I felt lonely today. I did not want to be alone. I went to sleep and I woke up alone again; alone again. I walked today along the riverwalk. I came home and saw children playing with their families and they were laughing and carrying on. I changed the channel and saw the same thing. I felt alone today, but I was not alone. There are many like me, I suspect, who play roles each day with not a real word to say to anyone. Play acting, that's all it is. Everything is just play acting. I was alone today, but my lonliness is shared by many. I know this is true without evidence.
I want to be my essential self again. I am tired of acting. It just takes far too much away from me these days. Why have I been this way as far back as I can remember?
I felt lonely today and I suspect my day tomorrow will be constructed in much the same way. I am alone always, even when I am with another. I am used to it. Are you? Must we be this way; together, alone?