easy in, easy out, how American

In the light of day free from the evening shadows there is confusion and pain. The shadows are nowhere except inside the mind and this is all that is known. All comparisons are made against the pain from the past and from the dark places known so well. There was too much feeling and in youth there was confusion, shyness, and an overall lack of confidence. Being alone, he thought time would solve the problem. Insodoing the boy developed a healthy imagination that later became an obsession. When does patterned obsessive behavior become measurable? Does the internet promote and produce great separation in people? Does the internet make us all some of the greatest self loving people on Earth? Why is there a direct association between low self esteem and high levels of interent chatting? The answer to the last question is because people need easy and the internet allows easy access to an ideal type that gives false hope to fiction and desire that can never be measured in real life. Easy in and easy out, just like life. It is through this foundation that the social world will, because of the transition we are in, devour all concepts of normalcy challenging all past concepts of what a relationship should and should not be. Our screen self separates us from our true self. Just as there is no room in reality for truth, there is also no room in space for truth. There is now and will always be, just actors acting with no feeling all behaving in the expected way. 98.2

people/sad people

I see the people playing like they did when they were kids. I see the people mingling together trying out new lines with new people. I see the excitement they feel inside when they meet that someone new. Their dreams soar with optimistic points of view with endless possibilities. The rides to the airport, the symbolic gestures, the open displays of affection unacceptable in some cultures, and the little giggles that always accompany the fanaticism of meeting someone new serve to show our eternal optimistic nature that somehow becomes clouded in the eventual let down that humans always bring to the table showing just how truely clueless they really are. Everyone wants the dream and nobody is willing to human-up and fight for it. It is always easier to simply leave behind the human in you and replace that with the same emptiness you possess as a result of choices you have made. This is why there are many drugs available so weak minded individuals can make excuses for their limits and confusions. Just give up and be weak, everyone else does. There is no room in reality for anything but manufactured thoughts layed down many years before. There is safety there. There is safety in acting. There just ain't no truth in it. People are scared of the truth and they are scared of being alone and they will say or do anything to avoid that lonliness. These are the desperates who will never find resolution except in the achievement of old age accompanied by bitterness and anxieties. This is how they lived in the old days. We have enough sadness in the world and desperation seems to create sadness. Too bad people are unable to see that. Too bad people will never know what they seek because what they seek cannot be acquired by mere words.
I knew a woman years ago who fell for a man. We were friends and we got along like, well, you know. Anyway, she met this strapping young lad who said the right things to her sexless body. I told her what he wanted and she was not hearing it. She was in love with this man. Inside the first year of their bliss the man threw her down a flight of stairs. She covered and saved face but I could see her inside. The lonliness and desperation she felt disturbed me. She was trapped and would rather save face than leave the man she loved. A desperate act to be sure. In reality, she always had bad self esteem and she would never listen to the things I told her because she did not know how to handle the truth. The truth was she was special but she needed more than she thought she needed. It was more important for her to live the lie, live the image, than it was to be truely happy. And hey, love makes liars out of everyone.

the least

The framework we apply to the life senses are derived from our heritage and upbringing. We frame ourselves in comparison to those closest to us. It is in this way we develop similar attitudes and belief systems regardless of the success or failure of what was seen during those critical childhood years. Any deviation from that framework; developed over many years of thought and action, presents issues with all future endeavors because of the negative shift of the frame which is where the original draft came from and what we are socialized to believe. This is a good thing for some people, and really, we all do this to some extent. Some of us just prefer not to act like something. Experience teaches some that acting is for people who have a need to feel as opposed to having the ability to feel.
Some of us would rather have a wide angle lens with options baby!

lack

The price for happiness will and can never be measured by the dollar. The experiences we share though sometimes unaware, serve to form an inner foundation of self that binds together different aspects and perspectives inside from multiple partnerships developed over years and years of socialization and inner battles from competing entities. The cost of happiness is alienation because for some people, life has far to many ups and far too many downs and as a result, there is never a consistent pattern with any foundation at all in anything real and true. Maybe we are all better off in the virtual world because in the virtual world we can shut down like a system, a product, which is what we are a part of. In that sense, there is no freedom. 98.2

evolution, the life occurance and flow

By design we come to the breaking point, the crossroads, the place where decisions need to be made at the time. Unfortunately we are unaware of these decisions as they occur; and much has been written on this. The idea of being aware, or becoming aware of these intersections while they are happening, is also of interest by many. Making seemingly rational choices at certain times may indeed be nothing more than a cyclical ride on the bullshit train which again is inherently human. So then what?
We become aware of our short-comings and find ways to navigate through them by altering our decision making processes thinking we are being smart when in actuality we are obstructing the natural flow of our lives. Insodoing, we become products of the decision making process that has a foundation in pure acting and not of the self as a system of interrelated responses to life occurrances in flow.

marked by sprinkles

I took a class a long time ago that emphasized a person should only write about what they know. To prove a point the instructor asked us to write one page about how we think we will be in 20 years and why. The instructor then remarked that the chances were very good that what we write on that page will be the polar opposite of what we will be in 20 years. She went on to say that there are great differences in ideals and realities.
The only thing I knew about reality was how my parents rarely spoke to one another unless they happened to be in the same place at the same time. Their schedules were very different and only when the occasional weekend trip was postponed did the folks actually have fun together. On these occasions they had the forsight to plan to have the neighbors over for some food and beverage. This was the fun time in our lives and to this day I have yet to see any family match the childhood I had and for that I am the luckiest man on the planet.
Today we have issues that are wide in scope and consequential now for the young people in the future. That is a hard pill to swallow and we all need to be consciously making an effort to unite in some capacity to assist one another in these times of crisis. The rederick is misleading and self serving to the select few. This is fine so long as the entire population is not completely off balance and searching at the same time.
There is a thin tether keeping us afloat as opposed to and firm yet comfortable wrap keeping our entire population developing and constantantly striving for the perpetuation and development of spirited debates over ideas about the issues that confront us as a people and us and individuals able to compete in a free market based in a diversity reflective of our current population. This is what America is all about and this is something we need not be reminded of. The memories of the fallen ones remind us of what it means to have the courage of conviction in the perpetuation of the very ideas I spoke of earlier. This is nothing new, we just need to apply it!
Write about what you know and what you believe I say. Write about everything in every way. Expect nothing and for that you will remain convinced that what you are writing about is meaningful and from that place, every now and again, passion leaks through and other people will get to see what you see and appreciate that. I enjoyed that class because we learned not to make adjustments. Take the mistakes and let them fly because if they were meant to become yours, the mistakes will always return dressed in different skivies. lol 98.2

virtual schisms and the non-productive force

The decline of humankind is extensive as we tour the virtual world in its infancy. Our decline began with the advent of the information super-highway, but as we see now that information can be suspect as anyone with a mouth can post anything they see fit and call it reality. I suppose this is a good thing because it allows us to see and hear different perspectives coming from different life forms that exist predominately on the inside. The highway allows us to be real in the virtual sense; more involved than we might otherwise be. But how involved can we be virtually?