I think we humans begin the construction of our "walls" early in life... say around the 3rd grade or so. Why is this? It is for protection against the "what is mine is mine and what is yours is also mine mentality." We begin early construction of these walls not only for protection, but also for our need to fit in with the crowd. As we age we identify with certain groups. We talk and dress like everyone else in the group. Once we reach adulthood, our armor changes from jeans and a tee shirt to a suit and tie. But those walls are stronger and more complicated than ever.

I think from the beginning we all want to be accepted. Being accepted fulfills the idea of self worth and friendship. Being accepted brings forth a feeling of comfort where desires can be met and the forces of the world can work in your favor. But the fact is that there are many people acting like they are being friendly even when they are not. This can damage you when they figure out that your friends have been lying about you behind your back and to your face. This is not being accepted. This is being ridiculed for whatever reason. Being accepted is not as important as we think it to be. People are going to do what they do and say what they say regardless of whether or not they accept you as the person you are. To go along with that, there is jealousy. You can always count on jealousy to be an intrigal part of not being accepted.

I'm watching the news and the only things that are on are guns, murder, and politics. The news is all bad. But we have no choices. If we want to "stay informed" we have to watch or read some form of news. I wonder how much money is made from the news? That's what it's all about, money and money only. But what does the news do to affect someone's world-view? The news could be "a" breaking point in the life of someone who is teetering on the breaking point.

All of our assets, everything we have owned and known in our entire lives stays right here as an imprint only of what once was. We can't even take our credit score with us. We are talking about an average of 75 years versus an eternal life. where is your money? I often hear people say these kinds of things and they may have a point. But I believe their reasoning, in cases such as this one, is false. That said, a belief in a higher being is legal. It is the reason many of us wake up in the morning and put in a hard days work. I see nothing wrong with believing in a "god," but there is a problem when that belief system is shoved down people's throat over and over again. 

One of the easiest things in this world to do is to sit on the sidelines while other people play, for example, on television or in the movies. I mean, these people are living out Earthly dreams and desires. In our eyes it is all one big movie and they are the stars of the show. It is almost as if we, as a whole, are sitting on the sidelines in our own lives knowing full well that we can improve in many ways.

We sometimes get injured during our lives. I'm not talking about physical injury. I am talking about the kind of injuries that occur within the mind. Maybe it steals your confidence or makes you feel bad about yourself. These are healable wounds. In time these kinds of wounds do heal, but they leave a mark on the inside and serve as reminders that it is possible to be injured. This is part of the human experience.

I find myself repeating myself every day. I am beginning to get myself into my own way. I am thinking too much and acting too little. But I feel that in order for me to be successful I would have to act. I hate acting. I feel comfortable alone. At the same time, I miss a lot of beautiful things. But each day I get a spectacular sunset.