love

My love is a mile wide for the one who should never inspire my desire, but should make me think and feel in new and interesting ways from which to draw from the well. Sometimes when I dip the cup in, I want to do so on my foot-tips and lean in so my arm gets wet. I like to feel the cool water beads flow steadily down my arm through my palm and back into the well again. Sometimes I like to bring my wet hand up to my face and wipe it clean. Then sometimes, if there is a breeze, I like to let it come across my face so I can feel the chilling exhileration of breathe, of love, and of life.

think with your mind

The politician cannot benefit the many because he/she relies on parts of the few and the few cannot maintain their status without becoming involved in the privacy of public affairs through the creation and maintenance of ways and means necessary for the process to move in the first place. 98.2

very nice

At the end of a particularly long day, I want to go into a quiet room with a really big ceiling fan. I want to lay down quietly skating down that steep slope in San Diego at the park across the street. Man that shit was fun. Just the sound and feel through my feet; the falling on my ass or banging my face on the cold concrete leaving blood trails and pieces of teeth. Those are the kind of dreams that make me feel complete. 98.2

Darby and Judo

You know, it would be a terrific world if we all believed in the same thing(s). It would be a wonderous place if everyone could have jobs they enjoyed, or no jobs at all and just kick back on our fat asses and open the mail and have checks made out to us just for being the fabulous, idealistic and right people we all are. However, as much as we would all like this to happen; while saying out loud how much we value our work and how we couldn't even think of quitting our jobs; bullshitting everyone including ourselves, it rarely does without screwing it up over some chick. Anyway, we all know these things only happen to entertainers, politicians, and Darby the oat boy from Oildale California.
It would just be so much fun if we could wake up at noon each day and have our only real isuue, our only pressure packed event of each day, be a trip to the back porch where we can sit down in our most comfortable chair, smoke a rather large piece of heaven, and try and figure out whether we should watch Matlock reruns, Colombo reruns, The Godfather in Dolby surround sound, or just say to Hell with it and call up a few friends and have a ping-pong tournament followed by two full days of golf and drinking and sex with women between the ages of 37 and 45. You see, by that time we all pretty much know and fully understand how to make our partners happy while receiving the same kind of love and affection in kind; not for any other reason but for the fact that our partner feel exactly the same way as we do. But these things are not always possible. I ask why? Why can't these things be possible for you (me, everybody)? There are people in this world who live this way. There are people in this world who do that shit every day. Las Vegas-there is no other place in the world like it! Everyplace else has its points. And hey, Vegas is a city and well, I can honestly say that Vegas is the only place on Earth where I have been Held up at gun point by a fucking cab driver. So I guess I just have a soft spot in my heart for the place. Anyway, Few destinations and places to pitch a tent have the potential to live the lifestyle of an over-rated actor, a politician ( not much more needs to be tacked on here!), or Judo the dancing poodle from Scotsdale. There is hope. There is a way to wake each day and say," Hmm, where the Hell, what the, ah screw it, I guess Ill just go play some golf. After all, last night was a good night and I had so much fun, I think ill just go ahead and do that shit again tonight after my round and following my nap." I say, MAKE THAT SHIT HAPPEN!

the loaded brush

Let me hand you a pamphlet and let us show you the way. We will come together in some fashion and find a place for you in the world; our world. Understand this is not temporary but is a necessary first step in making room for you to express your ideas and prosper. Under our guidance you will flourish freely as new worlds open up to you. Through us you will find the meaning of freedom.

rarely do we

Our moods change. Sometimes we have a thought or idea that comes in our minds and is quickly dashed by what must occur before. We weigh ourselves down with what we perceive and usually what we perceive is incorrect. But this does not matter because abandoning our comfortability would mean having to deal with the unknown. You see, we know what we are now and rarely is the case when we explore what we can be. Our moods change, but rarely do we.

our way

Today is a new day for discovery and I am not at all excited about it. I have found myself believing that all people, all of us, are self centered no good bastards with pill problems, booze problems, job problems, relationship problems, confidence problems, financial problems, drug problems, lying problems, fooling ourselves problems, anger and frustration problems, family problems, social problems, and just bs problems with everything life has to give. That is the bad side.
The good side is we have choices. We can abandon our problems by cutting the search back a bit and understand that we are all temporary on the big timeline. In less than a year your problems will most likely be the same as they are now; not unlike mine. So, what have we solved here? Well, we have all agreed that we are messed up and in need, always in need we are. The easiest thing in the world to do is locate the issues. Hell, that's what they have scholars for. Once we enter the world we become a part of the issue by acting the way we do, and thinking the way we think.