There is nothing unny about being unemployed. To go along with that, try being unemployed with knowledge that you have less than two years beore total homelessness. I have a bone-dry bank account, a mother with dimentia, a ather who is losing entire days, sister and brother's who never even call... and yet through the last couple years I have managed to stay booze ree despite being around booze 24/7; it no longer controls me and hasn't or well over a decade. I am absolutely qualiied to be a case manager working with those looking to deal with alcohol/drug addiction. I have many stories, but I was lucky. Many I have known were not, including many members o my amily. I actually have a vision o a place where people can go to just get away. It's a simple place where people can again learn that it is about the simple things. It's like baseball practice. You play the undamentals until you know them... and then you play them again and again because you learn to love the process itsel. Someone once said that i you can't explain something simply, you don't know it well enough to explain it. I believe that to be true. However, I do understand that being emplyed means going with rules already in place. I am with that as well. I have been on both sides o case management. I have direct experience with good and bad case management and I have seen and elt the eects. Yet no matter how oten I apply or inquire or ollow up, I get hardly any response. I can't hardly speak to somebody ace to ace. I really believe technology can hinder human relationships and experiences.

As ar as I can tell, man has been wrestling with this duality called the battle between good and evil since the beginning. You can ind this in just about everything we hear about and see and do. We have Republican and Democrat... well, you understand. It just goes on and on. Then there are those who see and understand how the circle o good sometimes merges with the circle o evil. What occurs in that shared space cannot possibly be pure good. By the same token, what occurs in that shared space cannot be considered pure evil. It is a mix o the two. As to what percentage the mixture, that depends on a myriad o things: people, situation, money, politics, timing, societal views.
One can look back through history and see great men doing great things. However, inevitably there is always a law in these great people. This is because every great man or woman is lawed just as all mankind is lawed. So we weigh the good with the bad in every decision... or at least try to be that way, and move in accordance with what is conceivably the best or all involved. Now this could be one person, a amily, etc. But through everything we do and everything we think about, the duality o right and wrong, good or evil serves as a basis rom which we think and act or don't think and act. I one does not think beore they act, the result can be a lottery win or a car accident. Again, we have this duality presenting itsel. History through philosophy oers mankind a way to sit through what can only be called the duality o human existence. Hardly anything is more interesting than having a conversation with someone with an open mind, one that can expand and contract with obscene clarity.

I'm in my late 40's and I will be spending Christmas with my parents. My sister is moving out here next year. My brothers never talk to their parents, not even a phone call. Miscommunication and old wounds plague the amily. The brothers are aware o mom's condition, but reuse to acknowledge her presence. The way I see it, it's all on them. Years ago words were exchanged over issues revolving around money. Certain promises were uttered and then nothing happened. A lot o things have been let undone and I am araid, or them, those issues can never be resolved. They had their chance and they passed it up. I suppose that is and/or will be a heavy burden on them sommeday. Hell, maybe they eel it right now. I know I would. I made damn sure I got everything straight with them already. I have nothing let to tell my parents. We have ironed through any and all issues we could have possibly had hanging over us. I am glad I am spending Christmas with my parents. I suppose it's easy or me because I have no kids and I have never been married. I'm not tied to anything. I have given away everything I do not need. Right now, my tummy is ull and I am thankul.

Led Zeppelin - The Ocean (Official Live Video)

Garbage - Only Happy When It Rains (official music video) with lyrics

The single non corruptible man among thieves is by ar the most vulnerable o the bunch. Nothing in this world can destroy a plan more eectively than those who are unwilling to see the beneits that come rom corruption. The short-term beneits or the corrupted are always inancial in nature and oten oer some orm o security or them. But none o this can take place among these thieves so long as there is one person who cannot be compromised. The ways o business are one thing. The ways o big business that are on the border o being "shady" are such that all its participants must have something that can later be used against them. The dark orces that operate within this economic structure have been around since its inception. Human nature is such that people will use any means necessary to achieve their ends... well, some people. Those among us who have inluence also have people they answer too. This hierarchical structure has been in place or a very long time. In this world, it is the honest man who eels the brunt o inequity.

Indoctrination is something we all experience. Everybody has some orm o indoctrination they go through at a very young age. The ideologies we "inherit" rom our amilies were given to them by their amilies and so on. Most o us were brought up in amilies where we were taught to work hard or our money. We were taught that honesty is the best policy and that being a good person was its own reward. I actually believe that being a good person is, in act, its own reward. It doesn't get much play time in the conversation, but what it does do is ensure your place within a society that your word means something. Unortunately, certain personality types do not see the beneit o this type o behavior. It's unny, the older we get the easier we ind ourselves making excuses or our behavior... even when we proit rom said behavior through deception.. especially through deception. We ind ourselves saying things like, "I have to do what I have to do. It's a dark world and i you want to play the game, you will have to get dirty." We compromise ourselves in many ways just to make money. Money seems to be what we have all been indoctrinated to believe in. It seems money is the ultimate orm o indoctrination. Attaining as much o it as we can is never done using the qualities most o us were brought up to believe in.