forever times in calm

Prosperity comes not on the fashion plate or in the reflections in the windows that make us look so, checkable, as we walk by them. Prosperity is not found in the windows at all. It is never found if it is something that can be measured or specified. It cannot be expressed properly except through art or the artful interpretation of some fabulous thing; individual and true from the heart and soul and mind of its creator.
The design of this type, this real type of prosperity; he may draw inspiration from this un-real reality we all feed on and thrive on like magots to a rotting corpse on the side of a steep and rocky mountain. He may not. None the less, the designer then will always make the signs his own drawing from the playable spectrum where the bounds become boundless and all stress and agony is let loose to fly away into the soundless un-energy of subsidence and dismay. This is prosperity on our side of the mountain and it soothes the soul inside in our forever times in calm. LLc 98.2

The Pain Frame

It is knowing without having the courage to change. It is believing without believing at all. These are the ad-men. The idea, the true belief, that we are capable of anything else is carried by those who have not the time to write as they are busy running and setting new stages to perform on. The performances they maintain are beyond habit; almost as if they truly believe they are what we perceive. Their alliance with our underside is the draw. Some if not most of the audience knows they feel these things, these impulses, these desires, but they can never find the right stage on which to express them; with an attentive audience that is completely enthralled by the performances they give. All other people believe in the pain frame.
The pain frame has many designs and patterns. It can be bought and sold in all places everywhere. It can be traded openly and without hesitation or fear of prosecution, and it can be as freeing as the feeling through sound one gets as raindrops fall crisply on the side of the house and on the hood of the car parked just outside the window your looking through. It comes fully equipped with tested and secure ways of becoming something other than what you are and maintaining that performance for a lifetime.
Our appearance, well, we hide through words and clothes and cars and these all work really well in dark bars where the wolves run late in the evening; well in to the morning hours then driving away in their dark cars, wearing their dark clothes. These are the designers in time. They are the ad-men. Suspension of disbelief. Witchcraft, ain't it a hoot? LLc 98.2

spirit monkey

Once the discovery was made way back in the day, forever tarnished would be our way. The mode of money, and all she brings, would forever create divisions among the good and divisions among the bad; holding the rest hostage like a bagged up rag, used, covered in false promises and stinking with sweat and blood. Ideas they flowed like wine on Tuesday as the monumental ways of transport became larger and more destructive. The people were looked over as poor poppers; in some cases they were. Needless to say in our content today we have seen the after effects of the original. Those people are gone now, but their ghosts roam the field and leak through the wires to still be heard in their spirited ways. LLc 98.2

acting abyss

The explanations we seek do not lie within the bounds of social experience and reality; for this is a playground where answers that are real and true; as true as can be at any one time, cannot be found without giving regard to all those who stand to profit in some way from the encounter. Profit can stifle progress in some ways. This is where we lose ourselves in the acting abyss.
No explanation is necessary in the social world because it is an effective non-reality that relies on discourse and division to function. Being actors, we tend to forget the difference between entertainment and reality. However, our bland social world needs media to keep us at least talking to one another via the Internet. We sure as hell can't do it in person anymore without our cell phones stroking us and making us feel all better inside. LLc 98.2

tell her element

I walked in the really big room, books all over. In the corner alone was this woman; sheepish, skinny, but in her element I could tell. What was it about this woman that made a big wooden stamp come out of the sky and hit me right square in the forehead with the words in big red letters, "FUCKED" clocking me and knocking me down. One look at this woman made my freakin world-view change. I was afraid of her right away. What am I supposed to say to the woman who has just given me one huge fucking headache and a stamp to boot. I mean, I had no chance, none at all. When I found out who she was, well, that was it Jack. The whole Kitten Kaboodle began rolling down the mountains side toward the 47 Ford at the bottom. Moving on, I saw a woman today that showed me the way. LLc 98.2

ride's attainments

It is not unbelievable what a man will do to protect his standing; even as his helicopter is landing he is thinking of ways to continue his philandering. Inside the mind of the driven lives not the end; or matters of attainment for attainments sake, but the ways and means of achieving that goal and getting a narcotic-like rush from the experience as a result. He may not be aware of his intoxication, but that does not take away from the fact that he is intoxicated.
We see it everyday in the eyes of those we place so high on the social ladder. Look in the eyes of the driven and you will see a different expression pressing them on the inside. They may not be able to understand their drive, but that will never stop them from driving. LLc 98.2

< than you

Misconception and deception go together like leaves to a gutter. The rampage of these two things are storming the hillsides and coming down on us. But this is a different battle, one in which incorporates the supernatural truth that is firing on all cylinders. There is no containment to the spell as those who see it can never become anything but spots on the sidewalk to be scrubbed and swept. Becoming whole again may never happen as the social pull is a strong one to behave and act accordingly to one's less than disposition and human capacities. LLc 98.2

someday maybe someday

The filling of our society is not the sweet center like we have in some cookie; it is a filling of broken sheds and rusted tools that had their time and performed their duties. Holding on to the past is OK for a spell, but there comes a time when the past must not be used as a mechanism for future discourse. This is a human thing however and we all share its qualities and imperfections; the past I mean. But remembering it and bringing it up either yourself or hearing it from someone else are two separate things. On the one hand, there are good memories to consider. On the other hand there is everything in between the poles.
Through the hard social world we drive in and create and maintain, we forget that we can sometimes lose ourselves; who we truly are. Sometimes we search for the sweet filling only where shit burgers are sold and served on old benches surrounded by saw horses with dust on the hard wood floor. The past repeats itself as our humanity it seems will have it no other way. Oh well, maybe someday. LLc 98.2

delivery, oh delivery

It is a time, space continuum. It is paradoxical. It is the atomization and transfer of the spirit cells; momentary and forever continuing on their pathway. The host here is but a temporary one and all things on this plane are indeed temporary.
Pride and fashion are getting in the way of certainty. The allies and unions we form serve to protect as well as repress us for the sake of maintenance and delivery. The maintenance is for security, the delivery is for the forsaken dream; the ones we gave up for the sake of appearance and standing. LLc 98.2

the image maker in you

We live in one giant social space. We live in large and small groups simultaneously. Each group has their own outlook and perspective; the social sense that binds them within their own personal structure of daily activities. These things include the obvious: school, work, entertainment, etc. Like minded and similar thinking people hang out together. For example, flashy douche bags who drive over-priced cars hang together and the people who like sport hang together. Those who like themselves a lot hang together; not unlike the before mentioned douche bags. These packs, these people all share certain characteristics, but they all have one very strong thing in common completely; the mangled superiority complex embodied best by the image maker. The dehumanization of the human race is running full speed baby and everything you see and do is based on the maintenance and manufacturing of absolutely nothing of any real value. Our giant space has friends that see better than you do and they receive while you believe in the order the nothing. LLc 98.2

fluid sacrifice still

The light of the evermore is seen not through my eyes nor anyone Else's here on this plane. No, the light of the evermore is carried through by the signs, the hallows, the recollections of past men that contain within themselves the same yearning and desire they have always had in their possession. They are unknown to us and only come in the form of reflections mixed with our imaginary capabilities. This is normal; these unseen things and feelings we have. The reasoning behind them is not fully understood, but sometimes on this plane the explanations we seek, and the ways of our inquiry, play a vital part in our inability to actualize any one explanation that seeks to incorporate everything. The light of the evermore is simply unseen. It is housed in the crevaces we walk on where the blood droplets congragate and tell their story fluidly. LLc 98.2

this and that

How can anything be good enough? How would it be possible to find satisfaction when there is so little of it that can be seen? It seems the only happy people we see are on TV and then we get happy because they get happy. Does this make any sense at all? Does anyone see the connection here?
We are a representation of what it means to be lost in the outside. We are so far gone that we have become the commercial, the soap, the mid-week funny sitcom with good looking people going through what we NeeD to go through. Does this make any sense? What we have become is mechanistic, but with a twist. We learn from and follow what we see, but we also look for examples through other programming to learn how to change ourselves. Does that make any sense? LLc 98.2

the everyday you

The explanations do not lie within the bounds of social experience; this is a playground where real and true answers, as true as they can be at any one time, cannot be found without giving proper regard to all those who stand to gain in some way economically or otherwise from the encounter.
No explanation is needed in the social world unless there are individual adjustments that need to be made on the part of any one actor or group of actors. In some cases, a total reconstruction of self needs to take place. This includes presenting oneself in accordance with the larger whole of the community while still maintaining an individual presentation; an impossibility in our social world.
Impression management is the social experience. Everything you need to know about someone is right there in front of you. The explanations in people we seek should be real and true. The social world does not allow Peggy, the pill popping soccer mom, to reveal herself to the community as this would be a good example of bad impression management. For example, If Peg were to go out one evening and have a few too many with her friends, then somehow get tangled up in some prostitution scheme her cousin has been running from her living room without Peg knowing about it, then her presentation, her role as soccer mom, would be void and she would be abandoned by all her friends.
The explanations we seek again cannot be found on the slippery societal surface where the ice capades practice everyday. They can however be found on the you in the everyday. LLc 98.2

unaffected infection

Politics is in all things human. It lies on every avenue and back street of every city. It is at home and the workplace. It is in everything you see and touch; meet, greet and eat. Politics is in all things human and beyond.
You show me one result by one set of people, in any experiment, and there will be another set of people at the ready to disprove it. Some people prefer the role of disproving the result because the money can be really good. It is like rolling the dice and getting on a hot run with the cameras rolling.
The political game exists on every level of humanity, and in most cases it is a game of chance and timing. It forces us to take sides, say and do the wrong things, make false assumptions about people; and there are many other examples I could think of. There is however an unaffected group. LLc 98.2

free way

The social world is the creation of us all. This is not by choice, but the maintenance of the status quo is a choice. Those who would scrutinize you, if you stand out in some way, do so out of their own deep seeded desire to do or be the same. This is the essence of entertainment and is the starting point for our imaginary lives; in some cases. If we only spent more time doing and acting out our visions (so long as no harm ever comes to another living thing), maybe our fictitious mind world could resemble us in the social world free from the burden of having to be any other way. LLc 98.2

hatred of me

In our momentary silences we see the things that are true; for what they are. Blindly then we embark on a separate more compensatory pathway that makes room for allowances, justifications, and re-classifications that take us on a journey not meant for us. In time we find ourselves in an unholy place; a wicked spot of our own creation. The discontent we feel inside and try so hard to hide wears us down and takes away from us, our ability to fight. Once we succumb to our own actions, when we know differently the truth, we then embellish all our heartache and deep seeded anger at ourselves toward those who are close to us. Does this sound familiar to you? I know it does. Funny thing about people, some of us will never let go of the hatred we carry for ourselves. Some of us hate ourselves so much that we cannot see the world through any other lens than the one that provides us with the many shades of darkness we have come to love so very much. LLc 98.2

drive long

It is unimpressive to be a success at something you hate. It is not unimpressive to me or anyone else you see out there, but the frowns you wear, the stares, show a different side to that success. Success is a wonderful thing but if that success means years of laborious work in the alley of social order and status, then the achievement has been done before and you have proven to everyone around you that you are a winner; just like the one's before you.
However, things cannot replace the experience of failure. You know exactly what I mean. It is failure that drives the driven soul. Through failure comes the birth of new ideas and thought processes. Failure breeds originality in all people. LLc 98.2

desire always we do

Time allows for wiggle room in the cells we create for ourselves. Oh, you don't limit yourself inside that mind of yours? What a load of crap. Yes you do and you know you do. We all do these things, and it really sucks. We do these things because we are born into a world that has already been created for us. Part of the spell is ingesting everything on the outside that comes to us on the inside through that box.
That box controls your opinion of you and every other actor in society. It controls us all well, so you are definately not alone. Think about it! Think about all the fiction you bite into each day. Feel the burn as that stingy taste covers the inside of your mouth, ravishing your taste buds; feeding that desire for more. LLc 98.2

truth holds forever

Romantics are efficient at self destruction. LLc 98.2

only one

Romantics believe not in what seems to be. The packaged material is not trustworthy enough to consider. No, romantics believe not in what seems to be, but rather, what actually is on the inside. That is where the flowers grow and they can bloom forever with another caring soul. LLc 98.2

match made in heavan

To become a better golfer, one must consider who they are first as a person; because anything that runs through the mind of a golfer will take him/her further and further away from his/her objective. Once they have found themselves swimming in the pool of contentment; to include all things good and all things bad and to have each one of them recognized and categorized for not only future reference, but also for any future action that entertains the notion of a higher more tolerant level of understanding of the GAME! First, you take all that you have in the bag on any one day to the first tee. This includes all things that run through the mind; only you know them for sure. And you take deep breaths as you swing the club on the tee side while visualizing your ball coming off brilliantly, flying through the air like a bald eagle soaring in the Colorado mountains; a beautiful sight by the way. You place your ball on the proper side of the tee depending on the tee levels and so on and so forth. You then step back behind the ball and swing a few more times eyeing the ball in flight as it descends onto the fairway. Not any one point on the fairway parse', just the fairway. You then breathe deeply some more; not to pass out but to be loose and ready to allow things to take place based on one vision, one feel, one desire to see the shot come off just as you envisioned it. You make the swing and from then on it is a reciprocal relationship between you and the golf gods; who, by the way, have a hell of a sense of humor. LLc 98.2

you better believe it!

Creativity thrives in young people. Once older, the young join the ranks of the necessary. Among these people are those who do what needs to be done so that the basic needs can be met: food, shelter, and so on. In this group there are, and have been for years, the personnel to discover new technologies/anti-technologies never to be heard; speak new words never to be spoken or heard; have new ideas about their social world never to be tested and proven over time; among many other functional and imagination based ideas that could have serious and provable use in all future endeavors of their fellow community members and humanity as a whole. The time is coming for these voices to be heard. It is most definitely coming. LLc 98.2

mood in man

Just as the value of negative space in art cannot be fully appreciated unless it is utilized by someone who sees beyond the material realisms that are seen, the sociology of the seasons determine the artists heart and negative space is a vital part of that process.
The sociology of the seasons takes into account the fact that people change at different rates than the social order. From one generation to the next the patterns of action are faster moving and perspectives need to reflect that. It takes into account moods as they relate to both the social and private spheres of any one individual or any one or more collective of individuals. It takes into account patterns of processes that reflect the inside parts of the individual as they relate to their own personal space and how their space relates to the space of another to see if there is a seasonal correlation to the activities of humans in the social world.
People as a collective move along the social pathway at different rates. The recidivism, the cycles we see, the remarks we make; all form seasons. The moods and patterns of people inside their seasons is what drives the social world.
Negative space need not be filled if it were not created by those who seem to believe their season is the right one. But their season is different. In their season, differentiation is measured and plotted on a computer screen for us to look at and absorb. Here we have the importance of mood in man and his response to that plan. LLc 98.2

dumb and dumber

Marriage is a tool for social control. It obligates people to perform at a recognizable and acceptable level. It is a show like the ceremony itself. It comes with tax perks, job perks, and recognition that you are a valued member of the community with strong ties to God and family. However, these things are part of the new falsehood, as times have changed.
No longer should the woman stay home and prepare shit; they no longer know how and care not to learn anyway. No longer should a man be expected to do the bulk of the money making. Now a days, nobody cares where the money comes from so long as it comes from somewhere. We have become results; fragments; statistical embodiments of a lost generation tuned in and toned down psychologically. We are mechanisms or units to be controlled. Just look at what we have become; toddlers who need decisions and facts given to us as if we were some form of deranged mammalian entity. LLc 98.2

new order

There are many like you who live in falseness and deceit. As you know by now the money you make, or are currently screwing out of someone, makes you a player in the big game. Those you play with may say they believe in this or that, but by being who they are; by saying the things they say behind people's back; by acting the fool, they ensure a place for themselves in the loneliest of valley's where there is no peace. In time they will find out what the repurcussions of shallowness are and how lonely one can be surrounded by well dressed demons who thirst for money as if it were blood leaking from the still alive body of some chicken-shit worthless attorney, as so you will become. Witchcraft is rampant and we are all part of it. Welcome to the new order. LLc 98.2

black prosperity

One must ask how much of a whore they are willing to become for the almighty dollar. God is money here someone said, and for some people the dream is to have lots and lots of it. There are those in this world who put on a good facade; they fit in to the facade of the everyday quite nicely. You see, these daze it is much, much better to look the part than to play the role. Fancy language and posturing takes care of itself in time. Of course, once you get the hang of it you realize just how short you have come because the road you are on is tainted with spots not unlike the spots you would find in a Vegas hotel room; you know, the crusty little spots that you say is spilled wine. One must ask themselves just how much of themselves are they willing to let go for the sake of appearance in prosperities blackened eyes. LLc 98.2

collective me

We are all serving a sentence and doing time. We want to leave marks in the sand and make real changes in the way of operations. These things are slow as people are unwilling to abandon the reality they see. Their comfort ability/ours is due in large part to the selection and opportunities afforded us.
Tapping in to an idea is where we find the birthplace of action, not subtlety. One idea can spring from the simplest of thoughts. Running with that thought, that idea, is how really big bridges are built between people and generations. It is how we become something as opposed to succombing to something else; someone elses idea for us.
Still, no matter which of the many isles we take, you can be sure the movie will end at some point; to be continued when we get home and even while we sleep. No matter the idea or function, our temporary spot will have other occupants once our time is up. What will they perceive about us? What marks in the sand shall serve as our signature? Will it be a collective or will it be singular in nature; noteworthy and satisfactory in its understanding? LLc 98.2 *

economy first

I feel as though I am waking from a long and prosperous sleep. Like the world herself has morphed into a shell of what it once was. Its occupants just the same have morphed. We have become self-enclosed fixtures on the big mantle piece; reminders of our time and place in history when we became one entity of the fluid demolition of singularity only to be replaced by economic compromise in disguise. LLc 98.2

reality sets

Television is like a convenience store. It costs money, nothing is good for you, yet there is something chewy and wonderful in each of these places for everybody to enjoy.
It is through the specks of convenience we lose our will. Once belonging takes the reins; among the many selves personified, the personal glide ends for a capacity filled flight to a place where we are supposed to teach values to young people. Where did the dream go? Kids are not the biggest risk in our social world however. The risk is in all of us to either succumb to the look and bypass the glance next time we walk by the glass, or walk like we believe in our heart that what we are doing is valuable yet flexible upon convincing and/or verifiable data sets or sounds of clarity that come from beyond the spectrum of our reality sets. LLc 98.2

human specific

Links that are temporary ones are human specific. Nothing lasts forever; you can't always have what you want; hell, they make songs about how hard it is to achieve their personal success. We relate in continued discontent with moderate bits of happiness stuffed in and out; where it can fit around all our daily baggage; thus disallowing seemingly prosperous relationships based on trust and mutual admiration to be acceptably viewed in the media rather than achieved after years and years of miserable failure on our own parts.
If you do not think you live in comparison to the fantasy daily created, then you are in it deeper than you think. This is where a certain group of people render themselves visible. Do you know them? Do you know what they look like or what their words mean, really mean to you at that moment in time? I will say this, these people look very similar to you. They watch you to see if you believe you as you stand, sit, walk, or talk. They are very human, human specific. LLc 98.2

thunder and classification

It was your presence that sustained you. Your size, your mannerisms, your tastes; these things permeated the air you brought with you whenever you entered a room. Once you got a taste of your entrenched desires and found simulated and unfounded joy that benefited you and your membership in the community, you became another man. What you became was a reflection of what dwells inside the minds of each one of us. But without the proper guidance, people like yourself get overlooked and become monsters in yourselves; always hurting on the inside for what you have been programmed to believe you are missing. I say you miss the things you miss because of what may happen on the journey. Ask any successful person and they will tell you, "We started with an idea and put it all on red baby and watched as the wheel turned and 19 came up. From then on it has been one windfall after another." It is possible to re-establish yourself in this life, and to do so with great thunder and classification. LLc 98.2**

they be you

Your God is television and media is your prince. One day without media would be far too dangerous a task as we are required to latch on to the wonders of misinformation and fear as a foundation for our action. We are slowly losing the identity we earned in our youth to a barage of images and words meant to deceive us and take away from us our fabric, our essence, and our unified selves; acting on behalf of larger more idealistic images of future ramifications that can only benefit us as individuals; which could then lend itself (this perception of life) to the benefit of the community thus playing a role in our natural tendencies to do otherwise so that we may not tend to do those things, whatever those things be. LLc 98.2

love always clear

Love is more than a whisper, more than a touch. It surrounds us all and it leads sometimes from behind. It is made up of energy containing harmony and acquiescence. It fools us and blinds us; sometimes to the point of anger and frustration. But love is not universally known and it takes on so many forms. No matter of material can show or prove ones love for another. It takes more than a whisper and a touch. It takes the belief that beyond our relm exists the answers we seek. But we require more than mere answers. We require things we should not require. The other relm has no requirements other than the love and belief system you came in with. It is the only true thing the people of earth can never take away from one another. LLc 98.2

keeper desires

Love is the rose and passion is the stem. The flower is representative of all our sin. It flourishes in the sunlight and wilts during the night; only to bloom again come morning sun. Its duration is as long as the keeper desires. His ability to care not only for the flower herself but the soil beneath her is paramount. Much time and planning and practice has to take place. This means that failure must also be involved. Still, when failure happens it serves as an experience in time; one to be measured and learned from. Still more, there will always be a rose because there will always be someone who cares and cares passionately. It is the passion inside that represents the free standing man in the stem's form and it is love that drives and gives reason to be a gardener. LLc 98.2

slow

I am engulfed in the proposition that things must improve because, although they can become worse, these things are in flux. Things always are because if they were not, then this whole thing we are involved with could be viewed as one giant experiment gone awry. Those on high; he on high, whoever it be fat or skinny, must see our progression and laugh. I guess the good thing is that without all the BS we get to experience each and every day we would have no way to track things and see how we move at a snails pace.
Red tape mingling with procedure and the status of achieving individuals slows progress down so everyone can get a piece of the pie. Like birds from the air these pigeons pluck the finance away just like they were trained to do. This is but one thing in a myriad of things we all must contend with so the trails we mark can be colored to the appropriate corporation. Nothing like a sell out to keep the dollar moving. LLc 98.2

ever will again and again

She was soft and steady in her ways. The dominant feelings of the day pervaded her every way. Is not easy she would often say. Lies rarely are I would respond. The comfortability of the matter lies in the absence of lies. To become a liar is one thing, to maintain the lie is another thing altogether. There is no sense in the manufacturing and maintenance of lies, but lies are all we see; they are all that we know. We all have a one way ticket to the big show once our eyes open, truly open up to the deceitful practices of man. We do these things because we are worthless and easily manipulated by the mainstream idealisms of those we cannot see and ever will. LLc 98.2

few rewards

She lives a separate life, we all do. In this life is the sanctity of feeling and togetherness. She has practiced and practiced over and over again. She has perfected the art of self deception to a T. She misfires often but due to her compartmentalization techniques developed over years and years of self hatred in the pursuit of the alternate life, she has been able to maintain her presentation with some courteousness. However, she fails in following through. She runs and hides and has excuses that are fail safe at the ready. She has attained her status and now wants to reap the rewards which there are few. Now she adds a whole new denial to the knapsack. Her denial of attraction: just more thoughts to place in the big bag that grows bigger still. LLc 98.2

inside the you

Fantasy land is fun and people live there. It is not a dream, it is very real and happening everyday in you and everyone around you. Inside this montage is the most compelling effect of them all. It is your favorite thing and it is the sole reason you are thriving there inside the you. It is also the main reason you cannot thrive outside your mind. Is reality all that bad that you rely on the mental images of you decorated in fine fabric and you are OK with that; far removed from your presentation of yourself; far removed from the real you who could never be let free as far as you can see over the heavy humps you have placed in front of yourself? Plus, nobody gives a shit! LLc 98.2

drink to fit

I know she reads a lot. She must lose herself in deep thought. I suspect she drinks which fits the profile to a T. I know there have been many a night when me and a roommate solved all the worlds problems over a couple cases of beer and some other crude form of poisoning.
She wants to make real changes but feels tied to a lowly spot; a spot unclean and filled with lustful thoughts. Then again, if you live in this society you have lustful thoughts each and every day of the week. Maybe it's better to keep things in my head. That way I can play safe and never get to experience the intensity of what should be. I know she would be comfortable with that as it would not impede on her thoughts which must be at the very least similar to mine. LLc 98.2

I remember back in the early 90's I met a woman in a bar. I did not belong there if you know what I mean. She said hardly a word inside. If she did it would have been difficult to hear her over the music that was playing so loudly. She invited me to dance. We danced one dance then went outside to her car. She was aggressive and threw me inside. I never felt so glad to be a man/young man in my life. The woman did'nt even say goodbye or anything. I felt so used.
I met another woman sometime ago in a movie theater. She too was aggressive and had a purpose. She achieved her purpose and all was well in the neighborhood.

the telling spots

There was one day when she was wearing a black and white shirt. She came over near me and unbuttoned the top button as she began to speak. I saw her mind wandering as she moved her sexy little lips talking about things we discussed earlier in the week. I wanted to be inside her mind. I wanted to live the experience she was sweating over at that moment. She is good i'll give her that. She hides well, but everyone has their tells and she was screaming fucking sexy! LLc 98.2

free they see

Like what am I supposed to do? The woman avoids me and feels as if this whole thing is wrong. OK, it is somewhat, but sometimes the unexpected thing happens. To avoid the feelings; to allow them to slip away into the wandering mental abyss, is to allow the negative vibe to make decisions based on possible negative consequences.
NEGATIVE CONSEQUENCES! shit.... anything new, any change, any time anyone altar's their daily imaginative spectrum filled with more shadows than color; anytime one follows what one feels inside, the slug will hurt and it will take the fucking wind right away from every minuscule sack one has in one's lungs. The bruises will show and everyone will know and criticise the new show they get to see for free. LLc 98.2

everything with feelings

She does know the implications she thinks. The problem is, she has been boxed in for so long that she has forgotten how desirable she is; at least from where I stand she is desirable. Wholly shit she is desirable!
I know what she does. I know how she feels really. She feels all tensed up like a guitar string freshly strung. She has actually given thought to making the unreal real in this mess in her mind. She avoids the issue until she sleeps, walks, and talks each and every day.
If she is anything like me she feels everything: every word, every motion, every desire and every devotion man can have. She has been through a lot I have no doubt. Now she believes everything is supposed to be one big dramatic event. It is not. I wish the time would come when she would allow me just one whisper and soft kiss. I wish I had the guts to just take her and plant one right on her. Appropriate shrmropropriate, this is serious stuff here. LLc 98.2

manufactured slim

She was far from average. In her mind she was ravishing at times. In her mind she was a dynamic lover and responder. Too bad for her, I think she really is like the visions she see's. She says she is a nerd, a prude; lacking in this and that. This is all bullshit as far as I am concerned. To me, from the first day I saw her, she was beautiful. My god, she walked with a little bounce. She was manufactured slim; a grape eater. Her hair a bit untidy, she looked like a green gem in a sea of grey. I could tell right away she was one of those women who thought little of herself. I could tell after a week that she was indeed a strong person playing the needy role; tired of all the single hastles and insecurity issues. But she has made the wrong choice. It is over for her she thinks. LLc 98.2

extensions

Extensions are ways of gathering and processing information for storage. Extensions include everything the individual can imagine. For example, in the learning process an individual must have ways of remembering certain terminology. He may use the chair in his room to relate to a scene he must remember where, in the middle portion, requires him to sit down in a certain place at a certain time. He can, in his mind then, compartmentalize his role into two separate parts: one part out of the chair and the other part in the chair. By using the chair in his room he can then, as an extension, relate the feel of the chair during his speaking parts and the feel of his shoes during the standing parts. In both cases, the audience is forgotten about through the utilization of extensions. All expected lines will be given. In this case the chair and the shoes could be seen as memory extensions ( even bridges) that were used to fully display the scene as intended. LLc 98.2

questionable now

The list has been drawn up and all necessary participants are at the ready. The puzzle pieces have all been placed on the big table and there is no longer a need to search for the players; they are all out there in plain sight just as expected. Now it is simply a matter of time before someone stumbles upon the big secret located in the little brown brief. In that brief is the foundation of a new order put in place, in essence, approx. 57 years ago. This is a necessary change that must occur. Our greed has shamed us. Our vanity has taken us far away. Our destiny is questionable now! LLc 98.2