I was sexually abused by two girls once at a party. Did anybody listen to my story? No! I was lead into a hotel room by two adult males when I was a kid. I got lucky and said my mother was waiting or me at home and she knew I was at The Roadway. Nobody listened. The vibe was a dark one. Male or emale, the world has darkness in it. Within this darkness is what can only be called mass manipulation. The stories that really matter nobody hears about. Some will say,"You eat the meat and unwrap the presents while we slaughter the pigs and cows you put sauce on." To a large degree, this is true. But in the last analysis, in order or there to be such a place as this where there are people living ruitul, yet largely in debted lives... where paper thin television screens can now be slapped on the wall like old wall paper, there has got to be a high level o cluelessness that cannot be readily identiied by those who are most aected. To see it rom within is a diicult task. But there are many rom outside who can see what has to happen on the inside because it has happened in their countries to their people and their amilies. They understand how propaganda works and how it aects entire generations o people. It's like this: You want crime to go away? You want prisons, just not in your neighborhood? You want everybody to pull their own weight and be like you? Really? You want everyone to be just like you? You care that much? And you care enough to convert them to your religion? Well shit man, what would that do to the prison population? What would that do to drug addiction and the making o unwanted babies? Less cops, less nurses, less doctors and therapists needed. Less prison guards and less prisons being built which means less money being exchanged. What would that do to the economy? More God, less crime which means less need or home protection. What would that do to the gun manuacturing industry? Let's not kid ourselves into wanting things to be like this or that because no matter which way it goes the realities o lie are created as such that everybody gets paid all along the way. Nothing in this world is ree. As ar as being used sexually or getting lucky one night when it was plausible that I be raped or killed, I know about those eelings and have had to stew on what these realities must be like or other olks with much more severe outcomes. Intended or not is not the point, but spells are being cast on all those who care to know. People are making money keeping us away rom ourselves.

The more I delve into the history o things, the more I am disappointed. Not only is the day being controlled, but yesterday is also being controlled. This does not say much or the uture o things. With that in mind, the common attitude is, "there is nothing that can be done. Worry about yoursel." I am araid one day a child will wake up and have to get chipped, vaccinated, and indoctrinated into a liestyle that is security based. Now, what can come rom this besides the absolute loss o reedoms? I heard today that the CC is going to mess around with our internet experience. One day I swear a child is going to wake up and have to get clearance just to leave the state. One day it will not be possible to cross into another state without having to go through a complete background check. I am araid Thomas Jeerson was correct. Once we let the banks take over, it is only a matter o time beore there is no nation and there are no reedoms. We have never had a democracy, only a Republic. And right now it has turned into a government controlled by corporations. That my riends is called ascism and/or an oligarchy. So when someone says, "What can we do about it?" just tell them that i they don't know, well, there you have it! Keep watching that television and one day you will realize that you were being lied too the whole time and the boys on top screwed you... well.

When I was a kid, it was vitally important or me to wind up with only three keys when I was older. I needed one key or my room, one key or my ride, and one key I just have because it went to a lock I once had. To me, that was an important goal. The meaning behind it was a simple one: To keep lie simple and without drama. I think the irst ork in the road came when I was 20 and met Cindy. It would have been easy or me to hook into a lielong job, marry the whore, have kids, and then get a divorce and lose the house I never really owned, the car I never really drove, and the kids I never really saw because I was working all the time (My ather worked all the time, but he made time or me when he could). I had that chance. I know that road because I have seen people go down that road and "act" happy. Some o them ind Jesus as a way to cope with their utter misery. Others use drugs or booze or eat or watch too much television to get through the day or weekend or whatever. And hey, who would I be to say they're wrong in doing so? That's what we do here: we spend more on our drugs and tobacco than we do on teachers and education. Getting back to the point here. I am middle aged now and I only have two keys and in the next two to ive years will be selling what little I have. I will then only have one key. I suspect my plans will not go as planned, but I plan on taking to the road or a while. I think I need to see my country and talk to her people. And I cannot do that i I have too many keys.

It takes real courage or a man to reveal himsel to another person... or the world or that matter. It means he has to give up all the tools he's been using to build those walls he has inside and exchange them or a good pair o shoes. I think maybe some people try too hard to tear down the walls they've constructed as opposed to just walking away.... into a more open space... a more open time.

Tom Petty- Crawling Back To You

The Rover

Jethro Tull - Locomotive Breath