends at all... just users looking to make things easier for themselves. I watch television and the programming is the same. The news-media is all commentary and political. I see people with their phones, but no people with people. I am seeing connected-ness, but at the same time a serious disconnect. I am seeing too much me and not enough of everything else. What is normal today would be considered abnormal not more than 20 years ago.
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