our way

Today is a new day for discovery and I am not at all excited about it. I have found myself believing that all people, all of us, are self centered no good bastards with pill problems, booze problems, job problems, relationship problems, confidence problems, financial problems, drug problems, lying problems, fooling ourselves problems, anger and frustration problems, family problems, social problems, and just bs problems with everything life has to give. That is the bad side.
The good side is we have choices. We can abandon our problems by cutting the search back a bit and understand that we are all temporary on the big timeline. In less than a year your problems will most likely be the same as they are now; not unlike mine. So, what have we solved here? Well, we have all agreed that we are messed up and in need, always in need we are. The easiest thing in the world to do is locate the issues. Hell, that's what they have scholars for. Once we enter the world we become a part of the issue by acting the way we do, and thinking the way we think.

whish

We are all free to fail, free to venture out into the daylight and night, to demonstate our insufficiencies for everyone to see. There can be no shame in this as there can be no other way to learn, truely learn anything.

school of thought

There are many schools of hought in regards to whether or not a person should follow through on their desires and seek them out. If the feeling is there, then it is safe to say that one is not only human but not necessarily unhappy with their current lot. It could mean one simply needs a diversion, a template from which to draw upon so as to make the future more tolerable with something all one's own on the inside; something nobody needs to know about; something really interesting and less complex.

gather in gratitude

We gather in gratitude in bunches or alone. We do this free from any regulatory agency. We do these things to be unified in some way; with strangers, but this is impossible. It is one way in which to feel a part of some understanding among others who feel similiarly to something you do. Because nobody has any real understanding about anything really, the best we can do is gather together in bunches and do the things required to show devotion and respect. This, for most people, is healthy. For other people however, it is empty and foolish. I know both kinds and I would go fishing with any of them because they are now different than me.

zeal and elegance

Make a statement some say, as they stand aside and let the world roll by. Become the reality that lurks beneath the facade and rule your way; within the law and natural rights of other people always. Do so with zeal and elegance bringing new-found freedom into existence from within. Your outward appearance will most certainly reflect what you feel on the inside bringing a new attraction; a new development that will open new doors through which only the alive can survive. The new zest for life within you will reflect a greater existence, one that few come in contact with. The one's that do feel this unknown sway from the outside; contemplate, order, and display their visions in various ways under various conditions in time. The people who have experience blend in like the wind and are often hard to see and rarely heard from. There is reason for that!

now what?

Let me add to your grace and occupy a space next to your beating heart. Allow me the privlidge of being associated with such a fine soul which I am not worthy of. For me, thinking of you brings joy to my everyday. Let me grow next to you and drain you from all that you are now so as I grow older, I can dump you for a younger woman. It is not beauty that drives the American media in advertising. These things are a given. What they are pushing is young women onto young men as well as young women onto young men. It is the dream they push and it is that dream we compare ourselves to. Compared to that, we all suck and we all need to kill ourselves. If that is the American dream, and you believe that shit, you are a part of a much larger system that is more complex than you will ever be willing to accept, but probably know very well. So now what? More bullshit?