drive endlessly

Drive through the endless and see what you can find. Jot it down in a place of kindness and serenity. You will see in time how you will call upon those times when you need them the most. But reliance on what has occured previous can alter the trail of creation from which we all draw our strength. Maybe sometimes that is a good thing. Maybe sometimes we can draw upon what we have done, as well as what others have done, so we may open new doors in ourselves. This is inspiration and it can come at the most awkward of times. When times become jaded and suspect, remember to draw from the well that is brimming with the thoughts of people who speak from the past times as well as those who speak in the here and now. There is value in that and that value can never be measured to its fullest by anybody, at any time.

denial persists

There are many who hate and there are many who will never take into consideration the facts about any given situation. They will retreat into themselves and rely upon the same old design; the very one that creates friction from within. To get away from that bad habbit they have to take risks that run contrary to the design set years before. This is not easy because those risks have been deemed rediculous and out of the ordinary. And so the continuation of lost causes persists within as denial becomes a part of everyday thought and action.

references from within

Double up on your promises to people you otherwise would not and listen to yourself. You tell yourself of the effort and make the decision to follow through or otherwise do. This deliberation can take seconds, or require more contemplation. Your worth is determined by the results of having said something that has no real value; not only to you, but also to the person you were referring to. By doubling up on promises, you can test yourself and the value of your word. If you fail, and we all do from time to time, then you can adjust more often and learn to close your mouth at the appropriate times when your words may actually mean something.

freedom tracks

Progression is the desire not for something more. Progression is not the want to be in another place. Progression is not the same thing more than it has to be. Progression is a natural change of thoughts that eventually lead to variations in the way we process exterior information and how we relate these things to an older more wiser self that has become unfulfilled in the same ways as before; when times were different than they are now. Progression is the desire to become full again in such a way as to promote the creation of something truely magnificent. That magnificent something is the track of freedom where you again have your entire life ahead of you, with some things all new; leaving what has past behind-with its all due respect. 98.2

stretch

There is a stretch in the timeline of one's life where there is an essence of hope and an inclination to delve into places before unseen or unfelt. The exploration phase is where some pretty tough decisions are made, but it is important to know and understand that our entire lives can be seen as one big exploration phase full of promises kept and ideas that blossom like flowers on a hillside. This is our duty as people; to maintain and allow to flourish all the wonderful thoughts and processes few people can ignore but all people can understand.

inside and out

Take all the things that make you feel good and wrap them up inside a warm blanket and hold that blanket tight. Never become so involved in the out of control things and lose who you are. Let me tell you what you are not: You are not your job; you are not the sister or brother, mother or father; you are not the good son or the bad daughter; you are now and have always been an individual who is and always has been free from these labels. If you think about it, you cannot play any of these role effectively without first always being an individual who embodies a meaning that is completely separate from any one role you can ever play beyond all words anyone can say to the contrary. Through you, you can become a better actor and have each role you play have real meaning within the context of any given situation. This is the birth of sincerity and compassion and these two things are best represented in all our transgressions that may even run contrary to our original idea. This is the comfort of our blankets inside and out.

hearts to feel

I found inspiration through the lack of sleep. In these days I see things I should not see and feel things I should not feel. I come to lose understanding and become uncomfortable with some of the choices I have made. I succomb to the idea that somehow I am not worthy of the chances I have been given, but things have never been easy for me. For the longest time I felt on the outside of reality far removed from everyone else. I have always felt like nothing more than an actor who plays various roles on one really big stage among a meriad of people.
As I have grown older I have come to understand that we are all actors who roleplay among other actors in different situations. I truely understand how easy it is to get wrapped up in things we have no control over and sometimes one role takes precedence over all others. This is where I sometimes get lost and overcome with despair because I forget about what mekes me feel nice. It is bothersome having to play one specific role and have that one role seep into every other aspect of my life; including my sleeping life.
I sometimes want to find a place of isolation and darkness where I can figure things out on my own. I know I am not alone in my lonliness, but still that does not make things any less tough. It is my dream for everyone around me to be happy and smiling often. If a smile can come from a place of difficulty; and for that one moment there is nothing in life but a feeling of relief through the glory of laughter, well, sometimes that is just what needs to happen at that one point in time to make the rest of the day tolerable. That to me is what can bring the most joy. There is nothing like laughter to remind us all just how perfect things really are if we allow our eyes to see, our hands to touch, and our hearts to feel.
There is a place we all know on the inside that is completely rational and simple. It is a place of simplicity where we find the most cause to forget about the sorrows we feel. It is a place that requires no real thought and no real struggle. It is as natural as running water and it tastes just as good. What does your place look like? How does it feel there? Is there music and cool breezes? Do you feel the calm of your heart as you .....

drive the endless

Witness another as they sit or stand alone. They feel some kind of pain inside that drives them away from the one(s) who love them. Sometimes you can talk with them and try and make them understand that what you say is meaningful. They may not want to hear these words, especially from you. But what can happen is over time they may find a way to receive the love you give. Over time they may come to understand that they are capable of receiving love even when what they are told on the inside is the exact opposite. The whole idea is to play along their lines giving them plenty of room to learn how to accept love you give. It may never happen; not the way you would like, but what can happen is a whole new idea centered around not on what is not possible, but rather what is possible when one allows another the room necessary to relive the same passions they once experienced before whatever happened, happened. This is not unique. This is not unusual. This is human and it is nothing to be ashamed of. Never drive away those who love. In doing so you drive away the endless possibilities.

prostitution principles

Prostitution principles guide our lives and there is no way around it. If you are one to think you are not a prostitute, then you are fresh off te bus; full of hope and desire with designs on greater things beyond what others see or expect. If this is your bag then hold it with loose fingertips because there will be a day when someone will take it without asking. From that day and beyond you shall always be a prostitute and you will then become entranced with the falsities that run our social life. Once you have abandoned all hope and have let go of your dreams, you will have come full circle in the minotany that is us all.

green

Along the sides of the meandering highways and bi-ways there is color in the garden. The sustenance provided is appealing in every way. The smooth transition from heartache to heartbreak is less than when the colors and shapes are transfered to tastiness through the everlasting scents of the hearts desire for the better things we often think about but rarely take delight in. Oh we are capable of so much if we just allow room for the good things that are provided if we just remember to take off our shoes from time to time and feel the grass grow beneath our feet.

very very

My God in Heaven the beauty of this life is neverending. I see how the tide runs through and gives us pleasures beyond what words can say. I see the water shining because of the sun above and I feel the warmth that comes from it. I draw inspiration from these things we see and feel and I am happy because of it. Beyond everything else there is the presence of something more spectacular than the eye can see and in that sense there will never be anything but love in this world from which all people can draw upon to make their lives better and more understandable. We all share these things and we are all capable of letting the sunlight fill our souls with the energy necessary to continue on our journies unabaded by the earmarks of selfish people.

can be

MMM we see nuggets and crystals lying in the grass and we fail to recognize their value. Often, what we seek has nothing to do with them. We fail to see their purpose and example. Insodoing we fail ourselves. The gates are open wide when we recognize these markers. They are there for a reason and it is not our job to understand why. All we can do is try and see what can be instead of what should have been. 98.2

good u r

Take a look around you and see the delights that constantly surround you. Take note of the spaces and crevaces and allow them to formulate your opinions from the first step. Once you allow what lies on the outside in, what happens is most desirable. This is the essence of what is too often missed each day. We become twisted up and shell shocked by the outside lies people spin. Never allow these elements to intercede on your inate ability to take everythin in. Let the voices inside be your guide to a wholesome existence that relies on what happens on the inside as it compares to the beauty on the outside. This is where ideas come from and this is what makes us believe in the things we shouldn't and never thought we could. Invest your time and energy in the good things while always reminding yourself of how good you really are.

childhood unattainable

I want nothing and I expect nothing; especially from people who are so involved with trying instead of relying on what they know and feel. If there is something you want, once you get it, you are sure to be disappointed. There is nothing good in wanting because it lacks the soul for change. Desires derive their strength from the unexpected and there is no wanting in that which grazes the soul in such a way as to allow you to be truely fulfilled in unexpected ways. These things bring smiles through and through and amount to much more than simple childlike wanting of the unattainable.

shell to show

We allow our six-foot clouds to rise above and rain down upon us. This is our design and it comes from other people. We dare not desire anything else. If we put into motion any notion to the contrary, resistance is the outcome. Once those fences are built, we need different shoes and that is all. If the shoes come with proper arch support, we can leap like there is no tomorrow; if not, we will forever be grounded inside and out leaving only a shell to show we were here with no real guts inside.

man/woman besides

What matters most is not our desire to fit into any one particular structure but to become whole and unified in one binding idea with the self that is predicated on the notion that what is said and felt has value so long as these things are coming from a part of you that is truely sincere. This matters because we all have a tendency to lose our faith in the number one most important thing; the belief that what we feel has value so long as that belief has its foundation in what is real. The differences between what is real and what is not is sometimes difficult and often blurry. We have a tendency toward acceptance and this is what weakens us all. Never abandon the dream but keep that dream a dream and nothing more. If you decide to make the dream real, be prepared for a non-static existence that is sure to be worth a few words later on down the road. That is what makes life worth living and that should be the goal of all man and woman.

motions misunderstandings

The motions we display are usually false in nature. There is always something on the inside that is left undone. This is not unique to the human experience because we are all animals and we are all temporary. Those who find time to display falseness have had much practice and they are damn good at it. But what lurks on the inside can tear the soul apart leaving something old, something wrong, something that is a consequence of the very falseness that is so evenly displayed at all times.
Those who find the time to judge you use that time to make up for themselves in some way. Here is what makes the drive inside for most people and here is where most people make their greatest mistakes. This becomes part of their motion and in time that motion displays heartache and age symbolic of misunderstandings over time.

shouldn't

Fear not the idea of justice from an individual perspective; there will be many who fight you. These are the very people who have abandoned all hope for renewal. Of course they will say you can't because they wouldn't. It's not that they couldn't, its just that they talk themselves into believing they shouldn't.

easy

We find inspiration from many places. Sometimes we find it in our sleep, sometimes we find it when we weep. Inspiration brings with it many inconsistencies that can not be measured by anyone but the one who feels it. Often times the one who feels it does not even know when it is happening until the road becomes too narrow to travel upon. When that happens, a crash is most definite.
People can talk all day about getting up and fighting; people can talk about a great many things. It easy to do when the experience never follows you. That is the benefit of feeling the same as a pickle in a jar: predictable, uneasy, and always judgemental. For those of you who do this, go screw yourselves! 98.6

certainly that

Sometimes I think about the constancy of it all and become somewhat overwhelmed. The things that I have n control over should not bother me, but they do. I find myself doing things I am not entirely comfortable with and laughing at jokes just because I think I should. Sometimes I want things to be different yet I lack the courage to make real changes. Is this human? If so then I am certainly that. 98.2 LLC

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I feel your presence in me. I feel you inside. You make me me. Is that good enough for you?

un

I will always find time to allow you the room required for you to shine; that is fine with me.

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I feel at times to be uninhibited and open; other times sheltered and in pain. The lonliness I feel is uniquely human; I am fine with that. I use nothing and become armored through experience in the light of constant loss. 98.2

sorrow

Love is pain and nothing more. Our desires mix with false life and we become confused. We lose our way and make bad choices that we regret until were dead and gone forever. That confusion carries to the next life as a representation of our failure to be the people we could have been. I will not be an unhappy ghost!

misuse of self

Those who look and press, will see in time the results of their struggles. What will come is a new role to play that will be far removed from any other. Soon, discomfort will be a daily part of existence and what will inevitably follow is a sea of discontentment, anger, and sacrifice of the soul. It will become so as a result of forced behavior which is the formulation of yet another role to play; one of many. It will become crowded, off center, and extraordinarily boring in nature. 98.2

media hustle

I feel everything all the time, and it is hard. I see the man in the street hustling; I see the woman on street hustling; I see the child on the street hustling, and I see the media on the street hustling. I feel those who dispurse the images we see have an agenda, and that agenda is remarkably unholy. There can be no alliance with unholy things, but we seem to have alligned ourselves with it all. In the process we have become plastic, formulated, and without cause.

clue

I wish to God, Allah, Buddha, anything, that women understand they have a mission in life and it is not to be a subordinant to a fukin man. Woman do not need to try and please soo much. What they need to do is allow themselves to be open to new things and that requires being strong, not fukin stupid. By listening to men, women lose themselves. Soon, they fall into the justification hole; and that is a dark and lonely place filled with emptiness and lies. Is that what life is, emptiness and lies? I should say not. Wake the fuck up!

your lions eyes

Active minds delete that which lies inside if that activity is cyclical in nature. Repressed emotions and anger bounds up inside the desire for change. This is where we get justification for our inactivity as inopportunity rises and dreams fall; the beginning of the end times. Once you resign to these things, no amount of anything can ever make up for it. Once your dreams are gone, all that is left is the justification for sadness and dismay disguised with the lions eyes glowing among the tall brush.