fulfilled not

The pain comes in parts and there are times when those parts feel like tools being thrown at me bouncing off my rib cage. On occasion the pain comes at a moments notice occurring either physiologically or deeper still. I am not sure which is worse as they both symbolize some form of discontentment. Beyond these things, pain can come from another person's words. These times are tough because if the words of another hurt that much, then there needs to be some sort of drug intervention or possibly some massage therapy to help guide you away from your self degredation tendencies. Pain breeds pain and as it comes in parts it becomes difficult to bypass the self fulfilling prophecy you call upon so often.