There have been many times that I just wanted to give up, turn in my chips so to speak. I mean, I have had a few friends end it all. But I have realized that this is not the way. Yes times are tough. Yes I feel bad most of the time. But that doesn't mean I am going to quit. I've been through too much already to quit now. So I keep on moving, not always forward, but I keep on moving. I know that one day everything will come together and I will realize a dream.

When life seems to be nothing more than the same thing every day, revert back to your childhood and see what you were into then. Maybe, over time you can find a way to incorporate this old "idea" into your life now. There is always room for new things in this life, especially if that new thing is something familiar to you.

I constantly think of death and remorse. I cannot get out of it. Sure there are streams of light, but in general, I feel as though I am walking with some kind of darkness... my unstoppable darkness. Needless to say it might be the weather or my life choices that are bringing me down, yet I cannot help but think that there is something more to it than that.

It doesn't take much to push some people over the edge of their anger. It could be the smallest thing that does it. But there is always an underlying reason for such anger. It could mean that something else is bothering them, something that happened sometime before. This type of anger is harmful, especially to the one on the receiving end of this anger. Nine times out of ten everyone around the angry person knows they are unhappy with something. They know there is unhappiness there, lingering, hovering over their head.

I used to like dark bars in the morning time. There was one bar in particular I frequented. I enjoyed talking with the folks from the neighborhood. We all could make each other laugh for days in that place. There wasn't much to it really. It was like a shack. They served one kind of beer, warm. It was the kind of place you go to when all other options have failed... or it's right next door to your house. I look back on those days with awe and wonder.

What does it mean to be lost? It means that you are searching for something with or without your knowledge. It is nothing to be afraid of at all. To be lost is to be set free from the burdens of those things which bring you the least joy. It is a transition period filled with pleasures yet unknown. It is a time to try new things, meet new people, and possibly acquire a better understanding of self.

Human beings don't spend enough time star gazing. Looking at the stars helps us understand just how small we are. It gives us the opportunity to restructure our thoughts to include other people more often. why? Because no matter who we are as individual people, we can always find the time to improve with a more enlightened perspective. Looking at the stars allows us the opportunity to be without provocation, without pretense, without expectation. This can only help with our human relationships.