Genesis - Abacab

Very oten what is hidden between the words comes out to those who know how to read them. It happens on a level on which they are unamiliar and thereor are unable to acknowledge.

The Psychedelic Furs - Love My Way

The old man heard rom a riend back in 1937 that Rolex was the watch to have and he should get one. At that time, the old man was a young whipper-snapper looking to make a ew bucks. He was a hustler, a pool hustler who moved rom town to town being young and getting into ights. Without thinking very much about it, when he ound himsel ahead, he would buy himsel a watch. He didn't tell anybody, he just bought a Rolex watch and then then put it in a box, wrapped and everything. He knew what time it was, it was time to make money. Ater the war, the old man ound himsel in the insurance business and he also had part ownership in a urniture store. Over time, he began collecting much more than Rolex watches. His success alone in the insurance business aorded him plentry o peoperty or storage. He had two tractors, a ield o corn... along with all kinds o other vegetables. I think he retired when he was in his late 50's or something like that. Everybody liked the old man. He always lew the lag out in ront o his porch. I'm not sure anybody in the neighborhood knew the man served in World War 2. But I knew. I also knew that he was never alone. The old man always had people around him. I don't think he had a amily  his own, but he did have a amily member or two live with him over the years. I think maybe they came by to check on him because he never really talked very much to anybody. I mean, nobody knew a thing about the old man. Interestingly, one night I was watching the news. A local man was outside his driveway handing over various items he has collected over the years. He had been there or hours. I guess ater some time, somebody called the news station and told them there was a guy giving away treasure rom his driveway. I looked at the screen and it was the old man. I immediately ran over to my riends house and we went to the old mans driveway. Turns out, he had been there all aternoon just giving away things he's collected over the years to anybody who came by. The news got there just in time to watch him open the last box that was behind him. It was a good size box and very well sealed. The old man ripped open the box with some box cutters and grabbed the irst item on top. With a smile he looked at me and handed me the item. It was a Rolex Sea dweller 1665 Double Red-Mark 1V. I to this day know nothing about watches and I don't think the old man knew either. The only reason I knew what kind o watch it was was because that is what it said on the box. The old man never opened it. I made the news cut that out. But they continued ilming the old man until he handed over every watch in the box... all o them Rolex watches. Turns out, that old man had been collecting every Rolex watch made between 1955 and 1989. He had been giving them away or years. When asked at the end o the day why he gave it all away, the old man said, "I collected these things or a long time and got enjoyment rom each and every minute. I never got married, never had kids, and since I am on my way out, it made sense to me or people to beneit in some small way rom the joy I received in attaining it all. Anyways, where I'm going, none o it does me much good."

My love is alive (Gary Wright ) original version

Maybe it's the natural inclination o man to take advantage o his ellow man until that advantage can no longer be exploited. This o course comes at the price o the ellow man and his riendship. One could say that such a relationship has never been built on mutual respect and riendship, thereor no riendship can be lost. I suppose this is true i everything was cut and dry. But things only get cut and dry when one party becomes ed up with what can only be called a "onesided relationship." There has to come a point where the one who is being used simply wises up and abandons his/her eorts at doing the right thing. How can you do the right thing and accomplish what is right? Well, in the short term, there is pain. There is the adjustment o not seeing said person everyday o the week or weeks, months, and years on end while constantly doing their bidding, so to speak. In that time, they could have learned what they can and cannot do or themselves without anybody else's ucking money, smokes, booze, drugs, couch, car, gas, etc... in exchange or what? The privilege o being their slave? Don't get me wrong, i the person who is so called "using" is one who has physical or mental issues, well that is dierent. They are not aware or they do not allow themselves to think ar enough ahead o the pssible consequences or wanting things done or them all the time. And yes, experience tells me that some people take advantage o their diagnosis. There are tricks and treats mankind plays on himsel and other people. Maybe it is the normal inclination o mankind to take advantage o his ellow man because it sure happens enough in this world.

I have been having cyclical, negative thought or the last our days. I've had very little sleep and the pain in my mouth is such that eating anything but soup is a chore. The pain will pass. That's not what's keeping me up. This whole thing started when I decided to place mysel in lie-long debt and get a degree or two. It was a mistake. I just wanted to inish what I started years beore. I went too ar in subjects that have no real applications in society unless you write about society using sociologically sponsored PhD's who all reuse to place their name anywhere but on top. I stay away rom PhD people. Nobody should know how to do research that well, learn the truth, and then pay no attention to that truth. I don't even know i there's a word or that. Besides that, it seems the higher up the ladder one climbs, the less and less time there is to live... a lie. On top o the reality that lie brings us all, anybody would be hard-pressed to ind a doctor who is not heavily intertwined with the pharmaceutical industry. They go hand in hand. And then the insurance companies... dear God we could go on orever. I bought into everything until I hit 27 or 28. Once I inished what I started, I mastered the art o using reerences and proper citations in my written work all o which has done me no good. When I'm not making nickels an hour, I am researching. This is what I believe these last ew days have been about. The thing Is, since I quit watching television, except espn, i also quit the news. I have been compelled to investigate happenings rom both the past and the present. No bias, just something closer to the truth than I am used too. The only thing I can say about seeking the truth is that it is without question nothing what you think the process to be. I you come across one Possibility o the truth, a set o veriiable circumstances that lead one to "an" outcome, then the best thing you can do is sit on it. I hate that about getting older, the older we get the more we learn about the things we thought were true that were ar rom it. That, I believe is my last our days.