few rewards

She lives a separate life, we all do. In this life is the sanctity of feeling and togetherness. She has practiced and practiced over and over again. She has perfected the art of self deception to a T. She misfires often but due to her compartmentalization techniques developed over years and years of self hatred in the pursuit of the alternate life, she has been able to maintain her presentation with some courteousness. However, she fails in following through. She runs and hides and has excuses that are fail safe at the ready. She has attained her status and now wants to reap the rewards which there are few. Now she adds a whole new denial to the knapsack. Her denial of attraction: just more thoughts to place in the big bag that grows bigger still. LLc 98.2