knocked up constantly

You are my dream, the best i've ever seen. You changed my life when I saw you the first time. I saw a glow in you that was unmistakable and true. I knew right then I wanted to lay down with you and make 12 to 15 babies and just keep you knocked up constantly. I knew I wanted complete control of your body and soul. I knew right then you would be mine no matter what. Even if you opened up a successful bagel business and became a multi-tra-zillionaire you would still be knocked up. You are my dream baby, the best i've ever seen and you will be mine forever and ever. tiaj LLc

so to does you

My assembling self finds no satisfaction in anything. The manufactured piece of equipment seen is a mere illusion, an illustration of something far removed from me. The pencils need sharpening in order for the line to be just right. Once the sharpener dulls so too does the line and then so too does you. In my assembling self there are many lines and few of them are sharply drawn. Then again, what sort of choices do I have at this point? I have to use whatever tools are available at the time and make the lines from there. Even if I had a brand new set of supplies, my assembling self would still utilize unsharp lines and the empty space that accompanies them.

Many days

Many days I wake up knowing full well that I will be doing virtually the same thing I did yesterday. Many days I go to bed thinking about the same things I have to do tomorrow that I did today which was exactly and precisely like the day before that. Many days I wake and say today will be different. Today is the day I do something new and exciting. So instead of getting gas at Shell, I went across the street to Chevron and paid a little more. Now for me that's a stretch. All bs aside, do we really need structure?

designs on you

It draws you in like television. It holds you and keeps you until you sleep and dream of the same. In the time shadows, you will be safe and sound under the calm of that which you will never be responsible for. You will use excuses learned in your travels; your mind travels that allow you to never change yet change in your minds eye. That is its design. That is why it draws you in; because you have come to rely on it to get you through each trying day. It draws you in like television and you don't even care to know its power over you. Again, that is part of its design.

my repercussions/yours

Escapism is not unique to the American experience, it has just never been as pervasive as it is now. We can become comfortable within ourselves completely by simply severing the link between what occurs outside our home to what occurs inside our home. The maintenance involved in this idea has far too great a consequence to even be considered however as this is because human beings naturally link everything we see and feel together. If, along the way of our dreams we find someone who strikes us, then we simply add them to the already existing imaginary files to be referred to at the most convenient times. From there we can operate fluidly and safely with no repercussions of fancy.

the daily mood decides nothing

The mood of the day drives the actions of the day. The consistent patterns we employ starve us of new sights and sounds. We become cushy and locked in our deciding zone. By that I mean we become comfortable enough to look at other people and wonder why they are having so much trouble. Then we state, among trusted friends, the problems of the others while offering no real solution other than to look like we know what we saying in the eyes of the others; those who are hearing us/you but probably not paying much attention. The daily mood decides who will be verbally bashed without them knowing it- and nothing more.

they cannot

One of the many fascinating things about people is how we use words and motion in communication yet rarely comes the day when these words, these movements come to represent our true intent. Too often it seems that what we do becomes far removed from our intended path. From there, we grasp hold of the side-rail and keep our palms slick; hoping for the smoothest ride possible. In time we may find comfort in our choices. In time we may not.
Idealistically we seek the kind of happiness we think we deserve. Yet often through time we miss the point of happiness and how it exists in constancy. It exists in the pleasantries of daily life. It happens in even the most mundane of occurances. It could be as simple as a step over a puddle without pain or it could be as difficult as over-coming an almost unbearable obstacle only to come out even stronger than you were before. Through it all we use words and motion to display ourselves. Those who persue their lives with passion need not observe the actions and reactions of other people. How could they? LLc 98.2