It seems like I spend most of my time waiting for something to happen. Even if I didn't initiate action, still, I expect a full reaction. I do believe this is a form of insanity. Maybe it's experience, but something tells me nothing will happen if I continue this ridiculous waiting.

Once the past is gone, there is nothing that I can do to change it. This is a good thing. I have never really been bothered by my past. Sure I fucked up. But that is no reason not to accept it. I mean, there have been a lot of fuck ups by myself and everyone I know. Knowing that they cannot be changed frees the future up for even more fuck ups. They will be of a different kind, but fuck ups nonetheless they shall be.

I've been a nervous wreck all day today and I have no idea why. I woke up anxious and I remained anxious all day... right up to this point now. Some days are like this I guess. They are for me anyways.

Trouble me 10000 maniacs

The universe has a way of making me realize that things are not as bad as I sometimes think. Too often I think too much about the things that bother me when it would be just as easy for me to think of the things that bring me the most joy.

If it is something that you are passionate about, then it is a good idea to do a lot of it. Make a statement with your passion... so long as nobody gets hurt in the process. One day it will be your legacy.

It is difficult to shake feelings of unworthiness. Nothing compares to the idea that no matter what you do, no matter how hard you try, nothing will ever change. I wish things were different. I wish I could have made better choices in life. But I know the way back. I know what it takes to be successful in something. I need to get back on that track. I must occupy my mind with better things, better ideas, and better people. It is difficult to shake feelings of unworthiness.